Archive | August 2011


Blog update: It’s been a week since my husband and I began adding 1 heaping tablespoon daily to water and drinking Diatomaceous Earth. In less than a week from beginning to drink DE in the morning, already I have scars from bug bites that are slowly disappearing.

Millions of years ago, in all the waters of the earth, microscopic one-celled plants called diatoms took the minerals from the waters and created protective shells for themselves.
Food grade diatomaceous earth has many uses and excellent health benefits for humans, plants, and animals. Diatomaceous Earth appears as a fine powder and is mined all around the globe, making it a naturally occurring material. It is formed from the remains of microscopic organisms that lived in the water and had hard outer silica shells like glass. Over the eons these shells built up into the layers that are mined today. The form, Diatomite has a silica structure like sharp glass shards.

Diatomaceous Earth can be safely used around all types of animals and is only deadly for pests like insects. It is not harmful to earthworms. Among the list of pests that it kills and repels are: ants, termites, slugs, snails, fleas, fly maggots, aphids. bed bugs, mites, ticks, roaches, earwigs, scorpions, cutworms, ear worms, lawn grubs, grass hoppers, and many more. It does not kill due to a chemical action like most toxic poisons but rather kills by the structure of its sharp microscopic edges. The hard bodies of the pests are sliced open by the material and it literally drys them out and they die. You can also prinkle it in the hen’s nest boxes and on their roosts. Be aware though it will also kill beneficial insects, so don’t use it on blooming flowers to keep from killing pollinators such as bees.

Another use for Diatomaceous Earth is for the control of internal parasites such as round worms, tape worms, cecal worms and flukes. It is considered safe for the digestive system and many people even use it as a dietary supplement because of other minerals it contains such as iron. For dogs and cats, you simply add it to their food at the rate of 1 teaspoon daily for large dogs and 1/2 teaspoon daily for small dogs and cats.

There is no life without Silica and, In 1939, Nobel Prize Doctor Butenant proved that “Life can not exist without Silica”. And, in the 2003 book “Water & Salt” Dr. Barbara Hendel states that “Silica is the most important trace element in human health”. Silica plays an important role in many body functions and has a direct relationship to mineral absorption and health. The average human body holds approximately seven grams of silica, a quantity far exceeding the figures for other important minerals such as iron.

Diatomaceous Earth Will detox your body and assist in natural weight loss as well as the following: Aging Disorders, Alzheimer’s Disease, Atherosclerosis, Back Pain, Bone Health, Bone Mending, Lowers Cholesterol,Lowers Blood Pressure,Brittle Hair, Broken Bones, Bursitis, Capillary Strength, Dental Health, Fetal Development, Fractures, Fragile Nails, Hair Health, Immune System Health, Internal Cosmetic, Lower Back Pain, Mineral Deficiency, Osteomalacia Prevention, Osteoporosis, Rickets Prevention, Skin Disorders such as, itching, rashes, abscesses, boils, acne, callouses, warts, eczema, burns, frostbite, benign skin sores, insect bites, bed sores, Sprains, Tendinitis, Torn Ligaments, Vascular Disorder, Cough decreasing agent, Wound Healing, Wrinkles, and more…

Investigate Diatomaceous Earth for yourself to assist us until and when we release the system manifestations and consequences of consciousness design through self honesty and self forgiveness.

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One Year old, Choking, Assists Herself to Breathe

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Today Emmeline (1 year old granddaughter), became choked on less than a half of a piece of strawberry. I stood in amazement because before I could reach her to assist her, I watched as she used her three middle fingers to cause herself to gag the piece of strawberry back up, thus assisting herself to breathe. Sharing with Emmeline’s mom how I saw her assist herself, she told me how this past weekend, they were visiting friends who have children as well.

Emmeline was playing in the bedroom with the other children while the parents were in another room. Suddenly Emmeline came running out of the bedroom towards her mom and was choking and couldn’t breathe. Before Emmeline’s mom could get to her, Emmeline stopped and used her three middle fingers to gag herself, causing herself to throw up and in doing so she un-lodged a cap from a lotion bottle she had swallowed, which was choking her. As her momma stood there in amazement – Emmeline was back to playing. 

