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Day 282: Land of Predators

Here we are, going about our daily life, enjoying our secret pact as a society – live the good life and society will take care of you.  But look what happens when society drops the ball.

Our World, where the taking of a life is easier than the care and feeding of it.

 

Dozens die as fighting intensifies in Gaza; children killed at refugee camp

 Image taken from L.A. Times

land of predators

North India gangs enforce ‘water tax’ on defenseless villagers: is this the future of the American West?

Big Pharma – Testing Meds on Homeless People

Nearly 300,000 suicides in India so far from GMO crop failures

Maintenance worker, 33, shoots dead his wife, their three sleeping children and then himself after ‘financial problems’

 

 “…most research on the relationship between income and suicide rates indicates that higher suicide rates correspond with lower incomes (Chen et al. 2009).”

 

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Day 208: Invisible Battles

Problem:

I had a dream last night where I saw myself jumping between roof tops, fighting battles. In battle, I fought with people who seemed familiar, yet were unfamiliar, and the only weapons in the dream were SWORDS.
invisible battle
No real harm to anyone ever occurred no matter how hard we fought and there were no expression of emotions, energy or fears. Everything appeared to be staged in order for us to see for ourselves that life is Not meant to be lived fighting each other to survive – ultimately leading us to at the end of the day – we remain alone with our inner invisible battles, where we compete only with ourself as we try to reach a place of feel better within and as our mind that isn’t real and can never ever be reached.

Solution:

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist as a character of and as my mind as someone who is never good enough.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fight seemingly invisible battles within my mind and body in trying to keep my emotions ‘at bay’ according to a self-created knowledge of myself and in doing so not realizing how I manifest pockets of pain and dysfunction in bringing the words that I speak to life within and as me as my physical flesh/ bones/body.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fight invisible battles within and as my mind using thoughts, feelings, emotions and words as a way of remaining in defense mode where I stage imaginary attacks against myself and others as myself creating inner resistance giving myself a false sense of protection through positive and negative energetic experiences.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear ‘letting down the guards’ so to speak, which I’ve used to keep myself trapped within and as my mind as the emotional feelings of fear, where I silence myself in fear of my own self-expression, therefore, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to manipulate myself through ego/self-interest by way of comparing myself to others and using inferiority and superiority as energetic motivators to suppress myself deeper into self-abusive patterns.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe the thought/picture within my mind where I see myself as being to dumb to stand and take self-responsibility for who I am and for what I have accepted and allowed to exist within our current world/money system.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to cower down to back chat and internal conversations, telling myself that I’m not smart enough and as such I might as well shut up and give up on myself and the world/money system as myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be disappointed in myself for wanting to give up on myself and my process because I see, realize and understand that feeling disappointed is actually me justifying my own self-interested behaviors.

When and as I become aware of back chat and internal conversations within my mind telling myself that I’m not smart enough and/or that I should just ‘shut up and give up’ – I Stop, I Breathe. I see, realize and understand that this is a pattern within my mind that I have accepted and allowed myself to resort to because the truth is I have accepted and allowed a pattern of fear of change within the pattern/character of not being good enough – fear of giving up the comforting, numbed down life style of distractions/entertainment – to instead direct myself to educate myself about our world/money system.

When and as I see myself pull inward into and as my mind where I fight invisible battles, where I begin to doubt who I am as I continue to walk this Journey to Life, I stop, I breathe. I see, realize and understand that the doubt is actually self-interest talking, therefore, I commit myself to embracing myself in tender-loving-care, giving myself permission to stop and focus on this moment of breath – where there is no right or wrong, only me directing myself according to what’s best for all.

Reward:

I commit myself to remain aware of my behavior to stop the pattern of accepting and allowing myself to become a character of and as my mind as someone who is never good enough.

I commit myself to stop fighting invisible battles within and as my mind using preprogrammed thoughts, feelings, emotions and energetic experiences as a way of remaining in/as defense mode.

I commit myself to stop giving in to self-manipulation and self-doubt.

I commit myself to walk the self-corrective application of redesigning who I am, standing stable and self-responsible, to redesign myself free from self-abusive and self-destructive patterns

I commit myself to Stop my programmed belief system and to see, realize and understand how what I’ve believed of my life – as that of being comforting – is actually the result of massive funding by our current world/money systems, therefore, I commit myself to further research and educate myself, to ultimately expose the role that money plays in producing, through education and media, as well as thousands of other ways of manipulation, the kind of people we as the human on earth have become.

