Excerpt From: Day 341: “I am an Entrepreneur”
“With Equality, The Law that Direct Equality – is an Individual Interaction with Each One, Individually Protecting Each One and with Equal Money – Individually Provide for Each One Sufficiently. With Equality, You Do Not have to Compete to ‘Get to the Top’, which means that: ‘Only the Winner Gets All and the Rest Are Losers’ as it now exists within the Current System. So, Most People are Losers, but Nobody wants to Hear it, because apparently: ‘You’re not a Loser if you have a ‘Positive Attitude’. ‘If You can ‘Think Positively’ then, apparently: ‘you’re Not a Loser’’. But, if You Look at the System, Predictably, as it Exist now: What is Certain? It is 99% Certain that You Will be a Loser, that you will Always be one and that You will Never Get to the 1%.
So, instead of having a ‘100% System’ which is Best For All – you want to Live in a 1% System, where it’s 99% Certain that You will Be and Will Remain a Slave, so will Your Children. ‘The Few’ that Live in Protected little Suburbs with Lots of Money, Big Cars and Beautiful Holiday Packages (and there are Few that Live like that): Those Few are What You Have to Respect and Try and ‘Emulate’…Isn’t there something ‘Mistaken’ with such Reasoning?
Is the ‘Entrepreneurial Spirit’ Really such a ‘Big Thing’? Isn’t the Entrepreneurial Spirit those that come up with Solutions that is Best for All Life?
The Real Entrepreneurs of this World are Those of the Equal Money System, those of Destonian Integrity – that is a Level of Integrity. The word ‘Destonian’ is simply Describing People that Work for a Destiny that is Best for All Life and therefore, They Have the Integrity that Consider All Other Life Equally to their Own Life. Not being called a Destonian would be a Problem isn’t it? Because, a Destonian is a Word to be Proud of, a Destonian is a Person with Integrity, Somebody that Actually Care with Compassion and Empathy, someone that Understand the Living Word of Love, of Decency.” Bernard Poolman @Creation’s Journey to Life
Walking Self-forgiveness here for reactions I realized within myself according to how I experienced myself when a woman was talking/flirting at my partner while we were shopping for groceries today.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that when I become a character of and as my mind as that of jealousy, how within that moment I am trapping myself in/as emotions of inferiority and superiority and, where I become judgmental of myself and judgmental of those around me, which threatens the perception within my mind of how my relationship with my partner is suppose to be within my illusion of control.
Art by Andrew Gable
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I become a character of/as jealousy to/toward my partner where within my mind I hear a voice that proclaims: ‘Hey, ‘you belong to me’, thus, I see, realize, and understand that what I’m really doing is existing within an illusion of control in trying to protect the ‘perception’ I have of our relationship, which is actually me trying to control my partner according to how I ‘want’ him to be in order to keep my illusion of control going in order to maintain how I ‘want’ myself to be/feel in my relationship with my partner, thus, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I have formed my relationship with my partner within a relationship of jealousy and control.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize how within my relationship with my partner, I have from the very beginning formed a ‘preconceived idea’ which I imposed onto our relationship of how I wanted our relationship to be, thus, in order to keep my ‘idea’ of our relationship in tact, in how I ‘desire’ it to be, I will try and control it through jealousy – where I become jealous of other people that appear to be threatening my desire, want and need of how I ‘intend’ the relationship to be, thus, I commit myself to STOP who I am within the illusion of control in how within and as such I believe that I can somehow take control of another being as who they are as their mind consciousness system and as who they exist as, when I see, realize and understand that there is no way that I can actually control who they are, and there is no self-honesty in doing so.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize how when I felt that my relationship to my partner was threatened, I imitated actions to further my control through how I suddenly saw myself physically reach out and grab a hold of his hand and in how I began to walk closer to him as if I was a dog marking ‘my territory’.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize how within my wants, needs and desires are preconceived ideas that I try to impose onto my relationship, how what I’m actually doing is trying to manifest into reality my own self-interest, because the wants, needs and desires that I perceive myself as, is actually my attempt to continue the illusion of control within and as my mind as consciousness, thus, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize how within the illusion of control I have existed within a cycle of inferiority and superiority in always trying to connect to that which I’m existing in separation to/of, thus why I try and manifest my connection in my relationship through/as jealousy as energy experiences of positive/negative as wants, needs and desires, thus our relationship continues as a constant chase, over and over within the neutrality of/as the illusion of control, thus, I commit myself to stop fueling wants, needs and desires through and as jealousy where I then change my behavior and manifest and create stress unto me as my physical body when the fact is that in self-honesty, I see, realize and understand that it is I who decides and directs who I am as my mind and it is I that has to face who I am within everything here and within that, I commit myself to slow myself down and come together as One as All to manifest and create Heaven on Earth.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize how within and as a character of and as my mind as jealousy, how, I never actually realized until today just what a monster feels like on the inside of me as my physical body in that it felt as if I was growing from the inside out, swelling up within myself in fear of losing my ‘perception’ of control, thus, when I stop and breathe, I see in self-honesty that the desire to control my partner/other beings is only an illusion, thus, I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realize how jealousy damAGES the internal organs and cells of and as me as my physical body, and furthermore, I commit myself to Never Forget that Love as we’ve lived it as Consciousness has never existed within and as the Principle of Equality.