From the first time Emmeline began to eat solid foods and showed signs of choking, her mom and/or her dad would use their fingers in the same manner as Emmeline now does to assist herself – as long as there was no danger in pushing and/or lodging something further down her throat.  Unknowingly they were teaching Emmeline a life saving technique, because now, she is able to assist herself, if need be.  Children are incredible little beings.

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Emmeline is a little over a year old and she’s been walking for almost 2 months and, is beginning slowly to explore her running abilities. Together we explore our world 6-8 hours a day, 5 days a week, and have since she was 2 1/2  months. A child this age has so much to remind us of what we’ve forgotten, in how they touch, taste and smell their way within their physical world. They don’t yet become lost in the mind of thoughts – and instead are extremely aware of their ability to touch, and touch, lol, and touch. We were having some lunch of chicken noodle O’s, and she was curiously touching and examining the spoon, and gently tapping it on the side of the bowl. 

She really wanted to stick her hands in the middle of the bowl and scoop a handful but, that wasn’t being allowed. She was persistent in her attempts as she remained quietly patient and even mimicked the chuckles she heard of this adult person who was avoiding her efforts by moving the bowl away at just the right moment. Our eyes would meet as the bowl was moved and finally, there was a slight frown growing on her forehead right between her eyes.

It was upon seeing the distorted physical expression showing itself upon her face – in that precise moment, the bowl stopped moving away from her and she didn’t miss a breath as she scooped up a huge handful of noodle O’s, looked at them ever so dearly – even offered to share a bite, and then, slowly crammed them into her mouth as her tongue assisted her fingers to complete her pleasure. She closed her eyes briefly, then opened them, and as our eyes met she put her finger up to show one noodle O left on it, so as to share, as she muttered in complete joy, Mmm…

Together, we scooped some more, with both our hands… 

And God created Earthquakes


How is it that God created Earthquakes?  An earthquake is what happens when two blocks of the earth suddenly ‘slip past’ one another.  The surface where they slip is called the ‘fault’ or fault plane.  So to look at the 2,934 quakes on the map right now, causes one to ask self:  Is it Mother Earth making a statement?

What is the point that is being shown to us with regards to earthquakes? We arise from our beds in the morning and as our feet touch the ground, are we lost in our mind of thought, or are we here, breathing?  Are we accepting and allowing our fear and emotions to fuss towards others and/or, are we angry about what we must complete before the day is over in order to only barely survive?

As we ‘slip past’ one another with a callous attitude toward the sufferings of others – where we endlessly find ‘fault’, imperfection and blame and/ or censor others of the right to speak through justifying our own acceptances in allowing our current money system to continue to cause all living beings to have to squalor and prostitute themselves in order to survive.  It’s something worth investigating.

We allow our earth to be drilled and probed in the name of profit.  We have stripped and raped the land of earth for centuries with no consideration of it’s affects.  Mother Nature, the Earth,  both living organisms have been here long before humans. Is it possibly that the message being sent is one of discontent in order to show humanity our own designs of restless desires and/or cravings we exist as through greed, ego and selfishness in order to have and be more than another.  Maybe Earth is just intensifying the already accepted and allowed application humanity applies to/toward it and each other daily in our apparent quest to survive.

We’ve taken for granted what is here as we destroy the land, animals, our trees, air and water with no perception that each is more aware of us than we are of ourselves.  Have we ever considered that a tree feels the wrath of the axe or that water and air is aware of the pollutants we constantly fill their space with? 

Maybe we are just to dumb to consider that all life here is in fact a representation of ourselves. So let’s consider the message being sent, one that will become louder and louder until we each one stop the manipulation existent as who we’ve become and, let’s stand up in support of all Living Beings.

What would you do if you were the Earth, if you knew for sure that you were in fact one and equal as the earth and nature, as all here, what would you do to get the attention of all to stop the abuse accepted and allowed here towards all life? 

My perspective is, we don’t have the right to continue to allow our planet, the animal kingdom as well as each other to continue to suffer and to continue to destroy each other in our fear of ‘our own’ survival – instead of realizing that each one’s survival depends upon the survival of all. 

