Archive | March 2011

Forgiving Living for a Fathers Love

fathersloveSharing here further self-forgiveness that I wrote after I completed a recent mind-construct in SRA…I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire the love of a father when it really wouldn’t have mattered who my father was because it only mattered who I thought and dreamed he was according to the enormous protective and often mythic man my mind offered as ideas of who and how a father should be and become toward their daughter according to the influence of my mind and the thoughts of others ideas of what it meant to experience self as being loved and adored by a father. I stop. I stand here within and as assistance from myself as my physical body breathing and I direct myself as my mind according to and as the Principle of Equality.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be the child gazing upon her father as he left for work wherein I thought only my daddy could look like that as I sat in amazement at how he looked all handsome with his pressed shirt and collar and I believed I truly loved him as much as he believed he truly loved his dollar according to the fear of survival imposed upon us all as humanity according to what we have accepted and allowed to exist within and as our current money system. I stop. I stand in self-honesty and support of an Equal Money System which will remove the fear of survival within our world and will begin to allow self-expression as who we really are to emerge.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to long for the touch and closeness from a father whom I barely knew except in the deepest parts of me lost within my mind where no matter how hard I tried and cried he couldn’t or wouldn’t hear me as I believed with all my heart that I loved him while I fought feelings of rejection through emotional fears as if my heart was being ripped apart while I hoped for and dreamt and wondered what it would feel like to experience the daily affection from a father who would walk and hold hands with me according to the pictures I held within my mind where I longed to be held and hugged and told how beautiful and special I was just like one would see in a goddamn movie. I Stop, I realise this is a pattern of self-abuse and I see that it leads me in circles of self-denial. Instead I stand here according to a principle that considers all life Equally in all ways as I stand in support of an Equal Money System and World Equality.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to overlook the root cause of discontent amongst myself and my parents according to the family construct existent here as mind consciousness systems wherein the starting point of fear of survival is compounded and accepted and allowed through our current money system which exists as abuse to and towards all living beings and wherein I defined and distracted myself according to the nature of enslavement because I believed I knew what love is – when love has only ever existed as consciousness enslavement according to and as the mind of thoughts, feelings and emotional whims directed as the mind and lived in the physical as outbursts of reactions within energetic outflows. I stop self-abuse. I stand in support of an Equal Money System so that All living beings may thrive Living a Life according to and as All as One as Equal.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist according to and as the expectation and direction of and as my mind within an idea of how a father is suppose to treat their daughter according to and as my own manifested consequences wherein I was influenced according to and as my father behaved to and towards me as he reflected back to me what I was projecting onto him as who and how I was existing in victimization as I accepted and allowed the direction of and as my mind within a self imposed pattern of self-defeat and self-manipulation wherein I  accepted and allowed myself to be and became inferior and in fear of men. I stop. I breathe, remaining in awareness of all of us as All as One as Equal.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to manipulate others in my family through my words, deeds and actions so as to not have to face the defects I believed about myself wherein I become angry and spiteful and participated within and as my mind of back chat thoughts toward my step dad as I continued to depend upon his actions and attention in order for me to perceive myself as feeling whole and complete all the while I projected blame through an implication game wherein I saw my step dad as the reason and cause for how I experienced myself within my world. I stop. I stand here in self-honesty as I face myself and my fears of what I have accepted and allowed – I stop self-abuse. I support all life according to and as The Principle of Equality.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hold onto to my reactions of and as hurt feelings of betrayal within the interpretation that my father couldn’t or wouldn’t see past his ideas – when I was in fact doing the same thing. I couldn’t and/or wouldn’t see beyond his mind construct/behavior – not seeing where he was coming from wherein I did not take Equality into consideration as I too was stuck in my own mind construct/behavior, thus us both stuck according to the mind consciousness systems. I stop. I breathe. I direct myself here according to the Equality Equation as all Life here as I Stand in support of an Equal Money System.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become the definition of helplessness wherein I have depended on a man to provide and care for me and only felt safe in my world according to when I have the love of a man because of  my judgment of self wherein I reflected self back to self and created my experience of myself according to my own self-judgment within self-victimization as I attempted to manipulate and control my step dad according to a belief within my mind where I believed that my step dad was the most aggressive and dislocated dad in the world which further fueled the energy charging the self-abusive pattern I was existing as in order to validate myself, which was really validating myself as insufficient and/or incapable of becoming self responsible, thus believing and accepting that I had to have a man in my life in order to provide for me so that I could survive. I stop fear of survival. I stop the need for a savior. I stand here breathing as I support myself in self-honesty and direct myself as my mind through and as the assistance as me as my physical body and I stand in support of an Equal Money System – The Solution – stopping fear of survival.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel as if I was missing something when my friends spoke of their time with their fathers and so I dreamt of what that time would be like to where I trapped myself in my own version of a timed reality within and as my mind as I existed in polarity within and as my physical reality according to and as self-denial in which I was living as a self-definition according to the experiences I’d heard others speak of therefore losing myself to that which is real here within and as my physical body within and as this world according to the direction of my mind under the influence of and as a mind consciousness system. I stop. I support all living beings as I stand in support of an Equal Money System.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to depend on the never ending seeking and searching for approval for love from my father and/or others as a way of not taking self-responsibility for myself in how my participation within and as my thoughts and my emotional feelings are/were assisting in creating suffering within and as our world as I continued to blame my step dad my whole life as I existed within guilt and fear of self, seeking attention within an illusion of comfort and safety wherein I would not have to face myself in self-honesty and take self responsibility for myself and/or others existing here within and as this world who are existing in and as pain and suffering. I stop. I breathe. I stand in support of an Equal Money System according to and as the Principle of Equality.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame my father for what I perceived he could/couldn’t and/or wouldn’t give/offer me as I didn’t realize that self-honesty comes from within self and within my perceptional search for self acceptance outside of myself I was only ever searching for myself within self-honesty. I stop. I begin here as I stand in support of an Equal Money System and World Equality – To End Abuse – To Support All Living Beings according to and as The Principle of Equality.