**UPDATE: When I wrote this blog, I hadn’t yet read the daily blog posted by Heaven’s Journey to Life titled: Why do we Give Up BEFORE we Even Started?: DAY 321, now having read it, I suggest one to read it to assist with further clarity with regards to Facing Uncertainty.  The same applies to the blog written yesterday by Creation’s Journey to Life titled: Day 324: What Characterize a Demon? (Part One), specifically regarding the following quote:

“Taking the Example of ‘Feeling Not Good Enough’ – this would Start as an Emotion, internalized, and then the Emotion will start ‘defining itself’ into and as Thoughts that manifest, and the thoughts would cycle, repetitively in the Mind and so generate the emotion; and with self’s participation in and as it – would ‘Characterize’ self into and as the ‘who I am’ and believe SELF to be the characterized emotion as Thoughts as ‘I’M Not Good Enough’. When, all the while: the ‘Not Good Enough’ was simply an emotional energy-program, that self characterized into and as a ‘who I am’. Then, from the internal creation and design of the Emotion into a Character, through and as Thought – one will eventually start Speaking and Living it ‘as Self’ and so BECOME the Character of the Emotion as ‘Not Good Enough’; and in this Process – self become ‘Lost’ in/as Energy, Emotion and the Characterization thereof that we create through Thought.” Bernard Poolman 

Day 150: Inter the Suicide Net

Suicide Nets

Suicide by Worker

Inside Apple’s Foxconn Factories everything remains the same, however, outside the building of the factory giant – which employs 1.2 million people and supplies many of the biggest names in consumer internet gadgets and iPhones – the ‘net’ is taking on more and more meaning.

Employee dormitories are now equipped with protective and/or suicide nets which can be seen in the picture below.

When I saw the picture – which has been making it’s rounds on face book – something about it just didn’t sit well with me.  One doesn’t have to be the smartest kid in class to know by now that people within our world don’t really give a shit about each other no matter how much we pretend to.

The proof of how little we care is everywhere. We don’t care about the thirty-thousand + number of children around the world who starve to death daily, or the thousands upon thousands of people who don’t have clean water to drink, or even a toilet to shit in.  We only care about me, me, me and what can I get, get, get so I can FEEL better.  Ever notice the FEE in feeling?

So what’s the purpose of providing nets to the 1.2 million employees in China who are slaves to 76-hour work weeks?  That’s working 11 days in a row earning as little as £150 a month so that the rest of us – who don’t really give a shit about their overworked and underpaid lifestyle – can get some internet gadgets and iphones.

The way I see it, the nets that have been placed outside the factory dormitories, they’re like ‘hush money’, and prove how we exist in absolute denial of the Real Problem that exists within our current world/money systems.

It’s like saying: ” you know what, we really don’t care whether or not you want to kill yourself on our time but by God at least the nets will make sure you aren’t able to do it where the world can see it because the world doesn’t want to witness your suffering because we fear seeing the truth of what we accept and allow, so if we don’t see your pain we’ll never have to face ourself in realizing how equality is all that will make us stop caring only about making money.

When is enough enough?

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Day 140: Inside Out

Monday I had an appointment to have some much needed dental work done which I’m still not finished with but I’ve had quite a bit of fear about. Then on Tuesday, I came down sick with a head cold that I’m still not well from and then Wednesday, I became very frustrated with my partner which was actually a point of lack of communication on both our parts…

So, this week has been somewhat of a challenge and what I’ve realized is how destructive ‘inner conflict’ is in that, when I would see myself go into thoughts about going to the dentist, I would become irritated, anxious and very emotional where I felt raw and exposed, almost as if I was turning myself inside out.

It took me a couple of days to realize that I had put up a wall of defense which served as protection, for how I was justifying and defending the very fears I ‘thought’ I was stopping. Thus, here walking self-forgiveness.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into fear and ‘inner conflict‘ in relation to me having to have dental surgery this week and within that, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed internal fighting within myself to the point where me and my mind have had conflicting positions in relation to the fear of going to the dentist, which ultimately generated friction within myself which then resulted in energy that lead me to a state of mind in believing how my experience at the dentist would result in/as pain and fear, thus, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to experience resistance toward going to the dentist until I internalized the fear into a point of inner conflict which caused me to become physically sick, and how within that, I became argumentative with my partner and expected him to somehow be able to ‘make me feel better’ about myself, therefore, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate within internal conflict to the point that I became a character of gloom and doom and thus created myself into a state of depression.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to put up a wall of defense and protection as justification – which stops me from being self intimate with me and thus intimate with others as me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize how when I suppress inner conflict and frustration within myself, that I then manifest myself in and as guilt, shame, and anger and thus lash out onto others – for example onto my partner.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand how I have through participating in and as thoughts and backchat of ‘what if’s’ within my mind, have created and manifested illness unto me as my physical body.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to direct myself according to a mood and/or a feeling, instead of realizing that I am here, I breathe and I direct me within the decision to stop participating within and as thoughts, feelings, moods and/or emotions/reactions/energy.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to exist within my mind in my own comfort zone where I didn’t realize I was dependent upon the sameness of my everyday wants, needs and desires, thus when my day doesn’t go as I ‘hope’, I go into fear, inner conflict, friction, energy and/or moods and depression.


I commit myself to stop internalizing who I am as fear and thus stop abusing me as my physical body.

