Archive | September 2010

Stopping self-deception/self-indulgence

Self-deception and self-indulgence is a bitch.  When I’m existing in self-deception/self-indulgence what happens is I splatter ‘deception’ all around my world.  Everything about my world will be deception and you can be sure I will be quick to notice it.  More than likely I will complain and bitch about those closest to me, as I will easily, in spite, see their faults, only now realizing  how I create what I’m experiencing.  In self-deception I deceive myself in becoming ‘impulsed’ within an energy of which I then ‘act’ out –  as these actions, I seek another to belief this is who I am.  What’s strange is the ‘energetic’ ‘impulses’ seem very ‘minor’, yet, I’m seeing the ‘deceptive’ influence of the seemingly small ‘points’, and how ‘effective’ they are in containing me in self-deception.  This ‘energetic’ charge cannot sustain itself – so in my continued participation’s in self-deception – I will re-create these moments over and over in a similar way within the compounded and suppressed outflows of myself of which I alone have accepted and allowed.

It’s very ‘exhausting’.  Common sense is to not trap oneself in a space with a car that’s running and no ‘air’ moving or one will die from the exhaust fumes, and this is what the experience of self-deception is within myself.  It is a means of cutting off one’s breath – the breath of Life.  An example of this is when I will see that Randy has stopped hearing me as I am sharing something in regards to my process – I see the ‘thought’ of ‘he’s stopped hearing me’, and within this I will share with him that I can see he has stopped listening.  I allow myself to become this ‘energetic’ charge in which I then will speak something like ‘I don’t like it when I get the ‘feeling’ you’re not ‘listening to me’ and I can tell you’re not by the ‘look’ on your face.  Instantly, in ‘hearing’ my words I see my self-deception in that  what I am really doing is ‘projecting’ through a subtle deception technique implicating Randy as the ’cause’ for the experience I am having within this ‘energetic charge’ that I have accepted and allowed, instead of facing myself within my experience of how come I am ‘feeling’ uncomfortable within myself. Within this emotional/feeling/reaction towards Randy, I am avoiding facing myself in the exact moment of this happening.

This is a form of self-manipulation that I am seeing of myself more clearly.  Often, I see this pattern that I accept and allow, wherein I want to complain, specifically about how people will say to me, what do you mean when you say ‘equality’.  Within this I have begun to realize that in my complaining I have become self-indulgent.  It’s interesting to see myself now, how in my complaining, and in ‘talking’ about how so and so said this or did this or that, and then how they will go and tell so and so, who will then go talk about it to another so and so of which will then come back to me in telling me what so and so said, and within this is how self-indulgence within it all keeps existing as nothing more than bullshit – which prevents me from stopping and facing myself in self-honesty.  It’s a crazy cycle when one begins to see how,  as we participate, so we are creating.  It’s being accepted and allowed within our participation and is ‘resonantly’ designed as a self-sustained pattern of the mind.  This pattern requires energy and is fed through our participations in our thoughts, feelings and emotions/reactions and in how we talk and move ourself.  How can I be equal and one to anyone, much less equal to all here – if I cannot be equal to the specifics within which I’m complaining.  Presenting the facts of how this world exists in its numerous atrocities is beneficial – however, complaining within a ‘personality’ of my mind, and/or mocking another is ‘self-indulgence’.

I must become ‘equal’ to the very person, place or thing that I’m ‘complaining’ and/or ‘blaming’ about in order for me to earn the right to sound myself in speaking words as a representation of ‘life’ as ‘All as One as Equal’.  This requires stopping – breathing, and directing myself in self-honesty and in self-forgiveness, and standing up within the ‘principle of equality’.  The ‘Principle of Equality’, is the directive force as mankind – we however have forgotten this, and must redesign and align ourself within and as Equality, in order for mankind to continue its existence.  We are, each one of us – equal to all that is here.   In realizing this in self-honesty – we become self-reliant as we self-forgive our way back to ourself within our standing up in support of an equal money system for all from birth till death.  Thus, Equalizing the system in a manner supportive of all life Here.  Let the Equalizing of Self with all that is here, begin!  Breathe.

I’m extremely grateful for SRA Training through Desteni Universe, because it is within the lessons that I am learning to become more self-responsible and self-effective – so as to Stop these patterns of self-deception/self-indulgence.  SRA provides techniques within which one is able to flag points for self – so as to stop these self-abusive behaviors. Interesting, in that when I first began SRA I would ‘put off’ completing my lessons. Now I enjoy completing them because they’re so much assistance for myself and they are unlike anything I’ve ever given to myself.  SRA should be taught in school to everyone – a required course as a way of assisting everyone and at the same time assisting mankind.  SRA is a re-alignment for self – in realizing the equality in which we all exist.