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Forgiving the child as me who I became according to fears and beliefs

I’m almost finished with the current mind construct which has been the focus of my day all day . And, along the way a remarkable moment occurred where the self-judgment/self-abuse in which I’ve carried now for two weeks about myself, like a goddamned saddle bag, disengaged and released.  One of those amazing moments within process, when release comes with self-forgiveness in such a way, which you can’t explain, and, you really don’t require to. The coolest part of the ‘disengagement of self-abuse’, is that the judgments and jealousy I was forgiving according to my secret mind and back chat towards others, disappeared as well.  Proving for myself once again, that any and all judgments I have toward another is absolutely only the judgments in which I’m holding against myself.  Self-forgiveness heals from the inside out and gives self back to self.
Sharing here just a couple of the self-forgiveness statements that I wrote earlier today – which allowed me to accept the releasing of the old memory patterns of self-judgment and spite toward myself and others of my past which were actually in fact only of myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become angry and bitter  where I feared and avoided confrontation according to fear of loss and fear of losing control and accepted and allowed myself to believe myself as less than and incapable because I compared myself to another and cast judgment and blame onto them instead of facing myself in self-responsibility. Instead, I humbly ask myself from the inside out to forgive this part of me of which I no longer accept as I let go and release the sadness, and pain and sorrow, and I remain self-responsible as I stand according to and as all as one as equal.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have opinions, expectations and fears to and towards men within a point of desperation according to a mind construct pattern requiring energy in order to maintain itself as me wherein I didn’t stop and consider all but existed within a point of helplessness. I stop. I direct myself in realising that the pattern of myself in which I once was, no longer serves me within and as my physical body as who I am becoming in self-honesty.  I stop. I breathe.  I direct myself in and as self-honesty and release myself as me as my physical body from the strains I have in the past allowed and accepted as self-abuse, and I stand here directing self with the assistance from my wholeself as my physical body with every part of me as I stand in support of an Equal Money System and World Equality as All as One as Equal.

