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Day 133: Killing Blame

Walking the following the Self-forgiveness for how today, I saw myself want to blame another for something that changed how I experienced myself within my world

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realize how when I become a character/memory of and as my mind, that I not only blame others for how I experience myself but I also blame them for how things happen within my world and as such it becomes easy for me to justify my actions even if it means that I am creating hurtful consequences for another, because as long as I am benefitting from my behavior, whether it be emotional, comforting and/or of monetary benefit, I will allow that to override my sense of self-control in order to achieve what I want because it’s all about me, thus, I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realize how as the character of blame, if I see that my behavior is no longer producing the desired results and my experience results in a negative experience, I will use that as a point of blame as well and create a protection of sorts, which is how me as my mind as consciousness protects my core beliefs and thus continues to blame others, instead of taking self-responsibility for my actions which may or may not have resulted in the consequences of another.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize how as a character of blame I will find reasons why I should be excused for taking responsibility for my actions by participating in and as backchat which begin as: “so and so did this and that”, thus, I will magically put the fault elsewhere on someone else proving to myself within the perception of my ‘secret mind‘ that because of “so and so”, I couldn’t possibly be held accountable and/or responsible thus, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize how within and as a character of blame, I experience pain in my upper back region which I see happens mostly after a negative energy experience where I manipulate others through polarity equations where I overemphasize the negative effects that others have had on me while overemphasizing myself which underemphasizes the negative effects that my actions have had on others and thus, I avoid taking self-responsibility for who I am and what I’m accepting and allowing myself to be and become and for how and what I am responsible for according to how our world/money system exists.

When and as I see myself wanting to/place blame onto another, I Stop. I Breathe. I commit myself to stop who I am as a character of blame and direct myself through self-corrective application to take complete responsibility for who I am, to show how I am able to move myself as my physical body in walking as self-support to realign and redesign who I am in order to support a world according to what’s best for All.

“I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to divert attention away from me onto another person by blaming others for what happened not accepting and allowing myself to stand up within and as myself to take responsibility for what is here and through this I forgive myself that I did not see, realise or understand that as long as I am hiding behind the blame character I am tacitly accepting and allowing that which is here to continue to exist and through this I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to abdicate my self responsibility to what is here by allowing myself to hide behind the blame character.” ~ Esteni De Wet

Forgiving reasons

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I know it all when I have known nothing of what living and supporting all life equally really is.  I stop. I breathe in as I accept and allow support through and as my physical body as me according to and as the equality equation of and as all life here.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to reason with myself that I am right and/or wrong according to what I perceived myself to know and/or understand when I have never lived who I am according to what’s best for all as who I am as all life equally responsible for all life here.  I stop. I Breathe, I accept and allow myself to walk life through and as self-trust in support of and as all as one as equal.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from my physical body through treacherous thoughts and actions of weakness according to emotions and feelings where I calculated myself as unworthy and unable to stand up in support of and as all life here.  I Stop. I Breathe in through and as my physical body as I direct myself here to stand in support for and as all as one as equal.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am innocent when clearly I have never known myself to be nor have I ever existed as innocence.  I stop. I breath and I stand hand in hand in support of and as all living beings as all as one as equal.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist in separation from the very definition and purpose of what equal and one really is as I ignored life through self-interest, ego and greed.  I stop.  I breath in acceptance of me as my physical body as I direct and support myself through and as my physical body according to what is best for all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to grasp at shadows of myself through believing that I must win the game of cat and mouse where I chased after an experience of myself so as to glorify a self definition according to who and how I was existing as.  Instead I Stop – I Breathe and I face myself within all that is here as me according to what’s best for all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become frustrated where I feel sorry for myself during moments when my physical body is communicating to me through physical symptoms of fever, pain and irritation. I stop – I direct myself through and as my physical body wherein I allow myself to be here in every moment of breath where I am a living example of support for and as all life Equal to and as this physical reality.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from my physical body when it aches through and as fear, sadness and despair where I sense a point of wanting to give up and retreat inside myself and hide.   I Stop. Instead I breathe through self-willed actions of me here according to and as the principle of equality.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to worship a God where I believed I committed sins and existed in fear while I avoided taking responsibility for who I am within all that is here. I stop. I breathe in as an awareness of and as my physical body as I accept and allow myself to be who I am becoming according to and as the oneness of and as touch through and as my physical body according to and as all as one as equal.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to deny the right to life to all because I fancied money according to  how I wanted to experience myself with money where I valued money over and above everything and everyone here.  I Stop. I Breathe, I direct myself standing here in support of and as an Equal Money System so that all living beings may be supported and allowed a life of dignity.

