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Day 164: Innerspace

 I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become frustrated within myself where within me as my physical body I feel as if I’m experiencing myself as having to push myself through the great barrier reef of suppressed self-judgment and emotions which I have attached a definition of myself to which reads failure.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to when within my mind I hear, ‘suck it up and ignore the pain within yourself’, to not realize that I’m manipulating and justifying who I am so much so that I reach a point of the grandest of self illusions -where I’ve got no clue who and/or what character or personality will show up as me when I stand before friends and family who know me best in how I’ve always pretended to be what I perceive they expect me to be.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to within my mind exist as crooked, dishonest and basically someone who has been full of shit in how I become angry towards my children and my partner, and then have the nerve to wonder why I have pain in and as my physical body which in itself feels crooked with kinks in it, and within that,  I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize how through the relationships I have with my children and my partner, I have suppressed myself in and as guilt, shame and regret and where I direct myself as such through and as emotions inward unto me as my physical body which causes within me a sense of loss which I then define myself as in fear of.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I’m not able to forgive me for the mother I have been in how I raised my children in and as self-interest, fear and greed.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to when experiencing pain within and as my physical body to participate in the thought, ‘I can’t do this, it’s to painful’.

When and as I see myself go into fear where I tighten up and suppress myself and become characters and personalities that I see, realize and understand compound into and manifest systems within me as my physical body – I stop and I breathe. I commit myself to me as my physical body and this physical reality first and foremost to thus begin to be a living example of life according to what’s best for all.

I commit myself to forgiving me for the definition I have lived of myself as,  ‘a mom who failed her children’, and to redefine myself according to me as a mom breathing and walking here with both feet on the ground walking in and as self-honesty.

I commit myself to stop going emotionally bankrupt within and as my mind where I suppress within me raging systems of and consciousness as shame, regret and fear of loss.

I commit myself to forgive myself for the guilt I’ve existed as of not being the mother to my children that gives way to allow their child to express who they may become as life according to what’s best for all.

I commit myself to accept the breath of life unto and as all of me as my physical body.

“I commit myself to remind each one that we are all guests on Earth and we have abused the hospitality of Earth and created an Asylum and Hospital out of Earth searching for Feelings of energy in Self-interest. Earth will no longer tolerate the abuse and we as Humanity will now face our final our within which each one must decide who The I will be, Life or Self Interest. There is no one that can deny that deep inside this hour has always been expected.” ~ Bernard Poolman

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Day 117: The Right to Die

Tears of desperate locked-in syndrome sufferer Tony Nicklinson as High Court rules he CAN’T ask a doctor to end his life – –

The above article is about a 58-year-old father of two who is mentally sound but paralyzed from the neck down and unable to speak. For two years he’s been battling to persuade three judges of the High Court to rule that if and when he decides he wants to die, that doctors will be immune from prosecution if they help him to do so. Recently, he lost in his war for ‘the right’ to end his life.

His wife said her husband was ‘absolutely heartbroken’ because he’s been condemned by the law to ‘a life of increasing indignity and misery’.

It’s a strange thing to read, that someone is ‘fighting’ the laws of our current world/money system for the right to end one’s life so that they won’t have to suffer a life of ‘indignity and misery’. Because obviously, the laws of our current world/money system have already denied ‘the right for All to be able to live a life in dignity’ – where 30,000 plus children die a miserable death every single day from starvation.

Who the hell cares about their indignity and misery? They’re starving to death! They don’t have the luxury of a two year court battle to survive life.

There is something here we had better grasp – that how we experience ourselves within our world, is by our own creation as consciousness, which we agree to and manifest within our world accordingly.

Like it or not – we’re All responsible for how every single one of us experience life, whether that be through the suffering/misery resulting from having a stroke or the daily shocking statistics of 30,000 + children starving to death.

If there’s misery, pain, suffering, anguish and suppression amongst us, where one wishes they would die but are unable to – that is what it is as a direct result of our current world/money system. It’s time for us to realize that ALL challenges we face are according to what I / WE have accepted and allowed ourselves to be and become.

The Question is – what have we accepted and allowed ourselves to become?

For Life on Earth to actually change – where No one suffers and every single life is given equal support and assistance according to individual needs – that require us to stop who we are in/as self-interest, ego and greed.

In order to provide effective life support according to what’s best for self, requires a system where we come together as a group, to take self-responsibility and support a world/money system according to what’s best for All.

There is ONLY ONE solution where peaceful change is possible, that is through an Equal Money System.

I commit myself to comprehend completely for myself to thus show how one cannot escape facing/forgiving self – because even in death self must take self-responsibility for Self as Life as All in All ways Equally.