In common sense, we can see that we must first begin with an Equal Money System, so that everyone can begin to properly care for themselves so to begin to put this world back together within the only principle that will stand the test of time:  The Principle of Oneness and Equality.

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Compassion in Action

The Compassion of the Light (Compassion in Action) By Bernard Poolman – 4 October 2009
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What is an `Act of Compassion´ – given Everything you know about Reality… Would you say, if I may, `it is to love-them in Spite-of Everything´ –
-Why not? Would that be `spiteful´ – to ‘love-them’?
-“It would be deceptive – It would be an acceptance…”
-Who would be `spited´ by-it?
-Would you say – it would be `to carry their burden – and find a Way for-them´-
-“ No – `to carry their burden…´”
– = their Pain – where they carry/care? get anymore – you carry-it – because you `understand´ –
-“ Okay… Who are we talking-about though?”
-Oh Everything – Compassion!
-“ Are we talking about those that have no-Voice in this world, are we talking about those that cannot Stand-up for-themselves – or are we talking about those who deliberately…”
– How can those that is pre-programmed `stand-up for-themselves´?
Can they? Can they Hear-you?
-“ No…”
-They can´t Hear-you.
So would it be compassionate to `accept the Fact that they can´t Hear-you´?
-“ Yea.”
-Would it?
Or would it be Compassion to go out-of `your way´ to `shake-them´ and `break-them´ until they Hear?
-“ But within that you accept that they are `not-Hearing´- that´s why you´re doing-that.”
– Yes – but are you going to `accept-them´ for `what they are´ without Action?
-“ No.”
– So what Action would you Take – `compassionately-speaking´ –
-“ Whatever Action it-takes to `shake-them´.”
– Okay – and if you `feel-like´ "Oh I can´t really write a comment because they might `feel that I´m attacking-them´ – or they might `feel´ that I´m going a little-bit `over-board´ and then I´m gonna be in an `argument´…" – I mean – "I can´t really tell-it to-them `as it is´… -I rather just shut-up"… What are you doing then?
-“ That´s `compassion´ with your-own Fear”
– That´s `compassion with Fear´-
Then what…What is Compassion? I mean – at the moment, a Minimum of a Million-Beings -a Minimum!- of a Million-Beings are Dying – right-Now! What is Compassion within That-Context?
If it was You – would you´ve felt Alone, Rejected, Desolated, Isolated, Lost, Angry?
-“ Yea, I guess-so.”
– Would-have that made-it Possible for-you to become the next Demon in Existence?
-“ Yea.”
– Now if you don´t – and you try and ‘understand-it all’, just to ‘do-it again’ – would that be an ‘Act of Compassion’? Or would it be an ‘Act of Compassion’ to become the fiercest-Demon in Existence?
-“ To become the fiercest-Demon in Existence.”
– `In the flesh´ or Not-`in the flesh´ – no-matter where you are – to never give-up, to never-stop – `till Everyone Realize and See ‘each-other´s Plight’ – this ‘eternal-Fight’ with apparent `goodness´ & `badness´ – `good´ & `evil´ = See what is really going-on!
How-far will you Go? What…When is-it `Compassion´?
When – when – when is it `Compassion´? When is your-Act `compassionate´? When does `love´ exist? `Love´ is: an `Act of Compassion´ – an Act of `Understanding the Experience of the Being´ and finding a Solution that it (the suffering) is not needed or required to be Repeated-endlessly, needlessly, pointlessly, purposelessly –
Could there be `Purpose and Reason´ while this is all going-on? – Or is `Purpose and Reason´ a Deception? Is there any other Purpose in Existence – but: To absolutely-Embrace the Suffering of others until there is No-more Suffering – would that-be an Act of Compassion?
-“ Yea.”
– No-matter what `happens´ to your `good-Name´, your `good-Standing´, your `good-ness´ in Existence – until there is No-more Suffering! Can you Do-that? Can you Give-up Everything `till All is Equally Free – Would that be Compassion –
Would that be a Passion for Life?
Are you willing to Give-up your own-Existence in every-way – until there is: Equal Life – Equal Freedom – Equal Existence for All sentient-Beings – Would that be Compassion? Then one must Ask-yourself – if you are `compassionate´… Would that be `Benevolence´? Then you must Ask-yourself – if you are `benevolent´.
How-far will you Go, if you See – and you-Can if you are Self-Honest: See in this World how-far is things taken to promulgate and promote Suffering of Many – while Few live-in ‘Luxury’, apparent Freedom, apparently `protected by `God´´ – apparently this `God´ is `compassionate´ and this `God´ is `benevolent´ –
but do You see an End in-sight – of the Suffering? Can you see the End of Suffering – Self-Honestly speaking?
Are you doing-Enough = to End this Suffering – Self-Honestly speaking?
First of-all – I would go and -as-far as one go- Correct the Misconceptions about the Veils that is placed over Words: What is `Compassion´ Really? What is `Love´ Really? And call-out the ‘Deceivers in-Existence’ – those that Dare to ‘color-in’ Words ‘beautifully’ so that they may Hide behind-them their ‘True-Malevolence’ – their ‘True Self-Interest’, while Many-Suffer.
If you cannot Feel the Pain and Carry the Pain, Stand as the Pain and Take the Pain and bear-it within your own-Being – Every-Breath – ´till this is Done = you have-not Embraced `Compassion´ –
If you Walk `with-Ease´ – without-Pain = you have-Not Embraced `Compassion´ –
If you can Sleep without Pain – if you can Breathe without Pain = you are Not Embracing Compassion – you are Not Carrying it…the Pain of others that is unable to carry-it, that don´t know `what else to-do´,
that are relentlessly-`Driven´ to Absolute-powerl…to Absolute-levels of `Emotional-Disturbance´ that will take-them to an `demonic-existence of Anger and Resentment´ –
If you do-not carry-it to the Brink-of your very-own Death = there is No-Compassion.
And – Existence is going to Need a lot-of Compassionate-Beings: to solve This-Dilemma that is existent, that has been `veiled´ by Many-Veils.
Every-Word carries many-Veils.
Ask-yourself: What is True-Compassion? Stand there, where the Animal is being Slaughtered: and Ask-yourself what is true-Compassion. Stand there, where the Child is being Raped: and Ask-yourself. Stand there, where War Wages – Stand there, where there is Abuse: and Ask-yourself what is true-Compassion. Stand there, where many `drink and party´, oblivious to what´s going-on: and Ask-yourself what is true-Compassion.