In the Blink of an eye I Breathe

I began writing my last mind construct this past weekend, an assignment through Desteni I Process.  It’s not really the ‘last’ mind construct I’ll be writing – just the last one of these particular assignments.  The resistance I have had to writing this one has been accompanied by various degrees of thought patterns, emotions and feelings as well as a series of new physical pains and symptoms.  That’s how my body retrieved my attention to assist me to see my fall – where I fell more than once into a series of scattered thought and behavioral patterns in order to fulfill the process of a memory containment manifestation according to the direction of the mind consciousness system.  That’s the best I can describe it.  My physical body has been attempting to bring me back to here to assist me to stop my participation as such.  It’s been like hitting a road block, or a mental blank,  where all you can do is blink – until you realize that you’ve not even been here with yourself breathing. 

Blink was the word that kept coming forth for me to investigate and that’s when I sensed the definition of myself within it.  When my computer, or car, or washing machine stops working I’ve often referred to them as being on the ‘blink’ – not in proper working order;  and/or in need of repair.  I realized that I’ve been ignoring and/or disregarding myself. I had become complacent.  Complacent meaning I’ve been existing according to self-merit, and/or living according to some sort of advantage of my seemingly satisfied life/situation.  Simply put, it’s self-interest according to ego.  A hell of a time-loop of mind system comfortability – where I accept and allow myself to be less than how I know I am capable of standing as.  A point of limitation to and towards all life.  The specifics here are only necessary for me to reveal to myself in self-honesty. Of which I have.

I Stop as I will no longer allow such. So, I am here, breathing, slowing myself down and facing me, humble, grateful and standing according to what’s best for all. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself according to my past energetic experiences and/or behaviors through thought and memory patterns – I stop. I breathe, I stand and face me in self-honesty walking here in support of all life Equally.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to ignore me as my physical body and as my physical reality.  I stop. I breathe, I direct myself here according to the Principle of Equality.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become complacent where I take all life for granted through polarity mind patterns.  I stop. I breathe, I stand in support that all living beings may live their life in dignity thus, I support an Equal Money System.

I stand the same yesterday, today and tomorrow as the self certainty of me as I remain as I am here.  Breathing in support of and as all as one as equal.

Walk This Way

Equal Money means the human race has ended as we stand up on our own two feet walking as the feet for and as all within and as self-responsibility where accountability to self is entrusted standing up accountable for and as All as One as Equal.

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Wants BeGone

Before I began walking and applying the tools provided in the Desteni Material,  I saw differences in others as something that I must compete with.  The abilities of another I seen as a threat to how and who I was existing as.  I wanted to be better than, prettier than, richer than, smarter than, the one with the best paying job and, the one that everyone liked the most.  I wanted all the attention in any way that I could receive it and I played quite the con game in order to fuel the energetic charges.  I existed and lived self-manipulation statements unto my physical reality wherein I used emotions and feelings to manipulate myself and others within my world.  When I lost my way I used emotional and feeling reactive energy where I would then pull myself into a state of self-victimization through thought patterns that I willingly submitted myself to and as.  One moment I was up and the next moment I was down but either way I existed as reactive energy.  Looking now at how I participated where everything was about me, me, me – it was exhausting. 

The tools that Desteni I Process provides has assisted me to begin to understand the relevancy of moving myself according to what is best for all.  The tools provide and assists self to investigate and release patterns of ego/personality in self-honesty through self-forgiveness.  As one is releasing the patterns that one has accepted and allowed through the direction as a mind of consciousness system, one is able to begin to build self-trust in stopping the participation as energetic outflows so as to see for self what is real here.

Self-trust in self-honesty is a point that has to be walked as who self is within every moment of breath. As such, one begins to stop manipulation and justification patterns of self as well as to and toward others and, it’s quite refreshing.

Is Human Nature Flawed?

There are millions and millions of thought processes in which we as humans have and participate in daily.  Every word you can think of – except the word ‘Equality’.  How come there are no sudden thoughts that contain the world ‘Equality’?  I’ve been looking at this point and it’s fascinating to say the least and I challenge anyone to just try it.  Sit and have a dozen or more thoughts with regards to ‘Equality’ – not so easy.  That in itself proves how we are pre-designed and enslaved according to the direction of our mind.  Is Human Nature Flawed according to our accepted and allowed design?

Question how that is possible if you say you’re not brainwashed.  Can you imagine a world where all are Equal and One?  Will you be willing to ask such a question and then apply yourself to investigate?  Come join us as we investigate who we are and how we are able to assist ourselves so as to assist others in bringing forth a world that is best for all. 

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