I commit myself to Never stop supporting an Equal Money System which will provide All living beings with The Right to Experience LIFE in DIGNITY.

I commit myself to show how an Equal Money System will allow each one of us the ability to clarify and redefine ourselves through self-directed choices of/as self-responsibility for and as All Living beings.

I commit myself to show how with an Equal Money System, the Right of Life will give each individual being the right to exist in dignity in/as Heaven on Earth – where fighting to live and die will not be a battle nor even a QUESTion within the minds of men.

I commit myself to show how life within an Equal Money System will replace struggling to survive to that of Harmony Amongst Neighbors.

I commit myself to Life in Equality as Heaven on Earth wherein ego, greed and self-interest become obsolete as expressions.

I commit myself to Life in Equality as Heaven on Earth where Equal Money will pave the way for Peace and a Dignified Life for All.

Day 108: Make Them Earn Their Keep

Foreign prisoners cost taxpayers £430m a year… just to keep them locked up – –

This is a comment someone posted below the above article: “Make them earn their keep, or is that too obvious?” –

I can remember a couple of times saying something similar – thus the following self-forgiveness.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to support a world/money system that limits resource availability to the people of the land based on profit, where the greedy take from the needy and use the excuse of ‘make them earn their keep’ as a way of keeping their own self-absorbed lifestyle intact – instead of realizing that what is provided unto us from/as our Sun, Earth and Water, is in Keep for All Living beings, to see to it that the experience of life may become a living expression of Heaven on Earth for All – Not just for some.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to within and as the words: “make them earn their keep”, not seen, realized and understood that when I accept life according to one’s earnings, then I’m allowing life lived in/as yearnings – a desire for that which I seek but never attain.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to Not see, realize and understand how when I as a character of/as my mind, demand that another ‘earn their keep’ – what I am actually saying is that I ‘feel’ betrayed by our current world/money system and, I Fear every day that I’m Not going to have enough money to feed myself and my family, thus within and as my Fear, I become characters in/of defense – as a way of protecting myself from my own fear – wherein I go to war against my fellow beings – instead of seeing, realizing and understanding, that it is I who Decides what I accept and allow to exist as our current world/money system, and, that it is My responsibility to change that which is broken, and I see, realize and understand that our current world/money system is broken, thus, instead of blaming and shaming and demanding the continuance of a world where people must ‘Earn their keep’ – I stop. I Breathe. I Commit myself to Stand up and Support All Life according to what’s best for All, because I see, realize and understand how when I GIVE LIFE unto another, I RECEIVE LIFE unto and as me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to manipulate myself and others through guilt and fear within the beLIEf that life is about ‘earning our keep’ and within that I forgive myself that I have never questioned that which I accepted – that life is something that must be earned otherwise one is not deserving of life – instead, in self-honesty, I see, realize and understand that such a beLIEf only serves the purpose of supporting the rich and enslaving the rest – thus I stop. I breathe. I Commit myself to investigating an Equal Money System as The Solution that will Save the World.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist within and as the beLIEf that life is about ‘earning one’s keep’, because I see, realize and understand that when I walk in the shoes of another, I see, realize and understand that I / We don’t require a ‘keeper’ nor do I / We require to be ‘kept’ – what I / We require is a practical living solution that equally supports who we are as LIFE as our Physical Bodies within and as our Physical Reality, and to provide All living beings with the ability to create an environment that is safe, supportive, comfortable and effective.