Copyright 2009 Desteni Universe This may be shared in the original form only, to prevent any tampering and only as a complete document.

Addiction is Mind Control – You want to Stop – The Solution is Here

Tonight I read at least ten different current news articles stating how addiction is on the rise.  Then I read the following article which I’ll briefly quote from:  ScienceDaily (Aug. 15, 2011) — "The American Society of Addiction Medicine (ASAM) has released a new definition of addiction highlighting that addiction is a chronic brain disorder and not simply a behavioral problem involving too much alcohol, drugs, gambling or sex. This is the first time ASAM has taken an official position that addiction is not solely related to problematic substance use…(  )these outward behaviors are actually manifestations of an underlying disease that involves various areas of the brain."

Ok so, common sense can tell us more than what this group of physician’s are reporting.   Addiction is rapidly on the rise that is for sure and,  many are losing everything they have because of the manifested consequences of continuing their self-abusive patterns. 

Addiction, is just one of the plagues of consciousness and is a gateway which leads to most all of the problems we exist as.  Where we participate in our thoughts, feelings and emotions and where we exist in memories within our mind as we’re directed into and as lala land manifesting and projecting onto others and our world as we’re absorbed in greed, ego and self-interest.  We don’t require a group of physician’s to tell us so and more than likely we don’t require they prescribe us medication either -  if, we’ll just stop and become aware of ourself breathing firstly – as well as stop accepting and allowing ourselves to daydream ourselves right out of our physical reality.