When and as I see myself reacting in jealousy in order to fuel my wants, needs and desires within an illusion of control, I Stop. I BREATHE. I commit myself to investigate my thoughts, my words and how I am behaving, in order to stop manifesting and creating relationships within my reality according to the components of want, need and desire and jealousy within the illusion of control through and as superiority/inferiority as that which fuels me in my wants, needs and desires, and jealousy within and as the illusion of control.
I commit myself to stop pushing myself to be and have an experience of myself within and as wants, needs and desires in trying to control a relationship because I see, realize and understand that that is NOT actually who, what and how I am when I am breathing in and as self-honesty.
“I commit myself to SHOW that the LIGHT and LOVE Created in the Mind as Consciousness, is Only a Chamber of Illusion, Where the Fearful Hide from Responsibility.” ~ Bernard Poolman
Sometimes, I miss my brother and sister. It’s been almost a year since my sister died and, my brother died almost 6 months after her. They were all that was left of my immediate “blood” family, and, within my mind, I perceived them as being the only remaining connection to/of my mom – who died 10 years ago. So, within this character of myself, as the “sister”, I feel sad and lonely. The strange thing is, within the feelings of sadness and loneliness, is an odd sort of comfort. How the hell is it that sadness and loneliness “feels” comforting? When I stop and breathe and look at how I experience myself within the “missing feeling”, I see that it’s not really about “missing them” as much as it’s about the character of my mind that is still existent within and as me as memories/thoughts/feelings and emotions – me as the ‘sister act character’ – is missing the conformation, the fueling of it’s existence. –
I forgive myself for not realizing how throughout my childhood years I was unconsciously/unaware of how I was creating, constructing and evolving into and as who I am and how and what I will live as my mind in the physical with the purpose/reason for my existence to be that of preparing myself to live out characters/memories of and as my mind as for example, the character of the sister act.
I forgive myself for not realizing that as the sister act character/memory I enjoyed what I now see, realize and understand was a false sense of trusting myself in/as the ‘act of being a sister’.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hang onto the definition of myself that I’ve believed myself to be as that of/as a ‘good sister‘.
I forgive myself for not realizing that as the sister act character I believed myself as special.
I forgive myself for not realizing that as the sister act character I saw myself as ‘better than’ my sister and brother through comparison.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself in/as ‘being better than’ as the polarity opposite of ‘not good enough’ to exist within and as me.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to participate within judgment towards myself as ‘being better than’ my family, sister and brother, through seeing myself through the eyes of family through/as comparison thus, judging myself as being ‘better than’.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to/as the character of/as the sister act as perceive myself as special because I was the oldest, thus, I perceived myself as holding some sort of power and/or control over my siblings which I took advantage of through how I judged, blamed and criticized them when they didn’t ‘act’ the way I ‘thought’ they should.
I forgive myself for not realizing how the year before their deaths – I avoided them because I didn’t want to face my responsibility in how I saw myself within the fear I perceived them to both exist as.
I forgive myself for not realizing that in the act of being a sister was the act of competing for the love of our parents and/or attempting to get all of our parents attention.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize how I’ve used relationships whether they were family and/or friends to further bring to life the characters I’ve existed within and as and of my mind in the physical, in order to materialize/manifest my own personal wants, needs and desires – wherein self-interest I have always put myself as my mind first and to hell with the effects of how in doing so I’ve caused illness and disease within and as me as my physical body and this physical reality.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to deliberately participate in/as the sister act character in order to experience myself within a false sense of comfort that served only me according to what I wanted and desired as me as my mind of/as consciousness.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to access and participate within what I now see, realize and understand was a ‘live memory’ which manifest in/as our mind in detail wherein the ‘live memory’ is possible due to the mind-physical integration, where within my mind I experienced a real time remembrance in/as a memory of my sister/brother and my mom – which further fueled how I was experiencing myself within and as the sister act character and within that memory activated a sub-character of/as the guilty character.
I commit myself to stop me as the character/memory/thought and emotional feeling of/as the sister act through breathing in/as self-corrective application.