Day 94: Establishing a Relationship

Beginning last night and all of today – I’ve been experiencing fever and more pain than usual throughout my physical body – thus the following self-forgiveness.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become fearful when I experience pain in/as my physical body.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to reach for drugs when I experience pain within my physical body.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to throughout my life abuse pain medications and prescription medicines which may or may not have been harmful to me as my internal organs within and as my physical body.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to never have considered nor understood the purpose of pain in and as me as my physical body.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to consider how my mind as thinking and participating in/as emotions and feelings and internal reactions have impacted me as my physical body.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to Not see, realize and understand the relationship between my body and my mind in how the mind contributes to my experiences and manifestations of pain.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to Not see, realize and understand how pain in and as me as my physical bodies influences my life decisions.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to Not comprehend how physical pain, discomfort and ailments are a consequence which I have created and manifested within my physical body over an extended period of time.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to in/as ego allow me as my mind as consciousness to become a physical consequence.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fail to consider how when I access memories/thoughts in/as emotions and feeling charges where I physically experience emotions and feelings that are actually charged within components of/as mind constructs – how within such participation in/as them, I create an actual physical effect upon me as my physical body.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to Not see, realize and understand how every single thought has an emotional-feeling charge to it as a resonance where it resonates like a ripple effect through and within and as my entire physical body.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to live my life so consumed in/as my mind of/as thoughts and dreams of how I wanted to experience myself according to how and what my mind as consciousness in/as emotions/feelings/memories/characters and personalites wanted and desired, that I completely ignored me as my physical body.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to Not see, realize and understand how the mind consciousness system acts like a parasite to the human physical body in that as the systems integrate into our physical body it extracts the nutrients of/as our physical body to reproduce itself into mind energy, thus the more we participate in/as emotions and feelings, thoughts, memories, etc., the more we become constructs as systems of/as our mind as consciousness, which evolves, expands and integrates into and as our physical body, thus why the relationship as the mind to the physical body completely takes over until we eventually as the physical body start decaying as it eats away at itself in order to survive and thus how we age and die.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to physically crawl up into a ball within feelings of lonesomeness and thoughts of how, ‘so and so’ betrayed me, Not seeing, realizing and understanding that the only betrayal was the betrayal of me in participating within my mind while neglecting to cherish me as who I am within and as my physical body.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have never actually established a relationship with me as my Human Physical Body.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to Not see, realize and understand what mind processes are involved with creating and manifesting physical consequences – in order to Stop the mind consequence – and align myself to and as Physical Living.

to be continued

(Please read Heaven’s Blog with regards to: Quantum Consciousness Programming in Childhood – Part 1: Day 99 and Quantum Consciousness Programming in Childhood – Part 2: Day 100)

Day 28: Bringing up Body

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not consider that my physical body is just like bringing up a baby wherein it requires complete awareness of self-breathing, proper nourishment, tender caressing, adequate water and gentle movements wherein every inch of myself from the top of my head to the ends of my toes is aware of itself as physical.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see/realize and understand the importance of living self in self-honesty in terms of actually living the principle of equality and oneness in how every part of my physical constitution is as important as another because the entire human physical body is set up within a structural physical manifested principal of actual equality and oneness in terms of if one fall all falls.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see/realize and understand that everyone has a unique tongue print just like we have a print on our fingers.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see/realize and understand that the largest organ within and as our physical body is our skin.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see/realize and understand that a single human blood cell takes only 60 seconds to make a complete circuit of our physical body.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see/realize and understand the significance in how the life of the human physical body is blood which it requires to see it’s own future.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see/realize and understand that there really is such a thing as broken heart syndrome, where one suffer symptoms similar to a heart attack after participating in/experiencing emotions and feelings which then cause stress within and as our physical body and thus causes the body to release hormones that temporarily damage the heart and/or narrow our blood vessels which support our heart.

I forgive myself that for my entire life,(including that which I’m unable to recall) I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from my physical body whether through deliberate conscious thoughts/acts/words and/or through my own unawareness of breath as conscious, unconscious and subconscious thoughts/acts/words, that I have to such an extent accumulated myself as them that who I’m becoming through self-forgiveness, in self-honesty and self-corrective application, will never be able to accumulate and equally manifest myself within and as and throughout me as my physical body.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see/realize and understand the extent to which my participation in and as the mind as consciousness has accumulated as abuse formed within, without, in/as, and upon my physical body as a representation of the accumulated denial of self in which I’ve abused myself inside and out in moments of remaining unaware of breath within the movement of self as walking as regret/memory, emotions and feelings in and as the time line of me.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see/realize and understand the relationships between my human physical body, the world system body and the heaven body wherein all three main bodies within this existence had been interconnected in creating and manifesting who we are as individuals, our personal life experiences and who we are together as one within our lives/experiences as a humanity manifesting/creating and walking upon this earth.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see/realize and understand how the structural embodiment as consciousness in it’s manifestation and nature as white light energy within it’s purpose to exist for eternity/infinity has affected our existence in how we have walked and existed as a humanity within a mind context according to ideas, beliefs and experiences and thus have forsaken who we are within and as our physical body within this physical reality.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see/realize and understand how the mind consciousness system with it’s knowledge and information, emotions and feelings and energies, such as personalities, consists of and as a body in itself and thus the manifested consequences we walk as in our existing through and as self-dishonesty in and as the direction of/as consciousness.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see/realize and understand that this entire world system represents the entire human physical body with various parts and manifestations and sections representing the organs of the human physical body.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have never considered and/or comprehended how our human physical body represents specifically how our entire existence including our money system, our blood and our veins are all interconnected.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have never considered and/or comprehended the relationship and the purpose of the connection between the heart and the soul and how the soul and money is connected within our current world/money system.

I commit myself to comprehending me as my physical body and to share and support others in understanding how our mind as consciousness continues to manifest a world of inequality and to stand in support of a system of Equality which will adequately support all living beings within and as this physical reality.