We The People

“We the People”,  hereby establish ‘Justice’ in support of an ‘Equal Money System’  –  A ‘Preamble’ – In which ‘All’ receive ‘Practical Living’ support within and as the ‘Physical’.

An ‘Equal Money System’ promotes a ‘Self-Willed Equal’ – A ‘Living Testament’ in recognizing that all Life is in fact ‘Equal’.  Within this ‘Authoritative’ and ‘Formulated’ , ‘Common Sense’ Statement of  who we are –  ‘Equal’ as Life here,  we create ability for All – To Stop individual ‘fear of survival’ – as well as support oneself to improve oneself in a dignified manner supportive and worthy of all Life – thus bringing forth ‘Nobility’ in which to nourish and flourish “Mankind”.

We establish ‘Justice’ in ‘Forgiving’ Self of our Self-Imposed manifested Atrocities and,  in Self-Honesty – Bring forth a new MANner existent in Self-Trust .

In this we ensure ‘Domestic Tranquility’ within the Establishment of an ‘Equal Money System’, thereby Protecting and Securing current and future Generations, by making sure the ‘Rights’ of ‘We the People’ are individually ‘Self-Secured’ – merged within a ‘Principle of World Equality’ – whereby ‘Basic’ Human requirements are Allowed – for Living and Sustaining Life  – in which food, water, proper shelter, clothes, education and, basic health care are provided – Equally.

In stopping repercussions of acquiring enemies – we provide for the ‘Common Defense’ in our ‘Acknowledgement’ of ‘Oneness and Equality’ – Stopping any reason for forming ‘militias’.   Within an ‘Equal Money System’ we ‘secure’ the ‘General Welfare’ of all – within all ‘Economic Operations’ – by bringing forth the desired outcome provided within ‘Equal Life Support’ for All – Stopping all patterns of Manifested war.

A ‘Equal Money System’ is the Defining moment in the Definition of ‘Liberty’ and ‘Freedom’ for All.
It requires 1 Vote.  Your Vote + My Vote.  Simple Math:  1+1=2
Signed:  “We The People” – We Stand Equally for All as One as Life.

This thing called Love

We’re all ‘seekers’ of it.  We want, need and desire someone to ‘love’ us forever and we claim we will never stop ‘loving’ each other once we ‘think’ we have found that special ‘someone’ – however ‘love’ cannot sustain itself within the energies in which it began.  We’re all the same in this and there has never been a ‘love’ that has lasted into eternity.  Love fails us because we fail ourself in the very expectations within which will build a false sense of security in ‘seeking’ someone or something outside of ourself to complete us.  In the new beginning of ‘love’ is in actuality the beginning of the end.   I have ‘fallen’ in ‘love’ many times and have ‘fallen’ out of ‘love’ just as many.  I no longer participate within the ‘design of love’ because clearly – love is mind control.   Love is the state of mind that we accept and allow within giving permission to another to fulfill us momentarily within the insanity of bliss.

What is the point of ‘love’, if we cannot even ‘love’ our neighbors as ourself.  In order for love to become a fulfilled prophecy we must first face ourself within self-honesty and self-forgiveness.  Within this we must create an ‘Equal Money System’ in order for all to care for themself practically.  Then ‘love’ will become the face of Equality in it’s very description.  The earth provides enough for all to sustain itself within the ‘Principle of Equality’.   Equality will enforce ‘love’ as life intended and will remove beliefs built around ‘love’ based on ‘money’, because at this point ‘money’ is the basis in which ‘love’ is founded.  This is proven by example over and over again when the money runs out, suddenly ‘love’ ends.  In order to stop these cycles of abuse we must provide for all life equally.   The truth is, love is ‘money’, this cannot be denied.  Money has become the ‘god’ within which we turn to because our physical bodies require food and water, shelter and clothes, and money provides it all.  Love alone does not provide for all and if fact carries with it, the price of money.  Our ‘minds’ are changeable according to how much money one has and we accept and allow this as our laws.  This is unacceptable.  We must become the ‘directive’  principle within self-honesty in forgiving ourself for how we have accepted and allowed life to become, which is abusive.  When we begin to support all life equally, then life itself will support mankind in a new manner which will sustain all life.  I am 1 vote for an Equal Money System.  I support ‘World Equality’.