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Detox through Self-Forgiveness

silky blue watersI forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that happy, sad and joyful and/or remorseful is a true state of being in order to influence myself and others as being divine and/or sinful according to an experience of myself within and as the physical wherein I manipulated and constructed alternate views of myself as I became possessed and obsessed with wanting and seeking more until I manifested and created abuse towards myself and others as I played the deadly game of polarity. I stop. I breathe. I stand here before myself in self-honesty and bare myself for me to see who and what I have become and I strengthen myself according to the principle of equality so that all life here may not continue to manifest and construct abuse, but instead see the part of themselves within and as all of existence.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to exist within a self defined category of self hatred and self regret according to and as a self destructive nature wherein I accepted and allowed myself to be and become blame and shame within anger and sorrow and within that destroyed the nature of life for myself and generations to come just like my mom and dad, and their mom and dad as we continued to destroy life according to and as the direction of our mind. I stop the cycle of abuse.  I breathe. I direct myself for and as all life here according to the principle of equality where I accept and allow all life a world lived in self-honesty here within and as the physical purified as all as one as equal.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to always want, need and desire to be right according to some divine wisdom and/or insight as knowledge and information that I believed I had, which I never did have, but was only existing as according to and as the direction of my mind in which I willingly participated.  Instead I direct me here in self-honesty as the breath of life in this moment having no predetermination and/or ideas or preconceived wisdom except to will myself here as all as one as equal as I stand in support of an Equal Money System as a beginning solution for all to live side by side in dignity.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to doubt and fear myself as not being life worthy wherein I remain silent yet within that I still want and desire attention from others as if I’m some sort of fallen rock star that never was, as I hated myself for the very desires  that I long ago accepted and allowed and acted as for so long until I became them.   I stop. I breathe. I let resistance go as who I have been.  I stand within and as self-honesty and accept and allow myself to become life birthed here within and as the physical as all as one as Equal.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to take all life for granted as I abused myself mentally as I participated in thoughts and became an abomination to and as creation wherein I didn’t realize how I was creating brutality and terror that exists within and as this world where innocent children are suffering daily. Instead I stand and direct myself according to and as the principle of equality wherein I support an Equal Money System accepting and allowing all life to exist in dignity.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to abuse myself according to and as the direction of my mind as thoughts to such a degree that I didn’t even recognize who I was or how I was becoming amidst the clutter of feelings and emotions swelling inside me as desires of my flesh would beg for attention wherein I lost all senses of myself and what is real here within and as this physical reality. I stop. I breathe. I accept and allow me completely to face me here standing as all as one as equal.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel sorry for myself wherein I believed that I am not capable and allowed myself to struggle according to the direction of my mind within an idea of who I am and/or was wherein I have been selfish and unforgiving of myself and all life as I directed myself in spite towards myself and others. I stop. I breathe. I  accept and allow myself to be and become worthy of and as all as one as equal.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to pretend to be strong when really I wanted to crawl away and hide wherein I judged myself as being inadequate and ineffective according to an experience of myself when I was a child in which I predetermined who I would be and how I would act and in the process became the very definition of misery. Instead I direct me here according to and as oneness and equality.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fall in love with faith and hope wherein I didn’t know what self-responsibility really meant because I remained lost in dreams of a better day and a better energetic experience of myself as I existed in selfish pride and ego as I manifested heartache and greed upon myself and others. I stop. I breathe. I stand before myself and face myself in self-honesty as I support an Equal Money System for and as all as one as equal.

