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If you’ve ever asked yourself "what is missing", then Desteni I Process is for you

Desteni I Process assists one to stop the nonsense and live self here equal and one to and as  all living beings.  It’s humbling to say the least to see the numerous multiple personality disorders I’ve created through and as thought patterns and constructs – for the purpose of attaining an acknowledgment for myself.   It’s rather odd to create oneself in this manner for the purpose of ‘feeling special’ and/or more superior.  Depending on who I am with, will depend on how I ‘feel’ but, the moment I am no longer with that person then how I ‘feel’  will change according to who I am with!

Seeing the pattern of the mind according to the different relationships I’ve had gives clarity that who I really am is not dependent on another. Though, it’s what I’ve become through the beliefs and the thoughts in which I have allowed.   Before, I didn’t consider who I really was  within who and what I was accepting myself to be in this moment here. 

Sounds simple enough to see and stop but, to stop self from CreHating these points of separation within self where self have been controlled by expressions to such an extent that one has lived it into being as who one is – it’s like finding the missing part of yourself that you never even knew you were missing within the constant feelings that there is something missing.  An unrecognized expression of self as who self really is.

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Time does not heal all wounds – Assistance in healing/releasing all wounds through Desteni I Process

Here I am sitting in front of my computer finishing a mind construct lesson through Desteni I Process.  The particular mind construct pattern is titled "My Son"- the following line reads, ‘I do not have a relationship with him’.  This gives one a perspective as to why I am about to say what I’m about to say – it has been a bitch.  It has also taken me longer to complete this mind construct than any of the one’s I’ve completed and, I have become physically ill on four separate occasion since beginning it, a month and a half ago.  I’ve had an eye infection, a throat infection as well as one night of commode hugging, (throwing up) since I began it.  So yeah, lol, it’s been a bitch.   However, the support my physical body has provided me with is beyond anything I would even care to describe.  It is something one has to discover for themselves and there is nothing that can be compared to it as it is an education, a rededication of/to and as self as all as one as equal.

I accepted and allowed myself to emotionally wound myself all long time ago and, I am certain now that ‘time does not heal all wounds’.  I began participating in feelings and emotions of inadequacy to such a point that I literally became the resonance memory of a familiar pattern that I barely recalled the thought patterns of.

They were there because through this lesson I was able to recall them and write them out, lay them before me to see for myself who and what I had accepted and allowed myself to be and become. There was one particular thought pattern, that when I participated in it – it began a series of feelings and emotions that I could feel all the way through to the pit of my stomach to core of my being.  I identified it as having been a part of a memory pattern that I participated in as one of the very first traumatic memories I have of myself since I was very young.
As I participated in and the charged thought patterns, I continued to wound myself through an emotional perspective of myself.  Emotional wounds grew, where I felt inadequate and as if I needed someone and/or something to complete me.

Through Desteni I Process – I’ve been able to release, therefore, heal my own delusion – a self-inflicted wound that began through me participating, accepting and allowing myself to be directed according to/as and, beginning as nothing more than a thought in my mind that was never even real in the first place. 

That’s what I noticed about myself sitting here, a wound was missing, lol, an old wound , not just mended – released of it’s scar.  A question to ask is;  ‘what is the greatest wound in this reality’, and how can we all come together as one and equal to release it.

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I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to accept myself in regret, incomplete and unfulfilled where I sought someone and/or something outside of myself to fulfill me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist in a false sense of pride of being a great mom which was actually a point of ego and the desire to be something that I was not able to be and/or that I pretended to be. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to harbor resentment and/or define myself according to what is rude and/or non-rude in order to remain feeling comfortable around others within a fear of offending people where they then won’t like me.  

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in an imaginary world within my mind where through patterns of self abuse emotional wounds grew where I felt inadequate and as if I needed someone and/or something to complete me.

When and as I see myself within a pattern of blame and self-victimization – I stop, I breathe. Within this I realize that I have walked the patterns over and over and it is a pattern of self destruction – I stop, I breathe. I direct me here according to and as the principle of equality.

When and as I see myself participating within an energy pattern of seeking, wanting and desiring to be something other than who I am here in this moment -  I stop, I breathe. Within this I realize that I am the directive force of me and I will not be directed by and as the energetic pattern – instead I stand according to and as all as one as equal. 