The only dis-ease amongst us as humanity, is our mind and the direction we walk as it – where instead of facing our fears in self-honesty and stopping and forgiving ourselves for the atrocity we exist as according to what we allow of our current monetary system. Where within our ‘fear of survival mode’, we rely on our thoughts and energetic experiences as a tale tell sign of who we are.  Which by the way, we are not, we only ‘think’ ourself to be as such.  We are pre-programmed and impulsed through mind control every day in every waking minute.  We can stop our participation – if we will ourselves to.

The mess we subject ourself to is easy to be seen when one finally have had enough and have a look.   See how the mind doses out repetitive patterns over and over that can and will drive one insane and to the point of demonic acts of possession.  Look around in your world, there are plenty examples for one to clearly see.

If you don’t and/or won’t see this, then ask yourself how come because,  most will eventually seek advice and/or assistance outside of themself on a regular basis because people don’t know how to assist themself and simply can’t handle who and what they’ve become. 

It’s not a pretty picture I can promise you, however, thanks to the material through Desteni I Process and with the tools and Life coaching they offer,  I’ve been able to stop numerous addictions as well as mind possessions and depression, which one can read about in many of my blogs.  The assistance provided through the Desteni material is priceless because it enables one to assist themself, and to begin to enjoy life within a whole new awareness in seeing what the hell is really being allowed in this world.

Then, one is able to make a clear choice because, it becomes clear that there is no choice, there is only the decision to bring an end to our current money system.  Which is nothing more than an accessory to insanity, desperation and murder, where over a billion are starving to death daily and millions more and counting are homeless and struggling daily to survive. 

Just hearing the daily news can send one into depression and acts of addiction, and yet in a world where anything is possible, we can’t and/or won’t agree on a solution that will benefit all life equally.  Even when there is a solution that is not only possible, it is inevitable.

Stop waiting on your mind to decide for you to make a real change because, that’s not going to happen.  Equality is not part of your pre-programming and is certainly not impulsed in our society, so the decision, to finally be self-responsible for yourself as well as the world and, to actually walk yourself as the change that is required – you’re going to have to move yourself.

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Stop Pimpin Life as a Ride

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I read an article a couple of weeks ago about female college students joining a website in order to meet men.  Rich older men,  in which they would then ultimately exchange sex for money in order to pay their college debt and/or any outstanding bills they couldn’t afford.  The news article was titled ‘Seeking Arrangement: College Students Using ‘Sugar Daddies’ To Pay Off Loan Debt’. I was finishing a lesson through my Desteni I Process class, so, I placed a note for myself to come back to and investigate myself with regards to the point of judgment that I saw in how I was existing as toward the women in the article.

However, coming back to the point,  I sensed hesitation and a general lack of interest, so I decided to make a video with the same name as the article: ‘Seeking Arrangement: College Students Using ‘Sugar Daddies’ To Pay Off Loan Debt’. 

As I made the video, I allowed myself to see what came forth as a visual representation according to how my mind was processing the article and information.

I saw how I was superimposing (projecting) judgment onto the persons involved in the article and, how I was lessoning their experience through judging their situation as that of being ‘nothing’ compared to those who are starving to death and/or are living in poverty and homelessness around the world. The video provided me with excellent support so I could see as an example, how I had been existing through definitions, pictures and music through the eyes and direction of my mind according to how I was impulsed, patterned, controlled and constructed to become, which was,,, it was as though I was pimping and exploiting their experience within a point of suspense and a perverse glamour – similar to something I’ve seen in movies.

What was coming forth from within me was what I’ve accepted and allowed according to interpretations/definitions and stimulated me to believe that what the women were having to do, was somehow, striking and noble, spirited and/or heroic, and as such I judged them as less than those who are struggling with lesser means to survive.

I saw how I was existing in separation and selling myself to a limited self-definition where I hid in guilt and self judgment which I  then projected onto them – according to how I’ve accepted and allowed ‘myself’ to be controlled and/or pimped out through the media and/or movies to glorify acts imposed upon our physical body and our physical reality – according to how our current money system is designed.  To such a degree that I’ve disregarded others experiences of themselves as being real, that of being actually lived as, through acts of physical abuse and condemnation which often leads to physical disease and death.