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to abdicate myself from life according to how I defined myself within the words faith and hope that a higher being was going to come here and sort me and this world out with a solution separate from myself and all wherein I would then bow and kneel at their disposal.  Instead I stand and take self-responsibility for myself and all life in realising that the solution to all and everything here is based on the equality equation wherein all life is determined according to and as all as one as equal.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that I am not life worthy and/or that my light does not shine bright enough and equal to others wherein I have forsaken myself and others according to the desires of and as the direction of my mind. Instead I stand and realise that I am life worthy according to and as the principle of equality as I stand in support of an Equal Money System.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe in a holy place in the sky where I would go when I died because I was saved according to my belief in a God and/or Jesus who I believed died on the cross for my sins and  because I believed in it for and as selfish reasons I then believed that I was washed in the blood of Jesus.  Instead I stand and direct me here according to and as the principle of equality within an understanding that all living beings are sacred and deserve to live a life in dignity.  I direct myself within and as my physical body as I stand in support of an Equal Money System for all life to live heaven on earth for real.

 

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Outcome Equality

My whole life I never considered as a possibility that I can simply say what a situation is without trying to control the outcome according to and as the direction of and as my mind -  because the direction of my mind had never considered –

that the only outcome applicable is that of all life here according to and as all as one as Equal.  No exceptions.  And that I have to ask the correct question in order to receive the answer required for and as self in the exact moment, which is always only here breathing in this moment.

I cannot accept an answer as who I am – until I’ve lived the answer through and as accumulated action of and as myself as who I am in self-honesty, self-trusting, self-directing, and willing self in giving up all of who I’ve been to redesign an outcome becoming to and as the Principle of Equality where all life is considered within and as any and all outcome. So in my questioning, I must always first ask myself, is the outcome within my answer what’s best for All and in all ways Equality – Simply lived as who I am as All as One as Equal.

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Exposed

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist as backchat/secret mind through feelings and/or emotions of how I experienced myself as a child according to and as the direction of my mind as not being adequate, smart enough and/or worthy of standing equal to and as all as one as equal.  I stop. I breathe. I direct myself as my mind in and as self-responsibility according to and as the Principle of Equality standing here in support of an Equal Money System for all living beings to live life in dignity once and for All.

 

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Money is accepted as more important than life in this world and proof of that is in the millions who are currently starving.  So we all depend on money to survive, we slave for it, and we desire it in the secret places of our mind in which we barely notice, and we try to deny that Money is God.  In the past I have denied it as well,  but now I see there is no denying the condition we exist as so the power we’ve given money must be distributed equally amongst all.  While writing a mind construct in SRA I’ve been discovering, forgiving and releasing the parts of me I’ve been denying.  It’s a humbling experience to say the least and one in which I’m still revealing.

How I was controlled by this world and others in my world according to and as money was not as it seemed but was because of how I perceived and believed myself to be.  I did not consider and fully understand how I participated in creating experiences of myself,  which was according to an illusion, which I made real through how I defined myself according to what existed and currently exists within this world which was/is the very illusion in which I participated within and as according to the direction I accepted and allowed by my mind.  I became angry, and I was actually angry towards myself because I didn’t succeed in manipulating my parents so that I could have an experience of myself the way I wanted and in my accepted and allowed dishonesty, I directed my anger towards my parents in blame through spiteful thoughts, where I accepted and allowed myself to remain dishonest as I attempted to manipulate them through acting out in reactions of emotions and feelings in order to achieve a certain experience of myself according to the way in which I believed was best for me.  I did not consider what was best for all.  I then transformed and manifested my ideas into a reality which I then experienced as being real, when in actuality, none of it was real as it was all constructed and designed according to a principle hidden, lived and applied under  God/Money. 

Money is the design that connects us all and allows us to continue in spite, greed and ego, the manipulation game of having, seeking and desiring to be and have more than another – instead of considering what is best for all.

