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Day 253: While I was Sleeping…

While I was sleeping the other night I had this dream, it had my mom in it. My mom passed away almost 11 years ago and after doing a Mother-Daughter Mind Construct through Desteni I Process some 2 years ago, I’ve not dreamt about her since. So this was interesting to have this dream because I rarely dream and so when I do, I’ve been able to use it to assist myself in my process. This particular dream assisted me to realize something while I was sleeping. Here‘s how:

In my dream, me and my mom were looking at stuffed animals, specifically stuffed animals that could electronically move which caused them to be especially ‘life like’. Now, when my mom was alive, she didn’t really care about owning a Real-Life dog or a cat, but she loved buying the toy like stuffed animals and would place them throughout her entire house.

It’s strange to look at this point with the memories of myself back then. I mean, at the time I was in love with how she collected so many knick-knacks, like stuffed animals and such. She created an environment that represented coziness and comfort for me within my mind. This was how I experienced myself in my dream,  I was Witness to how I was being comforted by my mom’s spending habits!  Comforted by the ‘things’ my mom collected. Her ‘pretty’s’ as she called them. For me, her collections, was like having one’s own game of thrones.

I saw how when I would walk into her house, I felt like the world wasn’t gonna eat me alive. I felt safe within the ‘idea in my mind‘ that ‘this is my mom’s house’, my home, and no matter how much I screw up/ fall, mom will always be here to pick up the pieces for me – to show me the way. As that, I didn’t know the first thing about taking responsibility for myself much less take responsibility for how our World exists.  When I investigate the ‘real’ relationship my mom and I had, it wasn’t anything like what my mind would have had me believe.

The reality was, my mom and I simply existed in personality designs as mother vs daughter. As we both got older, we found our place in each other through what we were both willing to accept and allow of ourselves  – the kind of acceptance where you hide within pretty words and pretty ideas, never looking deeper because you fear what you might see.  Our relationship had become a series of sweeping reality under the rug so to speak.  Never confronting the Reality of ourself and our world.  So for me this dream was All about showing me to myself and it was quite humbling,  because Everything about it was for me to see as an example of what it’s time to Let Go of.

Artwork By: Maya Harel
Equalmoney33Now this dream came about 10 days after Bernard Poolman‘s passing and it’s interesting because my relationship with Bernard had the obvious thing in common to the relationship I had with my mom in that, it brought me great comfort. Comfort in knowing Bernard Poolman was here and could always be depended upon.  I’d rather say that I didn’t make Bernard out to be a God, but, I kinda did.  I mean, he was the finest example of what a Human being can be as anyone I’ve ever been acquainted with.

So, to be clear, what I’m trying to say is, I see, realize and understand that there’s much to do here within our World. That what must be done here to make Life acceptable is more than any one human alone can accomplish. The fact is, it’s going to take us All to sort out all that we’ve accepted and allowed as what and how our World currently exist. I mean, thousands of children are starving daily and all we can think to do is to keep giving people tons of money to entertain us. That doesn’t make sense that a few should have everything while the majority have little to nothing.

This is what I realized while I was sleeping, that it’s time to Stand Responsible for the Relationship we have with Ourself and Each other.   To Stop living on time as emotions and feelings and reactions.  To Stop looking for Gods and Start Manifesting Heaven on Earth.

It’s time to support each other within the realization that this is our purpose for being here.  To come together and make sure Everyone has Everything they require for a Life of Dignity – that they’re able to Practically care for their Physical body and this Physical Reality.

We’ve got to Give to Humanity the Solution of What’s best for All and Replace our current Money System.

Let’s get it done…

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“I commit myself to show that when the starting point is life equally respected in each other, the fundamental premise to give so that you may receive is immediately grasped to such an extent that irrational fear evaporates.” Bernard Poolman

“I commit myself to restore the common sense trust in the physical reality that is the giver of life, to restore order in an irrational , illusory world of consciousness.” Bernard Poolman

“I commit myself to demonstrate the oneness interdependency between all parts of the physical realm that together form the body that is life through which we have been destroying the Earth, and our life will end and therefore we cannot continue to live as if we are separate of the real reality without permanent consequence.” Bernard Poolman

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  Suggested blogs to follow:

Creation Journey to Life
Heaven Journey to Life
Earth Journey to Life
Economist Journey to Life

&

Activist’s Journey To Life

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One Year old, Choking, Assists Herself to Breathe

Ms Beanie

Today Emmeline (1 year old granddaughter), became choked on less than a half of a piece of strawberry. I stood in amazement because before I could reach her to assist her, I watched as she used her three middle fingers to cause herself to gag the piece of strawberry back up, thus assisting herself to breathe. Sharing with Emmeline’s mom how I saw her assist herself, she told me how this past weekend, they were visiting friends who have children as well.