I saw how I must forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to realize, that in accepting and allowing me to accept and allow emotions and feelings to exist in me and to be experienced by me, in how I’ve participated and acted out/within and as such emotions and feelings – which indicate that I am accepting and allowing me to sell myself short within the accepted and allowed existence/definition of me, as the emotions and feelings and judgments that I project onto others.  Which determines, controls, influences and directs who I am here in this moment, as well as determines, controls, influences and directs how all life experiences themselves in this reality.

Thus accepting and allowing me to prostitute me to/towards the limited expression of emotions and feelings, thoughts and memories – as such I’ve accepted and allowed limitation of selling myself short in the accepted and allowed existence of me as ‘self prostituting’ myself as well as all life.

The judgment I was projecting onto the women living the manifested physical consequences of our current money system, by selling their physical body through acts of sex in order to receive money to survive in this reality, was merely me judging me of the accepted and allowed act of prostituting myself to/towards fear of survival, living without money, obviously, fear of facing me.

And, because of the acceptance and allowance of fear having power over and of me, I’ve sold myself short within accepting and allowing memories of the past to have control and power over me.  Where I change and alter who I am, which indicates that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself according to them, limiting me to the existence of me as the memories I have prostituted myself as – as well limiting all life to a continued existence of prostituting itself in order to survive according to our current money system.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to prostitute myself into, as, and through thoughts, feelings, emotions and memories, wherein I projected judgment onto others according to how I was judging myself in how I was existing through the means of an accepted survival mode through and as our current money system by accepting and allowing definitions and fear to/towards money, as well as accepting the control placed by glamour and understating the crime against our physical bodies as portrayed through the media and movies, wherein’ reality’ is portrayed through fictional characters and then lessoned by the mind of consciousness and then accepted, allowed and ignored in order to further enslave us as humanity into continuing to accept and allow our current money system.

When and as I see myself existing in such a pattern, I realize that the mind has patterns and components that are impulsed through pictures, thoughts, memories, words, movement, sound, symbols, knowledge and/or information and are specifically placed and intended to alter and/or reduce our ability to see the realness and depth of the atrocities that we accept and allow to exist within our current reality.  I Stop.  I Breathe and I direct myself to be aware of what I am accepting and allowing myself to be in this moment here so as to direct myself according to and as a Principle of Equality as I stand in support of an Equal Money System, so that all life will be supported in order to experience themselves within our physical reality in dignity, as all as one as equal.

How have my decisions affected me?


Once again I’ve been accused of being in a cult, and how I’ve ‘given up’ friends and family because of the decisions I’ve made in the past, almost four years now.  I have to laugh at this because, let’s have a look at what I’ve ‘given up’:  Almost, if not all of the friendships and relationships I’ve supposedly ‘given up’ were abusive and self defeating to say the least.  I speak only about my part in these relationships and, I now stand self responsible for who I was and what I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become.

How have my decisions affected me?  Well, I have stopped addictions to smoking and all drug addictions, including that of smoking pot, and addictions to at least 8 different prescription medications.  I’ve stopped the highly addictive behavior of gambling as well as shoplifting to support my habit of gambling and, I’ve stopped lying to myself and others, which goes along with all addictions.  And, I have not only stopped, but I have NO desires to participate in them and, I don’t have to keep going to meetings in order to ‘feel good’ about my decision.  I also no longer ‘feel’ the need to gossip, judge and/or blame others for how I experience myself in my life and instead I take full responsibility for who I am and my actions thereof.  I am far from perfect but, I support myself daily through the tools I’ve realized work amazingly when applied.

I no longer accept that almost a billion people should continue to be allowed to starve to death daily and instead I comprehend that there is no sense to the madness and the atrocity of it being allowed while some in this world have more than they can possibly ever need and/or require in one lifetime while others have absolutely nothing.  Daily as I walk a process of self-honesty and self-forgiveness I am continually and genuinely shocked and amazed at the amount of mind control that is existent in us as humans, yet, mind control is working well because most humans will flat deny they are existing as such.  We as humanity have existed in competition and greed as we’re lead by the seat of our ego’s and, we have never given a shit about anyone except ourself and we’re scared to death to admit it.