I cannot blame or condemn because I, individually, as myself am as much responsible for what this world has become as anyone existing here.  I did nothing, I sat back and accepted and allowed abuse to continue because of my own self-interest according to the fears that I became as a manifested condition of myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to exist according to and as a condition of myself defined according to and as money where I manipulated and attempted to control others in my world so that I may achieve a place of supremeness where I believed, accepted and allowed spitefulness and dishonesty to be who I became and participated in within my mind as I acted in emotional outflows of myself in order to achieve the desired attention of another all the while hiding in fear of facing myself.

I stop. I breathe. I direct myself here according to and as the Principle of Equality in understanding that Money is God and that in order to survive within this world we all require money/god, so I accept and allow and I stand in support of an Equal Money System so that all may live their life in dignity as All as One as Equal.

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Money stress within family will stop–with Equal Money

I am more aware than ever how fucked up feelings and emotions and participating in thoughts are. The proof is in the mind construct I’m currently writing with regards to my step dad.  My mind resists me seeing what I’ve held suppressed for so many years – but I keep breathing and pushing myself. I am seeing how I misinterpreted my complete experience of myself as a child where I existed in emotional outbursts, fears and ideas according to how and what I accepted and allowed myself to believe in, with regards to how a father should behave and act towards his daughter – and when he didn’t, I tortured myself within my mind and overlooked what I was really accepting and allowing because I feared facing myself.

The thing that amazes me the most is the part about the money that my mind didn’t want me to notice. But now, I’ve been able to see how money was the defining reason as to why my step dad responded to me the way he did because he worked physically hard to provide food and a place to live and everything else a family requires to function properly within this world. Our current money system has never assisted and supported anyone, and society frowns upon a father who is not bringing in enough money to support his family. Of course he was proud, but I suppose that assisted him to survive the best he knew how and/or was willing to see according to his fear of survival. The pressures regarding money become extreme within a home, and children are left to the imagination and direction of their mind. The thought participation fuels emotional and feeling disturbance’s inside us to such a degree that children then act accordingly in fear.  Self-abuse then becomes the prominent pattern of their existence according to the direction as a mind consciousness system. 

It will be benefitting and very assisting to the child if parents will just be self-honest in facing themselves, and share with their children appropriately their fears, because the mind is not able to respond so quickly to self-honesty.  Which will provide the child the opportunity to see the common sense.  So as to be able to stop themselves from becoming the identity according to their fears based on thoughts and ideas of their mind.  Clearly an Equal Money System is the solution because people are requiring immediate assistance. Stress regarding money will then be eliminated within the family construct and will allow everyone to stop fear of survival.  Which will then allow self-expression to begin a natural flow as who we are. I am 1 Vote for Equal Money & World Equality.

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SHOW ME THE MONEY

womenstandingupLadies, let’s walk.  According to a recent study from, ‘The California State University’, Los Angeles Media Psychology Lab, under the directorship of Stuart Fischoff, Ph.D., Professor of Media Psychology.  ‘Show me the money’, is the most popular movie quote ever according to the question asked of females.

It’s interesting – because I have lived and am still forgiving myself for my participation and reasoning behind the madness according to the female mind consciousness system. According to what I have accepted and allowed. Still, sooner or later, every female knows something rarely spoken.  Which is, all men are the same, and created equal.  We know from our experiences with men that they’re ultimately all the same. So, Show me the Money, because we know that at least if he’s got money, we can tolerate whom ever we finally decide to settle down with for the rest of our lives. Or until and when a new guy comes along and shows us attention who has more money and for the moment new energy to replace the energy gone with the current guy. No energy lasts eternally, we know it, it’s all the same eventually. So money fills us up, keeps us occupied, entertained, and assures us that we are provided for.

That’s just the truth as I’ve realized it according to myself and every female I’ve ever been friends with – if they were to stand up and be self-honest, in public. So let’s be self-honest, we’re all equal and all must exist as such.   As a female, I also recognize that almost every female existing on this planet will and does agree, that an Equal Money System and World Equality is the Solution – if, they were to stand up and be self-honest, in public.