When and as I see myself go into the sister act within feelings of comfort and within emotions of fear, I stop. I see, realize and understand that the memories/thoughts/feelings and emotions are set up within my mind as polarity equations of good/bad and positive and negative and are an outflow of emotional/feeling body energies and memories of which I’ve existed as within my mind as the mind of/as my parents. Thus, through self-corrective applicaton I breathe and stop All participation.
I commit myself to show how what we perceive as love between siblings is actually only memories/characters/personality suits that separate us from ourselves and life itself through self-interest and competition, and how in the name of love we keep characters alive that we live out in/as role-play in order to Not see, realize and understand that we are in-fact responsible not only for ourselves, but for All living beings and that we are here to stop who we are in/as fear and to stand up and become accountable to and as All life in supporting a world according to what’s best for All.
I commit myself to show the extent to which we’ve been unaware within and throughout our accepted and allowed abdication of responsibility, in how we have lived as who we are as a Mind Consciousness System in using and abusing our physical body/reality and existence instead of coming together in Equality and Oneness as the directive principle of ourselves as our physical body and taking responsibility within and as everything and all of ourselves here in supporting all life according to what’s best for All.
(Please read Heaven’s Blog with regards to: Sub-Character Creation – Part 1 (Self-Forgiveness): DAY 113)
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not consider that my physical body is just like bringing up a baby wherein it requires complete awareness of self-breathing, proper nourishment, tender caressing, adequate water and gentle movements wherein every inch of myself from the top of my head to the ends of my toes is aware of itself as physical.
I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see/realize and understand the importance of living self in self-honesty in terms of actually living the principle of equality and oneness in how every part of my physical constitution is as important as another because the entire human physical body is set up within a structural physical manifested principal of actual equality and oneness in terms of if one fall all falls.
I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see/realize and understand that everyone has a unique tongue print just like we have a print on our fingers.
I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see/realize and understand that the largest organ within and as our physical body is our skin.
I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see/realize and understand that a single human blood cell takes only 60 seconds to make a complete circuit of our physical body.
I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see/realize and understand the significance in how the life of the human physical body is blood which it requires to see it’s own future.
I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see/realize and understand that there really is such a thing as broken heart syndrome, where one suffer symptoms similar to a heart attack after participating in/experiencing emotions and feelings which then cause stress within and as our physical body and thus causes the body to release hormones that temporarily damage the heart and/or narrow our blood vessels which support our heart.
I forgive myself that for my entire life,(including that which I’m unable to recall) I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from my physical body whether through deliberate conscious thoughts/acts/words and/or through my own unawareness of breath as conscious, unconscious and subconscious thoughts/acts/words, that I have to such an extent accumulated myself as them that who I’m becoming through self-forgiveness, in self-honesty and self-corrective application, will never be able to accumulate and equally manifest myself within and as and throughout me as my physical body.
I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see/realize and understand the extent to which my participation in and as the mind as consciousness has accumulated as abuse formed within, without, in/as, and upon my physical body as a representation of the accumulated denial of self in which I’ve abused myself inside and out in moments of remaining unaware of breath within the movement of self as walking as regret/memory, emotions and feelings in and as the time line of me.
I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see/realize and understand the relationships between my human physical body, the world system body and the heaven body wherein all three main bodies within this existence had been interconnected in creating and manifesting who we are as individuals, our personal life experiences and who we are together as one within our lives/experiences as a humanity manifesting/creating and walking upon this earth.
I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see/realize and understand how the structural embodiment as consciousness in it’s manifestation and nature as white light energy within it’s purpose to exist for eternity/infinity has affected our existence in how we have walked and existed as a humanity within a mind context according to ideas, beliefs and experiences and thus have forsaken who we are within and as our physical body within this physical reality.
I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see/realize and understand how the mind consciousness system with it’s knowledge and information, emotions and feelings and energies, such as personalities, consists of and as a body in itself and thus the manifested consequences we walk as in our existing through and as self-dishonesty in and as the direction of/as consciousness.
I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see/realize and understand that this entire world system represents the entire human physical body with various parts and manifestations and sections representing the organs of the human physical body.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have never considered and/or comprehended how our human physical body represents specifically how our entire existence including our money system, our blood and our veins are all interconnected.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have never considered and/or comprehended the relationship and the purpose of the connection between the heart and the soul and how the soul and money is connected within our current world/money system.
I commit myself to comprehending me as my physical body and to share and support others in understanding how our mind as consciousness continues to manifest a world of inequality and to stand in support of a system of Equality which will adequately support all living beings within and as this physical reality.
I commit myself to supporting those who are willing to see/realize and understand that we’re in fact individually responsible for this entire physical existence as it exist today and thus are we are each responsible to stand in support of an Equal Money System as the beginning foundation for creating Heaven on Earth.
A Suggestion is: Pour yourself a cup of coffee, sit back and hear about you as your physical body and your physical reality within the following interviews: Enjoy!