 Through Desteni I Process, I have stopped feelings and emotions of severe depression as well as all of the above addictions and behaviors mentioned.  I am beginning to breathe for the first time ever and stopping the bullshit I had always accepted myself to become.  So whoever wants to accuse me of being in a cult can basically, kiss my ass.  Because for once in my life I get that we are all equal and one to how our world exists and it’s flat out pathetic what we refuse to see in how we are all existing as.

I have absolutely NO regrets in my decisions to join Desteni except one, and that is that I didn’t begin sooner. This world cannot continue the way it is and it’s high time each and every one of us shut the hell up, breathe and see what it is we’re accepting and allowing.  Or, I suppose you can go have another sip of alcohol while you pretend that everything is going to be alright and, pretending is all it is because, eventually the eruption that is taking place all over the world will erupt in the face of what we’re accepting and allowing.  So remember, there is one place you can look to for assistance, where Equality will always be.   That is Desteni.  When you decide to stop – Join Us.  We are standing up for and as all life, as all as one as Equal.  We will NOT Stop until Equality exists here for All.

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Self Acceptance through Self Forgiveness


I forgive myself for the child in me who feared and hated and for the adult I became who accepted and allowed anger and hate and spite towards myself and others wherein I felt sorry for myself and others and in doing so I separated myself from all life and accepted and allowed the world to exist as it is.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to experience anger at the idea of myself as feeling sorry for myself for being trapped in the design of me.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to experience anger at the design of control and censorship that humanity exists as and such for a moment I allowed the thought to exist within me where I wanted to tell the whole world to fuck off and/or die.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think there’s something wrong with me because I feel fed up with life to the point that I want to tell others to wake the hell up and/or fuck off.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to project myself onto others wherein I have held onto a point of victimization as how I existed and in doing so I have victimized all life here.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to project anger and hate of self onto others and in doing so I have accepted and allowed anger and hate to manifest within this world.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing hate that caused me to go into depression and loneliness of self because I wanted to be more wherein nothing made me feel like more because in accepting and allowing such I am denying myself to myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing thoughts and ideas of self abuse, self pity and spite towards myself and others in frustration that others are unable to perceive the deception we all have existed as.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to want to give up on myself and humanity and for thinking and believing that I am not worthy of existing in this world within free expression without the fear of doing something wrong.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to grow up feeling sorry for myself so much so that I have felt sorry for others when in fact there is no one to feel sorry for – there is only life as us all to stand up for and as so as to bring about a world that is worthy and exists according to what’s best for all.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be caught in a time loop in which I experience myself as difficult and frustrating where it seems hard to be me because I see what I have accepted and allowed myself to exist as.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be a slave to expectations within society in fear that I will be influenced into believing that this world cannot change and where I have accepted and allowed myself to want to please others to the point of not seeing how and what I was existing as which has been in separation from and as all life here.   I am not a slave to my past.  I am here directing myself to not allow myself to enter cycles of self pity and self abuse.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into judgment and regret of what might have been and/or due to fear of change wherein I then feel sorry for myself within a point of self victimization.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to abandon myself within a purpose of trying to make others happy wherein I selfishly and secretly sought attention, instead of realizing that in doing so I am avoiding facing fears that I have always avoided facing as who I’ve been and how and what I’ve accepted and allowed myself to exist as, which is nothing more than the mind directing me instead of me standing in self-honesty and directing me as my mind according to and as the principle of equality.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to never really understand what it means to be and to love myself and to nurture me because I have feared myself and others because I have wanted to please people or be liked.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed anger to be me wherein I have spited others who are against Desteni and Equality instead of realizing that in doing so I am actually spiting myself and all life for what I have accepted and allowed in not standing and directing myself according to and as all as one as equal.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am brave when in fact I have been fearful of a world that is hating and fighting each other, instead of realizing that I have been existing in hate and fighting against myself within how and what I have accepted and allowed myself to exist as.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to reject me, Cathy, because I allowed thoughts and feelings of anger and self pity to exist which I had not yet directed as myself – one and equal.