I commit myself to supporting those who are willing to see/realize and understand that we’re in fact individually responsible for this entire physical existence as it exist today and thus are we are each responsible to stand in support of an Equal Money System as the beginning foundation for creating Heaven on Earth.

A Suggestion is: Pour yourself a cup of coffee, sit back and hear about you as your physical body and your physical reality within the following interviews: Enjoy!

The Infinity Secret – Consciousness as The Light and The Dark

The Heart of Love

The Inequality of Resource Distribution within All Bodies of Existence

Divide and Conquer – The Majority Enslaved by the Minority

Day 26: Simple in-a-sense

Today, my 22 month old granddaughter walked up close to me more than once and reached for, and held my hand – once while I was fixing her lunch, once while we looked out the window and once while we stood talking to the dogs. In-a-sense, the touch of our hands left nothing between us unsaid.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to forget how to enjoy holding hands with another for the simple reason of breathing in the moment together.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to lose my sense of connection within and as the physical-ness of simply touching and breathing one with and as another being.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to miss the perception of myself as a child before I became aware of the sense of fear slowly creeping in and as me through fear of loss.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to mourn for the child I use to be because in the beginning as a child I saw life as something worth living instead of the day to day struggles adults live in trying to survive our current money system.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to forget what it is to be equal with the dirt between my fingers and toes.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to stop enjoying a walk in the rain feeling the touch of the raindrops falling down upon my face.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to choose the company of another according to what they can do for and give to me, instead of enjoying the presence of breath together.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to win over the rights to have something as only mine with regards to that which I was once willing to give/share.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to escape my moment of breath through complicating it in comparing who has the biggest piece of the pie.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to keep secrets within myself hiding parts of me in and as my mind in shame.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed energetic experiences to interfere in my ability to see the abuse I’ve allowed and walked as in total disregard of all life here.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to manipulate and control moments of my life, instead of living each breath here within this moment.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to dream bigger than the day before instead of living grateful for this moment in breath.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to take life for granted wherein I wanted the best and the most of what can be had, instead of breathing in the simplicity of the moments in awareness to simply not step on a rollie polie crossing the path in front of me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become a living version of my parents in all their prejudices, judgments and fears.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be influenced according to and as the fears I participated in within my mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to whine and feel sorry for myself until I became that which I felt sorry for myself for and that which I whined on about.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to take life for granted as I participated in my mind of self-interest and greed wherein all I thought about was getting from life whatever it took for me to be happy.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to run and play and seek to have the most of what is here, all the while never considering the lives of those who suffer in poverty, homelessness and war.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give myself authority to be and become me as my mind as consciousness wherein I’ve disregarded the earth, the dirt, the plants and water and the air, everything that allows life to exist.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to refuse to ascertain the dishonesty of believing in myself as who I am as my mind of thoughts, feelings and emotions and in how me participating in and as them is to value only the interest of self and thus to disregard me as my physical body.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to through the value I placed in and as my mind became self-interest driven and failed to see/realize and understand that in the interest of self as the mind the world as a whole is suffering and dying daily.

I commit myself to the simplicity in seeing that life is meant to be an equal living expression for all living beings here on earth living a quality of life in dignity.

i commit myself to keeping it simple moving myself as my physical body as a foundation of support that all life may experience themselves in dignity.

I commit myself to standing up for all life to bring about an Equal Money System and thus bring an end to poverty and starvation and creating Heaven on Earth.

Welcoming New Arrivals To ‘The Equality Equation’

We’re welcoming ten new arrivals, six hens and 4 roosters to The Equality Equation within our family here on Krafft 5 acres, so preparations are under way.  Equality is first and foremost, as all life breathing is worthy of a life lived in Dignity.  We’re building and preparing their home, assuring all their basic needs to be met according to and as the Principle of Equality’

Equality, defined simply according to our movement of self according to our physical actions where we bring forth and are providing for all here equally accumulating a Quality of Life which is allowed, accepted, and given utmost importance for/as and to all Living Beings.  Stepping forth and manifesting hearts living as breath Equal and One as All as individual beings self-expressing living examples within and as the Mathematical Equation for and as All Life Accumulating, 1+1=2.

To All New Arrivals Listen: 

The Quality of EqualityWe will Follow it Living a Principle as we all, as One, Gather together injecting life walking Equal to and as,  All and Everything Here.

Join Us

‘Til it is done and All are Standing as All as One as Equal

Link here to be: 1 Vote in support of an Equal Money System & World Equality…

Life Coaching Suggested Herein as the ‘The Desteni I Process’