This brings me to a curious point – according to the following statistics provided below, you will see more reasons that We as Women will come Together and Stand Up and Stop what’s being accepted and allowed as we Stand as One Vote for an Equal Money System. Have a read and realise the general health and violence statistics will improve and stop with the implementation of an Equal Money System.

Status of Women
    * Women have not achieved equality with men in any country.
    * Of the world’s 1.4 billion poor people, it is estimated that nearly 75per cent are women.
    * Between 75 and 80 per cent of the world’s 28 million refugees are women and children.
    * Women’s life expectancy, educational attainment and income are highest in Sweden, Canada, Norway, USA and Finland.

Women and Population
    * There are slightly fewer women than men in the world — 98.6 women for every 100 men
    * However, Women outlive men in almost every country.
    * Out-of-marriage births have increased more than 55 per cent in the last 20 years in developed countries.
    * One in every five households in the world is now headed by a woman.
    * The life expectancy of women has gone up. In 1992, the average woman lived to be 62.9 years in developing countries compared to 53.7 years in 1970. In industrialized countries, women’s average life expectancy in 1992 was 79.4 years, up from 74.2 in 1970.
    * By 2025, the proportion of women aged 60 or older will almost double in East and South-East Asia, Latin America and the Caribbean, and North Africa.


Political Participation
      * Women hold 11.7 per cent of the seats in the world’s parliaments.
    * In early 1995, Sweden formed the world’s first cabinet to have equal numbers of men and women.
    * Of the 185 highest-ranking diplomats to the United Nations, seven are women.
    * The percentage of female cabinet ministers worldwide has risen from 3.4 in 1987 to 6.8 per cent in 1996.

Women and Education
    * Of the world’s nearly one billion illiterate adults, over two-thirds are women.
    * Two-thirds of the 130 million children worldwide who are not in school are girls.
    * During the past two decades the combined primary and secondary enrollment ratio for girls in developing countries increased from 38 per cent to 78 per cent.

Women and Labour
    * The majority of women earn on average about three-fourths of the pay of males for the same work, outside of the agricultural sector, in both developed and developing countries.
    * In most countries, women work approximately twice the unpaid time men do.
    * Women make up 31 per cent of the official labour force in developing countries and 46.7 per cent worldwide.
    * Rural women produce more than 55 per cent of all food grown in developing countries.
    * The value of women’s unpaid housework and community work is estimated at between 10-35 per cent of GDP worldwide, amounting to $11 trillion in 1993.
    * Women hold 35.5 per cent of professional posts in the United Nations Secretariat including 18.5 per cent in senior management.
    * By the year 2012, there will be as many or more women employees as men in many industrialized nations.

Women and Health
    * Women are becoming increasingly affected by HIV. Today about 42 per cent of estimated cases are women, and the number of infected women is expected to reach 15 million due to  abuse and lack of authority.
    * An estimated 20 million unsafe abortions are performed worldwide every year, resulting in the deaths of 70,000 women.
    * Approximately 585,000 women die every year, over 1,600 every day, from causes related to pregnancy and childbirth. In sub-Saharan Africa, 1 in 13 women will die from pregnancy or childbirth related causes, compared to 1 in 3,300 women in the United States.
    * Globally, 43 per cent of all women and 51 per cent of pregnant women suffer from iron-deficiency anemia.

Women and Violence
    * Each year an estimated two million girls suffer the practice of female genital mutilation.
    * Worldwide, 20 to 60 per cent of women experience some degree of domestic violence.
    * The primary victims of today’s wars are civilian women and their children, not soldiers.
    * The use of rape as a weapon of war has become more evident. In Rwanda from April 1994 to April 1995, estimates of the number of women and girls raped range from 15,700 to over 250,000.