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Desteni Universe – they had me at, ‘Hi, this is Jack’

Sharing how I got to Desteni Universe and/or the Desteni I Process. I was beginning to question my belief in a God, especially after my mother’s death. Then I watched ‘the secret’, where I heard about Ramtha, so I began reading and watching his videos. During those months, I spent 2 weeks in jail for unpaid traffic violations and failing to complete 8 remaining hours of community service. Two and a half days in solitary confinement brought me face to face with my mind of thoughts which raced and raced in fear, hopelessness and depression. A few months later I read about David Icke on the internet, who was talking a lot about reptilians – so I watched some of his interviews, which scared the hell out of me, and I pretty much was at the point of realizing how we’re all screwed so what the hell do we do now!

I was very depressed and I slept alot and/or gambled when I could sneak some money without Randy (my husband) noticing and/or when I could talk him into going gambling with me. Then in November of 2007, Randy stumbled upon a Desteni video on you tube and we both began to hear the common sense. After a couple of months of listening to Desteni and studying the material, and after 10 years of taking anti-depressants daily – I walked myself off of them little by little and, after 2 months through self-forgiveness, I was finally off of them. I heard recently from an old acquaintance that the doctor that I had at the time, still talks about how virtually impossible it is to stop anti-depressants after the length of time I was on them. However, I was able to through the tools from Desteni that I had begun applying.

Since the first day we began watching the videos from Desteni Universe, with the exception of a couple of days when I didn’t have internet access, I have not missed a day of watching the Desteni videos as well as reading the material – almost four years now. Through the common sense message provided and the tools and assistance – I have accumulated an education for and of self like nothing that has ever been offered to me before. I am now comprehending what it means to be self-responsible, self-accountable, self-honest and self-willed. I have stopped a multitude of addictions and behaviors through applying the tools and the material, as well as all depression has stopped. It’s been a fascinating process of which I continue to walk.

I completely agreed with World-Equality from the moment I heard the message. When I was a child, I thought everyone should be treated the same – mostly because I wanted to be treated the same and so I was willing for everyone to be treated the same as long as we could all be treated equal. Though, my idea of equality then, was not in self-awareness. Initially, I wasn’t really that interested in hearing about Equal-Money. That was because I didn’t see it as something that was ever possible. I see now how the direction of my mind and pre-programming was preventing me from fully comprehending such a reality. Fortunately, the Desteni message has always presented common sense in a way which allows one to discover themself within the message.

I discovered myself in self honesty as I applied self-forgiveness and, that’s when I begin to see all that I had been accepting and allowing of who I had become – I was quite pissed off at myself. Often, I wanted to throw a big fit, lol, like a ‘pity party’ and, I did. I would cry and write, cry and write. I begin to write every evening in paper notebooks and was astonished when I began to see through my own words how fearful of a person I really was. After a few months of writing myself to freedom and applying self-forgiveness, I began to see how it is not only possible to implement an Equal Money System but, that it is inevitable.

I stand for Equal-Money and World-Equality because I know that it is truly the only way in which we can all begin to see and hear each other as we have always been – as all as one as equal. To remove the fear of survival that exists amongst us will be possible with Equal Money. I no longer accept, nor am I willing to participate in, nor allow and/or watch the suffering that exists here to continue. The only matter that is important is to stand up as One Vote, so that all living beings will be able to live a life in dignity.

Equality and Oneness, and what that means to me, is something that Desteni has assisted me to see for myself as everyone will have to. It’s not something that can be taught and/or proved because, Equality and Oneness and the meaning therein comes from within self through consistent proven daily application and self-direction – where self releases self-interest and greed – and through self-forgiveness lives life as a Self-Willed Equal.

Equal and One to and as all living beings, comes from within self and begins as natural as breath within every moment where you realize yourself within all that is here. And when life on earth provides equally for every single baby that is born, every moment of their life – birth til death – where suffering ends and the world exists according to what is best for all. That’s when ‘Heaven on Earth’ will be here.

Sharing here a list of the video’s that have assisted me to accept and forgive myself and, to allow myself to reveal an understanding within myself in self-honesty, to walk as me here, through breathing in and as self-forgiveness within and as ‘The Principle of Equality’.
Desteni Universe – they had me at, ‘Hi, this is Jack’.

