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Day 251: Forgiving Self Betrayal

Today my partner drove and he and I went off doing a bit of travelling through the backwoods of pawnee and creek county. So we were going along this stretch of road and I began to notice how the road was triggering a memory I have of myself from long ago, and then, an uneasiness began deep within my gut/stomach. I also noticed my breathing was becoming slightly labored and my heartbeat slightly increased and my energy/stamina level began to drop – kind of like the way a person will experience themselves when their sugar level drops.

the suffering of othersSo, just as we were about to come to the place where we would turn off the winding road we were travelling on, I began to experience a pull from within the center of my chest area… A dull pain began in my upper back and chest area and I felt as if I was being sucked into some sort of vortex within my mind and it was then that I chose to let go of the past memory/energy that was begging my participation and it was then that I realized, ‘damn, this is what betrayal feels like, insignificance, fear, and self betrayal’.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to Not see, realize and understand that betrayal is that of blame, and how within my experience of inSIGNificance, there were SIGNS for me to see – how when I felt betrayed by something or someone, it was because I conditionally placed my faith and my trust and ultimately my responsibility for me, for my life – I placed it in the hands of another – I gave my life over to another separate form me – giving responsibility for myself to another, instead of taking responsibility for my own life and my own life experiences – then when my life hasn’t worked out the way I wanted it to, I felt betrayed by them, when the fact is, I handed over my life to them, I gave them responsibility of me and ultimately, I became angry.

Therefore, I forgive myself for the anger of betraying myself – for not taking self responsibility for my life and for how I experienced myself, and for suppressing that which I was really experiencing, blaming the experience and my situation on others, on the world, on society as a whole, yet all along presenting to the world that I’m fine, that I’m strong – betraying/deceiving myself and those within my world – blaming others for my own betrayal and deception.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become so engulfed in the fear of taking responsibility that I accepted and allowed my physical body to become petrified, frozen in/as self betrayal and self denial.

Redefining Self Betrayal:

When and as I see myself giving myself over to another and suppressing myself within a point of insignificance which leads to self denial and self betrayal, I stop. I Breathe. I see, realize and understand that this is a pattern within and as my mind – that I Am Willing myself to Stop, to re-design myself, to take Self-responsibility for myself and the World as myself.

I commit myself to let go of the idea’s that I’ve existed as within and as my past relationships to who I am within and as self betrayal.

I commit myself to Stop self denial.

I commit myself to take Self-Responsibility for myself and Stop blaming others for how I experience myself.

I commit myself to changing who I am as my mind/physical body within and as this physical reality/existence as one who is Not a betrayer of self, but is instead Standing within and as the Directive Principal of what I see, realize and understand as the utmost importance, to assist in bringing forth a World where All Life is given to Equally within the Principle of What’s Best for All.

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Creation Journey to Life
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Activist’s Journey To Life

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And God created Earthquakes

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How is it that God created Earthquakes?  An earthquake is what happens when two blocks of the earth suddenly ‘slip past’ one another.  The surface where they slip is called the ‘fault’ or fault plane.  So to look at the 2,934 quakes on the map right now, causes one to ask self:  Is it Mother Earth making a statement?

What is the point that is being shown to us with regards to earthquakes? We arise from our beds in the morning and as our feet touch the ground, are we lost in our mind of thought, or are we here, breathing?  Are we accepting and allowing our fear and emotions to fuss towards others and/or, are we angry about what we must complete before the day is over in order to only barely survive?

As we ‘slip past’ one another with a callous attitude toward the sufferings of others – where we endlessly find ‘fault’, imperfection and blame and/ or censor others of the right to speak through justifying our own acceptances in allowing our current money system to continue to cause all living beings to have to squalor and prostitute themselves in order to survive.  It’s something worth investigating.

We allow our earth to be drilled and probed in the name of profit.  We have stripped and raped the land of earth for centuries with no consideration of it’s affects.  Mother Nature, the Earth,  both living organisms have been here long before humans. Is it possibly that the message being sent is one of discontent in order to show humanity our own designs of restless desires and/or cravings we exist as through greed, ego and selfishness in order to have and be more than another.  Maybe Earth is just intensifying the already accepted and allowed application humanity applies to/toward it and each other daily in our apparent quest to survive.

We’ve taken for granted what is here as we destroy the land, animals, our trees, air and water with no perception that each is more aware of us than we are of ourselves.  Have we ever considered that a tree feels the wrath of the axe or that water and air is aware of the pollutants we constantly fill their space with? 

Maybe we are just to dumb to consider that all life here is in fact a representation of ourselves. So let’s consider the message being sent, one that will become louder and louder until we each one stop the manipulation existent as who we’ve become and, let’s stand up in support of all Living Beings.

What would you do if you were the Earth, if you knew for sure that you were in fact one and equal as the earth and nature, as all here, what would you do to get the attention of all to stop the abuse accepted and allowed here towards all life? 

My perspective is, we don’t have the right to continue to allow our planet, the animal kingdom as well as each other to continue to suffer and to continue to destroy each other in our fear of ‘our own’ survival – instead of realizing that each one’s survival depends upon the survival of all. 

In common sense, we can see that we must first begin with an Equal Money System, so that everyone can begin to properly care for themselves so to begin to put this world back together within the only principle that will stand the test of time:  The Principle of Oneness and Equality.

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