Emmeline was playing in the bedroom with the other children while the parents were in another room. Suddenly Emmeline came running out of the bedroom towards her mom and was choking and couldn’t breathe. Before Emmeline’s mom could get to her, Emmeline stopped and used her three middle fingers to gag herself, causing herself to throw up and in doing so she un-lodged a cap from a lotion bottle she had swallowed, which was choking her. As her momma stood there in amazement – Emmeline was back to playing. 

From the first time Emmeline began to eat solid foods and showed signs of choking, her mom and/or her dad would use their fingers in the same manner as Emmeline now does to assist herself – as long as there was no danger in pushing and/or lodging something further down her throat.  Unknowingly they were teaching Emmeline a life saving technique, because now, she is able to assist herself, if need be.  Children are incredible little beings.

Mmm Simple

Bean

Emmeline is a little over a year old and she’s been walking for almost 2 months and, is beginning slowly to explore her running abilities. Together we explore our world 6-8 hours a day, 5 days a week, and have since she was 2 1/2  months. A child this age has so much to remind us of what we’ve forgotten, in how they touch, taste and smell their way within their physical world. They don’t yet become lost in the mind of thoughts – and instead are extremely aware of their ability to touch, and touch, lol, and touch. We were having some lunch of chicken noodle O’s, and she was curiously touching and examining the spoon, and gently tapping it on the side of the bowl. 

She really wanted to stick her hands in the middle of the bowl and scoop a handful but, that wasn’t being allowed. She was persistent in her attempts as she remained quietly patient and even mimicked the chuckles she heard of this adult person who was avoiding her efforts by moving the bowl away at just the right moment. Our eyes would meet as the bowl was moved and finally, there was a slight frown growing on her forehead right between her eyes.

It was upon seeing the distorted physical expression showing itself upon her face – in that precise moment, the bowl stopped moving away from her and she didn’t miss a breath as she scooped up a huge handful of noodle O’s, looked at them ever so dearly – even offered to share a bite, and then, slowly crammed them into her mouth as her tongue assisted her fingers to complete her pleasure. She closed her eyes briefly, then opened them, and as our eyes met she put her finger up to show one noodle O left on it, so as to share, as she muttered in complete joy, Mmm…

Together, we scooped some more, with both our hands… 

Tool for Life – Breath

The sooner you forgive yourself and move on, the sooner you’ll remember you’ve been here before.

This is the awareness I saw within myself when speaking with my past friend Karen this evening.  I was able to breathe through and not become the energies that surrounded me.  It was very cool because I was aware they were there – but more focused on applying my tool for life  – breath.

Every word she spoke, I heard me. It was like a recording of myself being played from my past. Was surreal in a sense I have never known.  There was an alertness within myself that I can describe as similar to ‘going home’ – without the actual experience.

As if the path I was walking was more like a sidestep within creating who I am becoming and I almost didn’t recognize myself.  As I breathed, the words flowed from my mouth and I became aware of the authority in self honesty when accepting and allowing myself to breathe.

I began to see that I am the cause for the effects that I have been upon the people in my life, and I saw my way to forgive myself for being and becoming the person that I have existed as.

I let go of the shame and contempt that I have carried as me because of my deception towards Karen. I was aware of one moment of judgment when Karen slurred in her talking and I stopped it immediately and breathed.  Her and I in our past shared many moments together sharing who we ‘thought’ we were. That assisted me, and I used it to bring us here together in self honesty.  We ended our call very uneventful and left nothing to be predetermined about our friendship.  In facing her I faced myself and realized there was never anything to fear except my fear of facing myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to ‘fear the unknown’. Instead of realizing that there is nothing ‘unknown’ when I face myself in self honesty.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear how another will react when I am self honest instead of realizing their reactions are a reflection of my reactions within myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to rush myself  when speaking and expressing myself because of fear their not hearing me. I stop. I accept and allow myself to express myself freely in self honesty standing equal and one as all.