 
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Cleansing self through Self-forgiveness

cleansing is self forgivenessI forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear who I am for in doing so I suppress who I am willing to become in self honesty, thus I am fearing self honesty which means that I am deceiving myself into believing that I am being self honest when really I’m still existing in fear which is a polarity design of enslavement. Instead I stand and face me in self honesty and I accept and allow myself to breathe and express myself in order to face myself here within this moment so I can be and become effective in supporting an Equal Money System because I see, understand and acknowledge those suffering in silence who have never known what it is to take food and clean water, a home and an education for granted. I begin here forgiving myself as well as I make new a commitment to my physical body as me as all as one as equal.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the cells of my physical body to be diseased in dishonesty wherein I participated and lost myself within my mind of thoughts and fantasy’s according to emotions and feelings and physical participation defined and directed by my mind. I stand here in self honesty cleansing through self forgiveness the cells of my body accepting and allowing them released of infections of suppression according to/as and within the equality equation of and as all as one as equal.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing the mind consciousness to integrate and infuse within and as my physical body due to time and space manifestation of this reality. Instead I stand in support of and as my physical body by stopping my participation as my mind and instead I direct myself as my mind through and as my physical body in self honesty according to and as the principle of equality.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to exist according to the direction of my mind as a mind consciousness system wherein I would seek and desire for my physical body to be and become what I see in another’s body in how they look and how they act.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become self deception according to and as ideas of myself directed by the ego of my mind which manifested and imposed abuse from the inside out of and as my physical body – instead I stand equal and one to and as my physical body and I commit myself to my whole self here in self honesty, as I breathe and ask for guidance and assistance from my physical body as me within a clearer meaning of and as self as all as one as equal.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear that I may never be able to express myself in self honesty according to a principle of equality because of fear of myself according to and as an opinion of myself that I have held myself hostage in my mind and separate from my physical body according to and as dishonesty as me in which I have manifested here as within and as this world. Instead I move myself in self honesty to be and become the definition of patience within and as assistance from and as defined by and according to my physical body breathing as all as one as equal.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed my mind to direct and preoccupy me with thoughts of wanting attention where I surrendered myself in acts of self interest, self denial and self manipulation where I only considered myself instead of realising that in considering only self is to be existing according to the programming of mind consciousness systems which do not and have never considered all life equally. I stop. I direct myself according to and as the principle of equality.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to search for clues to another’s  confidence so as to further my abilities to be the same as them in order to obtain a sense of accomplishment that they appear to have reached where I allow my ego to direct me according to a desire to obtain specialness. I stop. I breathe. I realise that life as all as one as equal requires breathing in self honesty walking as awareness of myself as my physical according to and as all as one as equal where all living beings live the definition of dignity.
 
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be and become inhibition where I suppress myself within emotional feelings and then manifest them here as me as an expression of myself within a polarity of fear and guilt acting as everlasting niceness. I stop myself existing as fear of failure in another’s eyes. I breathe and direct me here realigning myself as my mind in accordance to and as my physical body according to the principle of equality.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being alone to such a degree that I sought to please and obey others in order to provide a false sense of security for myself, where when I see that they will want to be with me and/or be in my acquaintance I will then pull away from and suppress myself within a lack of self expression according to a fear of becoming attached, so they will then pull away, which then creates another cycle of fear of being alone as I continue existing in time loops. When what I’m really doing is fearing facing myself according to what I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become, thus ultimately I fear self-intimacy because of ideas about myself that I’ve created within my mind. I stop accepting and allowing an idea of myself according to my mind. I breathe and I face me in self-honesty within and as my physical body assisting me here walking as all as one as equal.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to justify who I am according to a past memory of myself as unworthy as life – instead I stand and direct me here as my mind in realising that I direct me here breathing in self-honesty and I see and I understand that life here in this world has reached a point where a solution to suffering must begin, and I see in common sense the solution is an Equal Money System and that I am worthy of and as all life as I am standing here in support of an Equal Money System which is a living representation of support for and as our physical bodies because an Equal Money System supports and provides all living beings that which is required to survive and exist within and as this world.

 

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