I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to see that weakness is a lie and is determined by the definition and power I believe it to be and of which is a lie and I no longer believe nor accept and allow myself to believe such a thing.  Instead I realize that I am here as this moment as breath as life as all as one as equal.

I Stop.  I Breathe, I see within myself what I accepted and allowed myself to be which is afraid of changing myself because what I participated in still had value to me and thus I was not willing to confront the point.  I see the point and I forgive myself for existing within a self defined definition of myself within what I was participating in.

I see that within every moment there are various points that I am facing and what I’m willing to accept and allow within each moment. Self trust is realizing that I am able to assist and support me no matter what, who or how the moment presents itself when I am standing breathing in self-honesty according to what’s best for all.  I am grateful for me and I will not be defined through an expression or action and/or by how a situation presents itself to be nor by anyone except me, standing here as all as one as equal.

Why do we need an Equal Money System?


When we are very young children, the idea of love and money doesn’t really matter to us . What does matter is that we are able to play and, that we are being cared for ‘physically’, with food, water, clothes and shelter, as well as the ability to have an Education and Healthcare.  It’s not until we are taught how to ‘think’, ‘believe’, ‘talk’, and then ‘act’, that we begin to perceive the importance of love and money.  Then we begin to suppress our fears through feelings and emotions with regards to love and money, where we begin the search to find someone to ‘love’ us and it becomes all that is important as we begin to cover up what we’re truly experiencing within ourselves with regards to our fear of surviving and/or our fear of having no money in order to survive.

As mind consciousness systems, preprogrammed according to how we are taught, we’ve never actually experienced love because love has never been free from risk.  If what we risk reveals what we value, it makes sense that we’ve always valued money over life because we’ve always been willing to risk having more than others just as long as we are able to survive.   I never  wanted to face this point of self because no one wants to admit they are willing to risk the lives of others in order to have more than another – yet in the race to have more we have put the lives of others at risk.

The same principle of risk applies to love and relationships as well because, we are willing to risk being the one who is loved and appreciated the most above others – it’s the same with all energetic experiences we participate in,  including eating as well as playing because according to our programming, there have always been competition amongst us.  We feed off of love and money through various emotion and feeling experiences generated through the act of thinking.  Energies which are created by the mind which confine and direct us and, once the energies run out we then begin repeating the cycle.

There’s energetic excitement in the game of surviving, so I suppose it’s no wonder that some have difficulty supporting Equal Money because, who will we be when we don’t have the power of money in which to define us as better than another.  Sexual favors are also bought by those who have the money to pay for it and money as such is given to those who have no other means but to offer their body to sex in order to survive.

Look at the number of people who reach the end of their life, who are often reported saying they wish they would have taken more risks however, the risk they never took was to challenge life outside of the direction of their current mind set  – the risk of seeing ourselves in self-honesty where we are then able to recognize our oneness with everything and all here.

We risk the lives of others daily when we avoid recognizing and considering the struggles of others through war, starvation and homelessness.  With an ‘Equal Money System’ – All Life will be considered and provided for.  Where real freedom exists – there will be no more silencing the voice of those speaking out against atrocity and thus the atrocities of life will stop.  To silence one, is to silence us all because our current money system plays us against each other.  An Equal Money System will eventually bring an end to our bickering and fighting with each other and all crimes against life will end because all life will be supported Equally.

Risk who you are in self-honesty  according to what’s best for all, and in-fact you’ll be risking nothing but, will achieve everything for yourself as well as for all.  ‘Make Peace, Be Friends with Your Enemy’, is statement in separation that can be seen through self-forgiveness where we then manifest the ability to see that forgiveness of others was never necessary because we see that there was never anyone else to forgive, or ‘make peace with’, except for ourself. 

We have to risk facing who we’ve become in order to see who we are because who we are is Equal and One to and as All Life here according to what we accept and allow. Where you see and understand that every single being has the same right to a life in dignity as we in-fact require for ourself in order for our physical body to breathe and function here on earth properly.  When we all as one equally begin to walk as such we will together manifest heaven on earth and then who knows what we are capable of,  but it’s going to be quite a party – An Equal Life Party.  Join Us!

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