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Day 153: Fear Me Not

I’m facing some changes in my life and within them have become very aware of how it’s in the smallest details that I face my biggest fear in asking myself, am I willing, and can I stop my fear of change, to thus change myself from the inside out, where the result is me standing for eternity, in support of and for a World according to what’s best for All.  Thus, beginning here with the following self-forgiveness.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to deny that I fear change.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that when I fear change I am in fact in fear of me as who I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel outta control at the idea of a sudden change in my life such as the death of a family member or having to move from where I live.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize how I have utilized the words ‘out of control’ as a definition of self that keeps me stuck within a place of suppression within myself where I have believed that I’m not strong enough to make it if my life were to suddenly dramatically change.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to associate change with losing something and or someone.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear that if I change, where I stop the characters and personalities that I’ve become aware of in who and how I play out the desires of my mind, that I will upset and/or lose those closest to me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed fear of change to stop me from taking any action at all which would result in me establishing self-trust.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to associate change as something that will cause me mental discomfort and/or physical pain.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see change as a point of discontent within an image in my mind where I experience a sense of losing my possessions.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to depend upon the same routine day after day where within my mind the daily routine locks me into continuing the perception of me as my mind as being in control.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to tell stories to myself within my mind in order to make myself continue existing in the belief that I fear change.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become frustrated with my children as a fear reaction when I see that they are about to enforce a change within their lives that I see will affect mine.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I have created a protection and defense mechanism within my mind against change in that when change comes up within my mind, I see how I relate who I am toward people and my environment within a definition of myself that appears to be a safe place of knowing who I am, yet is in fact not so because within me as my mind I exist in reference to and relate myself to that someone and/or my environment remaining the same in order for me to know who I am.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that if who I am is dependent upon another person and/or my environment to stay a certain way for me to know who I am, then who I have believed myself to be is not and has never been real.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that to fear change is to fear embracing who I am as life within and as my physical body and my physical reality, outside of and free from the direction of and as my mind.

When and as I see myself begin to fear what I see is going to result in a change within my world, I stop, I breathe.  Instead I direct myself to see, realize and understand that when change in self is required where self-honesty is applied within a principle according to what’s best for all, there is nothing to fear thus, I commit myself to stop going into an automated state of fear and to realize that life is in awareness of self as breath in every moment.

I commit myself to walk in and as the redefinition of self as the words ‘out of control’, where  I direct myself to be in control in determining who I am in self-honesty,  wherein I am stopping who I’ve been as my mind as consciousness because I see, realize and understand that it is I who decides who I am in control of me as my physical body as one who is strong and consistent in bringing forth a world according to what’s best for all.

I commit myself to show that who I am within and as change is to have a clear awareness of myself and my world in being able to assess in common sense what is best for all within any given moment and as such to realize the importance of supporting an Equal Money system as a means of supporting all life according to what’s best for all.

 

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Day 42: Snake bite: a symptom in the nature of our survival

Today our dog Bella got bit on her snout by a copperhead snake that was in our back yard. The snake wasn’t very big and was only defending itself, but Bella’s snout swelled up like a balloon. After a 15 minute visit to the vet, a shot of antibiotics, a shot of prednisone, and 50 dollars later, the swelling is down and she’s going to be fine. What this day has proved to me once again is that the nature of everything here is about surviving within our world/money system

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to take for granted what the nature of the animals within this world are showing us as the nature of the human in how the human takes instead of gives.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing a system of money that supports itself based upon the helplessness of injured animals in order for it to exist.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed a system that only cares for each other in sickness if one has money to pay for it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in thoughts, feelings and emotions as a weapon to survive within our world/money system.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to seek power over another within the purpose to fulfill the nature within me of/as greed.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed a system that breeds greed as the nature of who/ what the human has become as a mind consciousness system.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear for my future, where I utilized greed as a means of protecting myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use ego to fight to be right and thus fighting for my own limitation.

I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to realize that the very fears I fear manifest as actual experiences – not only in my own world but as all of humanity/nature and the animal kingdom as one together.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to support a system that controls people through debt and misery satisfying people’s desires only enough to support their beliefs that there is no other choice but to submit to a system of abuse through the control of human behaviour through our current money system.

I commit myself to supporting a system where the nature of life is one of giving and unconditional support for all living beings.

I commit myself to through writing, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application to support a system of equality to change the nature of the human to one which is supportive of a world according to what’s best for all – where fear of survival end.

I commit myself to the power within myself in self-honesty to choose to make a new expression of who I really am through re-defining myself in support of a system of equality where the only choice made within our world is according to what’s best for all.

I commit myself to supporting a world where nobody requires saving because life is about giving and being cared for according to what’s best for all.