It’s kind of silly when you realize in your ‘Writing Yourself to Freedom’ Blogs – that you tattled on yourself, recently, right in front of yourself, within the words you had written. And, you’re only now realizing that assistance for self is always under your nose if you’ll breathe and have a look for yourself. It causes realization of self, in self honesty, to be fun like a scavenger hunt, more interesting than the greatest of mysteries and, assists your self-forgiveness to flow as water.
So now when she pops up in my head, she is most welcome. Because I now know that it is not her that is popping up, it is a reminder of the work that needs to be done in myself. And so, I let go of her and attend the real issue.
Sunette’s comment posted about what ApexVega wrote:
Take Note All of this Practical Way of Looking at Memories and not accepting/allowing them to become/be ‘Personalized’ as approaching them from reaction, but directly seeing what they’re showing/indicating about/of ‘who you are’ in the moment and how you’re able to utilize the point coming up in assisting/supporting self within one’s Process. Enjoy! Sunette Spies
Sunette Spies from Desteni assists all in allways within every moment she breathes.
Writing – Self-Directive vs Mind-Regurgitation
December 21, 2010
Ok – Within this interview we’re going to have a look at self-directive writing and the difference between self-directive writing and mind-regurgitative writing – wherein your writing purely consists of and exists as regurgitating your thought patterns and reaction habits without any actual insight or understanding or realization that come through within through your writing and thus render your writing useless, because within such mind-writing all that your in essence doing is feeding your mind consciousness system a different way, wherein you are validating and justifying and feeding your current starting point or definition of who you are, how you are, and what you are within and as the mind consciousness system.
Therefore, to give some clarity, perspective, insight and understanding in ensuring that when you write, you’re writing self-directively that while and within your writing you are writing our your mind-pattern that it is that you’re facing and at the same time as writing it out, you are standing up within it, so that your writing becomes an actual self-assistance in self-support from that perspective. NOT a mind-support or assistance, but an actual self-support and assistance.
Self-support and assistance – meaning, that you see, realize, and understand while, and through, and within your writing what it is that you’re accepting and allowing and while you’re writing out, let’s say, the problem, you’re at the same time seeing the solution and within that can direct yourself within your self-forgiveness most effectively and then, of course, within your practical living application as your living correction of this point that you’re facing within yourself, so that your writing becomes a point where you face yourself and stand up within yourself at the same time.
So, to assist and support with this point is to have a look at your self-experience while you’re writing or before you’re writing. Be very attentive in terms of your self-experience in the moment when you’re sitting before you’re writing that you do not accept or allow yourself to writing with and as energy, because the mind consciousness system…within the mind consciousness system energy is its main source with which it leads you into and as various constructs or patterns within and as itself – wherein, if you accept and allow yourself to participate and thus get lost within energy it is very easy for you to get lost within and as the thoughts, or the patterns, or the habits, or the constructs, or the systems that’s related to that energy. I mean, before you know it you have accepted and allowed yourself to be directed by the mind into and as various points of thinking, wondering, imagining, fantasizing, projecting, and then you’ve completely lost your self-directive will in the moment before writing.
So, be careful of that point because it’s a habit, where we accept and allow ourselves to participate in energy and then fuel that energy and then before we know it we are in various mind-dimensions and possessed by and through the initial energy that we accepted and allowed ourselves to be directed by.
So, within writing you can assist and support yourself with this point of remaining self-directive. The basically living statement of: I decide, I direct – and therefore, within your writing, take on one point at a time. Therefore, you’ll know that your writing will be in line with and sticking to this one point, and then you make sure that you do not deviate or lead yourself astray from this one point that you decided to face within and as your writing, because what the mind consciousness system, in relation to the relationship you have with your mind consciousness system, if you accept and allow yourself to deviate, meaning, now start writing or looking at various other aspect, then your writing starts becoming about those various other aspect that you accepted and allowed yourself to deviate from and then you complete lost track of that initial point that you were facing. It’s like the way that is utilized to pre-occupy you or to have you lose sight of, or remove your attention or focus away from you, yourself, here.
So, be very watchful of that tendency within and as you participation while writing.
So, therefore, when you’re sitting and you’re deciding to write and face yourself within writing, take on one point and make sure you stick to just that one point. Like, for example, you’re facing…sadness in your world, and your reality and this energetic experience of sadness has been a constant presence within your experience during your day – it’s like you realize its there and you can feel it and you accepted and allowed yourself to be influenced by this energy today. So, you basically, when you have a moment at the end of the day, or in the middle of your day, or whenever – and you just look at your initial experience, look at the one point that you can identity and what it is that you’re experiencing. So start with an experience – what is it that you’re feeling? – what is the acceptance and allowance of your current self-experience?
Then you write about it. Then you start opening yourself up in relation to the point of sadness. Then you look at sadness, you look at yourself in relation to the point – it’s not to write about it – it’s to write about you and who you are within the point of sadness.
So, many will, for example, make the mistake of regurgitating their mind-possessive state in relation to the sadness and through the writing actually feed the sadness, instead of directing themselves within the sadness. Like, for example say:
‘Today has been a really heavy day, and I’m feeling so sad and it feels like I’m so depressed and there’s like nothing I can do about it – maybe I should do that – and, you know, I’ve kind been looking at this, but it hasn’t been working, and I don’t feel like anything…’
You know, you go into a state of actual complaining about what it is that you’re experiencing and in that complaining self-victimized state that you put yourself in within your writing, you’re simply time-looping yourself in that very experience. This is an example of not being self-directive in your writing and it’s an example of victimizing yourself and feeling sorry for yourself in relation to what you’re experiencing.