Introduction to Desteni

Introduction to Desteni part 1 – DesteniProductions – Annotations added Dec 2010

Introduction to Desteni part 2 – DesteniProductions – Annotations added Dec 2010

Introduction to Desteni part 3 – DesteniProductions – Annotations added Dec 2010

Matrix – The SECRET of Humans: Suggest hearing All of the series – Here are the first three

Matrix 1 – The SECRET of Humans

Matrix 2 – The Secret of the MIND

Matrix 3- The Secret of Relationships

This is a quote by Bernard from the series: Experienc Living and Principled Living

"Practically when are you directive principle? When you are stopping the consequence in the act- and until you have done this for all of what you have allowed, things will happen – and remember all the past lives that you have been here is within the unified field, is within consciousness – waiting it’s turn to come and visit you again. There is no way out of that, you created it, you must stop it and your creation point and your stopping point must be equal and one – must be the same point." Bernard Poolman

One – Experience Living and Principled Living

Two – Experience Living and Principled Living

Three – Experience Living and Principled living

Four – Experience Living and Principled Living

Five – Experience Living and Principled Living

Six – Experience and Principled Living

Seven – Experience Living and Principled Living

This is some of the text by Bernard Poolman from the series: The Decision

"So- to ‘try’ and-‘find’ a ‘Reason’ to Make a ‘Decision’ is already an ‘Observation’= it’s already Not-‘Real’. It’s ‘Impossible’ thus to ‘Find the Reason’. A ‘Decision’ is Not-’Reason’ – A ‘Decision’ is an ‘Understanding’-of the ‘Context’-of ‘What is ‘Reality’’ and ‘What is ‘Illusion’’ – and that I’ve just Explained. Then the ‘Context’-of obviously ‘Where’ you ‘Place’-yourself within-that, is Simply a ‘Self-Honest’ ‘Decision’- You can either ‘Do’-it or You Can’t.

Understand that ‘Reality’ ‘Supports’-you through ‘that’ of-you what is ‘Real’-which is Not Your-‘Thinking’, it is Not Your-‘Observation’ – it is Your-‘Physical’ within-which and ‘with’-which you have No-‘Communication’ currently -The ‘Only’ Communication you can have it currently, have ‘with’ Your Physical’ currently is ‘Pain’. It is a ‘Signal’-‘System’ that ‘Indicate’ to you – ‘Pain’ or ‘Discomfort’ that ‘Indicates’ to you: you have to look at-your ‘Participation’. And that ‘Pain’ is Not-something You ‘Observe’= it’s Fucking-‘Real’. The ‘Discomfort’ is Not-‘Something’ You ‘Observe’ = it ‘Overpowers’-you. The ‘Resonance’ isn’t ‘Something’-that ‘You Observe’ = it ‘Happens’ to-you – It is ‘Real’.

What you are then ‘Experiencing’ is something you can’t ‘Direct’ because: it’s got ‘Power’ ‘over’-you – that’s ‘Real’. That’s why we use ‘that’-which is ‘Real’ to ‘Assist’ Everyone-with. Then obviously ‘How’ do you ‘Suppress’-it? You ‘Observe’-it, you make a ‘Value’-Judgment about-it and in-that, you ‘cycle’-it, so that you end-up in ‘Observer’-mode again and then, Never-take ‘Action’, so now it gets ‘worse’ – every ‘cycle’. This is been going-on for ‘Millions’ of-years.

So- back to ‘what’? The ‘Decision’ – I mean have a-look at the Fascinating thing: the World ‘Exist’ as ‘Systems’, ‘Systems’ that ‘Manage’ the ‘Interaction’-of People. That ‘Systems’ is ‘Real’– they are having an ‘Effect’ ‘On’-you and they have ‘Power’ ‘Over’-you = They are ‘Real’ because, you have to ‘Act’ ‘according’-to them in ‘Participation’- it’s Not an ‘Observation’. You Have No-‘Choice’ in-that.

The Question then is ‘Is these ‘Systems’- or ‘Are these ‘Systems’ that ‘Exist’ in this World ‘Managing’ the Relationships between the ‘Living Beings’ on this Planet, are they ‘Managing’ the ‘Relationships’ between People in-a ‘way’ that is ‘Equal for All’ and ‘Best for All’ – they are Not. So, Our ‘Participation’ is then in these ‘Systems’ to ‘Change’-them to ‘Equality’ and ‘Oneness’. ‘That’ you Cannot-‘Do’ as an ‘Observation’ or Using ‘Knowledge’ or, anything-else but: Having to ‘Actually’ ‘Participate’ in-them.