I commit myself to stop who I am as energy within wants, needs and desires.

I commit myself to stop inner conflicts through stopping backchat and the ‘hope’ of what tomorrow will bring.

I commit myself to stop generating energy from inner conflict to that of outer conflicts within and as my world and to/toward my partner.

I commit myself to show that depression is ego and self-interest.

I commit myself to show that All depression and/or doom and gloom moods can be stopped in one moment of breath.

I commit myself to Re-Defining my Relationship with my Partner through the Relationship Course walking through the Desteni I Process.

I commit myself to show that fear only exists within and as my mind and is only as real as I accept and allow it, thus, I stop me as fear and I Breathe.

I commit myself to realize how Trust is only possible with Self in Self-honesty.

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I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from life itself through my participating in emotions of depression and sadness toward myself and my world – Instead I Stop. I Breathe and I direct me here as All as One as Equal in supporting an Equal Money System so as to begin to create Heaven on Earth

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to doubt that I am able to stand and face what I’ve accepted and allowed to exist here as me. I Stop. I breathe, I face me in self-honesty in seeing who I really am as Life as All as One as Equal.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be a dreamer of the mind in accepting the direction of ego, self-interest and greed to be who I am. I stop. I breathe, I direct myself as all life in seeing the Equality existent in everything here.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to breathe, speak and act in fear of who I’ve become and what I’ve allowed to exist within this world. I stop. I breathe, I direct me here accumulating myself according to and as the Principle of Equality so that All Life may exist in dignity.

Addiction is Mind Control – You want to Stop – The Solution is Here


Tonight I read at least ten different current news articles stating how addiction is on the rise.  Then I read the following article which I’ll briefly quote from:  ScienceDaily (Aug. 15, 2011) — "The American Society of Addiction Medicine (ASAM) has released a new definition of addiction highlighting that addiction is a chronic brain disorder and not simply a behavioral problem involving too much alcohol, drugs, gambling or sex. This is the first time ASAM has taken an official position that addiction is not solely related to problematic substance use…(  )these outward behaviors are actually manifestations of an underlying disease that involves various areas of the brain."

Ok so, common sense can tell us more than what this group of physician’s are reporting.   Addiction is rapidly on the rise that is for sure and,  many are losing everything they have because of the manifested consequences of continuing their self-abusive patterns. 

Addiction, is just one of the plagues of consciousness and is a gateway which leads to most all of the problems we exist as.  Where we participate in our thoughts, feelings and emotions and where we exist in memories within our mind as we’re directed into and as lala land manifesting and projecting onto others and our world as we’re absorbed in greed, ego and self-interest.  We don’t require a group of physician’s to tell us so and more than likely we don’t require they prescribe us medication either -  if, we’ll just stop and become aware of ourself breathing firstly – as well as stop accepting and allowing ourselves to daydream ourselves right out of our physical reality.

The only dis-ease amongst us as humanity, is our mind and the direction we walk as it – where instead of facing our fears in self-honesty and stopping and forgiving ourselves for the atrocity we exist as according to what we allow of our current monetary system. Where within our ‘fear of survival mode’, we rely on our thoughts and energetic experiences as a tale tell sign of who we are.  Which by the way, we are not, we only ‘think’ ourself to be as such.  We are pre-programmed and impulsed through mind control every day in every waking minute.  We can stop our participation – if we will ourselves to.

The mess we subject ourself to is easy to be seen when one finally have had enough and have a look.   See how the mind doses out repetitive patterns over and over that can and will drive one insane and to the point of demonic acts of possession.  Look around in your world, there are plenty examples for one to clearly see.

If you don’t and/or won’t see this, then ask yourself how come because,  most will eventually seek advice and/or assistance outside of themself on a regular basis because people don’t know how to assist themself and simply can’t handle who and what they’ve become. 

It’s not a pretty picture I can promise you, however, thanks to the material through Desteni I Process and with the tools and Life coaching they offer,  I’ve been able to stop numerous addictions as well as mind possessions and depression, which one can read about in many of my blogs.  The assistance provided through the Desteni material is priceless because it enables one to assist themself, and to begin to enjoy life within a whole new awareness in seeing what the hell is really being allowed in this world.

Then, one is able to make a clear choice because, it becomes clear that there is no choice, there is only the decision to bring an end to our current money system.  Which is nothing more than an accessory to insanity, desperation and murder, where over a billion are starving to death daily and millions more and counting are homeless and struggling daily to survive. 

Just hearing the daily news can send one into depression and acts of addiction, and yet in a world where anything is possible, we can’t and/or won’t agree on a solution that will benefit all life equally.  Even when there is a solution that is not only possible, it is inevitable.

Stop waiting on your mind to decide for you to make a real change because, that’s not going to happen.  Equality is not part of your pre-programming and is certainly not impulsed in our society, so the decision, to finally be self-responsible for yourself as well as the world and, to actually walk yourself as the change that is required – you’re going to have to move yourself.

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