So, always have a look at your writings from that perspective. Make sure that you’re not going into that complaining self-victimized state in relation to a point what you’re facing. Ensure that the point that you’re writing about is only one point and that you’re not deviating into other points. Like, you’ve decided to write about sadness and then all of a sudden you go to writing about taking a letter from the postman when you dragged your feet out of the door and you realized that the postman didn’t look very happy as well today and was also in a bad mood and it looked like everything else was in a bad mood and it was raining and its like the world changed into the sadness that you experienced…
You know, you start wandering off into talking about other people and other things in your world and your environment, completely shifting and projecting the actual initial point of yourself, in relation to sadness.
So, that’s another point to look at to make sure that the point remains about self, that you don’t start writing about yourself, and sadness, and other people, other things, other events, your whole day, your past, your future, and you start completely projecting yourself with the sadness into all aspects of your life while you’re writing. So, in essence you’re assisting and supporting your mind consciousness system to create yourself within this experience into various other aspects of your life – wherein you’re simply layering what it is that you’re experiencing, instead of stopping.
So, those are some basic examples in relation to when you start accepting and allowing yourself to writing about – sadness – wherein, the sadness becomes the focal point and you start looking and seeing everything through the sadness, instead of from and within yourself as starting point.
So, as an example in terms of self-directive writing in relation to using the example of the point of sadness as your experience, is, if you start from a question, meaning, having a look at:
‘Okay, I experienced this sadness today – where does it come form? Meaning, where did I accept and allow this sadness to exist within me?’
Then you can look at your day, and you start writing:
‘I look at the sadness that I experienced and I realized that the sadness was there when I woke up this morning, and so within realizing that it was there when I woke up this morning, I had a look at what was the first thought I had this morning? Because experience of feeling as reactions as emotion, comes from thought – so, what was the thought? And I realized the thought was in relation to a projection that I actually thought this was going to be a bad day, and I realize that within accepting that thought, I accepted the feeling, or emotion that goes with it, and the experience of it as sadness, and I also feel the heaviness, like a burden, like I’m not going to enjoy this day, and so I realize I created this experience from that singular thought.’
Now that is an example of self-directive writing. Your focus is on yourself. You took the one point, you investigated its origin point, you looked at your thoughts, you look at your self – it’s a self-reflection – within writing, self-reflection, you are facing you, your starting point, everything – it’s about you – here.
So, when your writing is going in to all sort of directions, all over the place, kind of slightly mentioning points here and there and then talking about this, and then that, and what you…your opinion and idea and belief about this, and about that…I mean, that’s messy. That’s like, writing out your thought-patterns – what it is that you’re thinking – like writing your own conversations with your own mind. I mean, we’re not interested in that, and neither should you be. I mean, it’s really of no interest. It’s messy, it’s complicated, it only fucks with you – so, just simply stop.
Writing yourself to freedom is not writing about…or writing your own conversations with your own mind consciousness system. Obviously, you’re having enough of that, so there no need to write it out as well.
Writing yourself to freedom is writing self-directively. It’s writing within facing self, and having a moment of self-reflection – it’s your mirror you’re writing. So, utilize constructively and specifically. Make sure that you take on one point at a time, identify its origin point – Where did you start to experience it? What thought did you have?
Then you can look at what external point instigated it. Then you can have a look, with the example of the sadness, it was a rainy day, and immediately because of that you allowed yourself to feel like dull, or down, and then if you would like to explore further you can look at your past and see if a memory comes up, wherein, it was a rainy day and you were a kid and you were actually fine and happy the day didn’t influence you particularly, but then you got to the breakfast table and your parents were shouting and angry at each other and the whole day was a just a mess and that influenced you and since then, you don’t like rainy days – you feel depressed, or sad, because that whole memory point made you feel sad.
And then, you accordingly within seeing that point, you apply your self-forgiveness, you write out your self-forgiveness after your writing, and then how it is that you’re going to assist and support yourself to correct this point in your practical living. Meaning, whenever it’s a rainy day you make sure that you breath, you don’t accept and allow yourself to participate in any energy that’s come up within you – in relation to it being a rainy day – you make sure that you’re stable and constant in your participation during your day, and that you do not accept and allow yourself to be controlled by this experience of sadness.
Now that whole outline is self-directive. There, you’ve taken on one point, you have self-reflected, you’ve faced it, you’ve directed yourself within it, there’s insight, understanding, common sense, realization. And, this is an example of what we mean by self-directive writing.
So, always one point at a time, because the mind consciousness system utilizes various points at a time – mixing it, intermixing it, interweaving it, and messing it up, and mixing it in with various sorts of energies, and things like that.
So, in terms of walking the mind consciousness system, standing up within it, is taking it on one point at a time.
Later on, as you become more efficient and disciplined in your application, you’ll be able to take on more points, but for now, in the beginning stages with your facing yourself, in your writing, take it one point at a time. Make sure that it is a facing-yourself-writing, that you do not regurgitate the mind consciousness system by validating it through putting yourself in a victimized point.
Write it out structurally.
First, you write about your self in relation to the point – meaning, defining what it is that you are experiencing.
Looking for its origin point – Where did it start?
Then, you can write out your realization within it.
Then, identify the memory point – Where did this situation start?
Write out your insight/realization about that.
Then, your self-forgiveness.
Then, how it is that you are going to practically correct it.
I mean, then later on as you live your practically corrective application you can fine-tune your practical correction – how it is that you approach this whole point.
So, you build on your practical living, in and as reality.
So, here an example of how to approach writing as self-directive-will, in ensuring that you do not re-create or layer even more shit within yourself in relation to the mind-consciousness system.
Appreciation to Lindsay Craver for her transcribing.