‘Desteni Farm’ is simply the Place where we ‘Train’ ‘Participants’ to go-back into the ‘System’ and to Start taking ‘Directive Principle’ of-them and bring some ‘Common Sense’ to ‘Reality’, so that what we end-up-with at this stage – over a very-long period of time – we end-up in a ‘Reality’ where Children can be ‘Born’-into and be ‘taken care’-of – that’s just one simple-point.

Now One must Decide whether One want to ‘Participate’ in something like that. The ‘Context’ of-that obviously is ‘Where’ and ‘How’. Within-that you have to Obviously look-at your ‘Effectiveness’ and ‘Potential’ as ‘Participant’ –‘How far’ are you going to-go? ‘How far are you ‘Willing’ to-go?’ – Which is ‘Self-Willed’ in getting this ‘Reality’ ‘sorted’-out." Bernard Poolman



3 THE DECISION for Self Honesty

Compassion of the Light is a video that I have heard over and over and still, it’s one of my favorite’s
Compassion of the Light

Living Self-Forgiveness and Writing, Self-Directive vs Mind-Regurgitation, Hearing Words Here Equally : These video’s are vital and assisting.

Living Self-Forgiveness

Writing – Self-Directive vs Mind-Regurgitation

Hearing Words Here Equally

Revenge of the Ego and Violation of Trust, and The Innocence of a Child : Also a must hear! More than once!

Revenge of the Ego

Violation of Trust

The Innocence of a Child

The Observer never sees what is real

The Observer never sees what is real

The Resonant Seed series: Amazing support!

The Resonant Seed 1

The Resonant Seed 2

The Resonant Seed 3

The Resonant Seed 4

The Resonant Seed Part 5

Silently we Suffer
Silently we Suffer

There are plenty more that I could add but, I will stop here.

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What I have to say about the Beast of Desteni Universe – EXPOSED

“Since all are born equal, all is in fact equal as life and therefore is supported equal – this means that everyone on earth de-serves to be taken care of – and an Equal Money System will do that.” – Bernard Poolman

“Practise breathing and stability no matter how the world looks like to make sure you do not make decisions with emotions/energy –
All decisions must be practised to be practically what will lead to what is best for all. And these are made breath by breath to build your will to the greater good” – Bernard Poolman

Forests fight back all over the world

Forest = Living examples ‘for- the -rest’ – – "New study released, 5 June 2011 reports, "Forest density is increasing across much of the world after decades of decline, according to a new study by scientists from the United States and Europe.  The change, is being dubbed the Great Reversal."  Woodland density is going up after decades of decline and is worthy of consideration considering deforestation remain." (maybe we ‘cut down’ trees as the expression of ourselves manifested according to how we ‘cut down’ each other silently within our secret mind)

Higher density means our world forests are capturing more carbon.  Forests are Not ‘fighting’ back all over the world.  They have always been here, long before any of us. They don’t determine the value of life according to profit margins.  Trees are simply standing as the actual manifested expression of Oneness and Equality as all of existence.

Human density has grown into social convenience and economical and environmental catastrophes killing that which supports life.  Forests are our ground troops and our frontline protection providing us support  – from ourselves, yet deforestation remains.  Further proof how humanity cannot be trusted to support and value life within our abusive money system.

Live proof of equality, support an Equal Money System – where all living beings are provided for equally.  Abolish the Roots of self interest. Re-align humanity according to and as ‘The Principle of Equality’.

Nature living proof of equality:   A mature leafy tree produces as much oxygen in a season as 10 people inhale in a year.  Forests also acts as a giant filter that cleans the air we breath and also absorb dangerous chemicals and other pollutants that we allow to enter the soil.  Trees either store harmful pollutants or actually change the pollutant into less harmful forms. They filter sewage and farm chemicals, reduce the effects of animal wastes, clean roadside spills and clean water runoff into streams.

Flash flooding can be dramatically reduced by a forest or by planting trees. One Colorado blue spruce, either planted or growing wild, can intercept more than 1000 gallons of water annually when fully grown. Underground water-holding aquifers are recharged with this slowing down of water runoff.
To produce its food, a tree absorbs and locks away carbon dioxide in the wood, roots and leaves.  A forest is a carbon storage area or like a sink that can lock up as much carbon as it produces. This locking-up process ‘stores’ carbon as wood and not as an available greenhouse gas.

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Trees are Aware : Video



Forests fight back all over the world

Annual Change in Forest Area and Carbon Mass 2000-2010