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Day 155: Oh MY God, I’ve Lost it

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear/believe/participate in and as the thoughts: ‘Oh MY God, I’ve Lost it’ – six words that keep popping up within my mind following an image of me lowering my head and slightly rubbing my nose and pausing just as I’m sitting in front of the computer to write, where in that moment, I lose awareness of myself as breath and allowed myself to be distracted with the backchat in my head which caused me to reject myself, thus, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize how in that moment within me, I was rejecting myself within the starting point of self-interest and unknowingly (when I slow myself down I realize what I’m doing) I would hide within myself from me and ultimately manifest intense pain within my physical body in my upper back region.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize how I manipulate myself where I justify my stuckness as unimportant and act as my own bad referee where I basically sideline myself, isolate myself, and literally remove myself from being the directive principle in self-honesty of and as me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize how when I exist in and as resistance, my body language morphs into and as the resistance, where I cross my arms in defense and protection from others, and my right hand clutches my left hand,  basically, I hold a position of superiority while existing in and as inferiority, causing pain within my physical body, and lots of it, and secretly, I know within my mind that my physical body is showing me the tell-tale signs of my suppressed state, thus, I stop, I breathe. I commit myself to see, realize and understand that when I slow myself down I am able to move beyond the point of resistance and thus stop the thoughts of and as my mind as the words saying to me: ‘Oh MY God, I’ve Lost it’, because I see, realize and understand how the words are me and represent a point of acceptance of how in the past I’ve allowed myself to sink into and as a resistance which manifests and creates physical pain within and as my back, thus I commit myself to stop what I see, realize and understand is a point of resistance, a sort of blockage of emotions and feelings within and as my physical body,  I breathe, I earth myself here in becoming the directive principle of/as and for me in order to first change myself through self-honesty from the inside out to thus stop resistance, to thus begin to express myself as who I am, to give my all to me through gratefulness for and as all as one as equal.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to underestimate the amount of self suppression I have existed as, because I see, realize and understand how this Day 155, of me walking the Journey to Life , I realize that I am only now getting started, therefore, I commit myself to see, realize and understand both the magnitude and the simplicity of making the decision to continue writing and applying self-forgiveness and self-corrective application, because I comprehend how it is only through this Journey that I will ever come close to being who I am, as well as having the opportunity to possibly birth myself as Life from the Physical. I am grateful to/for me as my physical body for supporting me as I walk this Journey and support a World according to what’s best for All.

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Day 122: InSIDE Hide

Once in awhile I experience pain around my left side, stomach/groin area which feels kind of like a pulled muscle, but that’s not what it is. I asked Anu for perspective about a month ago and he suggested it was a point of hiding, which made a lot of sense to me. I never investigated the point further, mostly because the pain hadn’t returned. Then today, the pain returned with a vengence. As I began to experience the pain – still in the same area of my physical body – I saw my hiding and I realized that I have always been aware of this point that I exist as, IF/WHEN, I will slow myself down and breathe, and welcome me in from hiding as who I really am as me as my physical body.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hide within and as knowledge and information as energy within how I partipate within thoughts, internal conversations, reactions of and as emotions and feelings of/as positive, negative and the neutral of and as enegy experiences.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define myself as someone who is insidious’.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe in and thus hide within feelings of shame of existing within and as knowledge and information where I hide within what I’ve learned throughout my entire life, and within that how I allow guilt to accumulate from becoming that which I’ve learned to where I become consumed to the point where I elude any chance of ever becoming aquainted with myself, because as such, I’m escaping any understanding of myself within the perception of/as being that of a particular piece of knowledge and information and where within that I forbid myself to question the very nature of myself and thus my own answers elude me, thus, I forgive myself for not realizing how within my ‘insidious hideouts’, I manifest formations of guilt within and as a total memory/character recall of and as my mother – how I saw her reject her physical body in how she existed in hiding within and as fear as knowledge and information – where she would become so full of shame and guilt that she would punish her physical body through smoking and/or over eating – and how I have become and lived as that mind character of entrapment as well.

I forgive myself for not realizing how within the layers of my hide/flesh, I have remained unaware of how the very life substance is drained from me according to and through my participation within and as knowledge and information. Wherein every moment that I accept and allow myself to be and become separate from the words I speak of/as my mind as directed by consciousness within and as energies of/as reactions and feelings and emotions, how in that moment when I am more aware of a thought within my mind than I am of who I am within and as breath as my physical body, is the moment that I become accepting of myself as a system of/as abuse, greed, self-interest and death.

I forgive myself for not realizing that the inner mysteries of me as my physical body will continue to elude me until I slow down, breathe and become willing to commit myself to exploring and investigating myself from the inside out within self-honesty, no matter how ‘insidious’ who I am appears to be, for it is within my perception of ‘the ugly’ that I will release my perception of ‘the pretty’ – where the ‘insidious’ of and as that which I’ve come to accept as the perception of myself within and as self-interest exists only according to knowledge and information.

I forgive myself for not realizing that when I am hiding within program manifestations of and as knowlendge and information that I am actually accepting and allowing me as my physical body to form strings of tension wherein I am actually forming patterns of degenerations within my physical body where I’m not breathing effectively and thus I manifest damage within and unto my internal organs and flesh creating pain within and as my physical body/flesh and bone.

I forgive myself for not realizing the degree of fear I have with regards to facing myself in self-honesty because I have hidden within knowledge and information in/as shame and guilt and believed that I was that.


I forgive myself for not realizing that I fear my perception that if I were to become completely self-honest that others may not like me, instead of realizing that it is only myself that I am actually fearing disappointing.

I commit myself to comprehending that the DIS in APPOINT only exists within and as the pain in ignoring the Point of Self within Forgiving self in/as Self-honesty.

I commit myself to let go of and forgive who I am as knowledge and information.

I commit myself to not fear and shame that which I’ve accepted and allowed as who I am and to instead forgive and realign and redesign myself through self-corrective application.

I commit myself to STOP imprinting my Physical body and Physical reality with my mind according to knowledge and information.

I commit myself to get to know the details and specifics of my Human Physical body equal to and one with who I am as my Human Physical body.

I commit myself to embrace who I am as my Physical body within and as self-honesty.

I forgive myself for not realizing that the actual real rebirth of Self as Life, can and will only manifest within and as Self-honesty, from within and as my Physical body and from and of this Physical existence, Thus, I commit myself to realizing that the actual rebirth of self as Life can and will only manifest within and as Self-honesty from within and as me as my Physical body and from and of this Physical existence.

“I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that Firstly the Person in the Journey to Life must become Equal to the Mind through being able to Not Participate in the Thoughts that Arise ALL the Time, and Be Here Breathing – before the Task can be taken on to Remove the Programs in the Flesh to such a degree that eventually the Flesh will be Purified and the Person will become, in fact, the Living Flesh – and be able to Have Any Relationship or form in the Flesh without it Being the Dominant Control as Consciousness, and the Person will be in Fact the Dominion of the Flesh, with the Flesh itself Determining in Every Breath the Actuality of Life Directed, and Be Here as Life – and thus at the Death, the Person will Cross the Divide as Life and Be Everywhere as Here, Always. In this it must be Realized How Time and Flesh Functions and that the Process of First becoming Equal to the Mind and Flesh before Directive Life will be here as Self, as Principle, as Equal, will take a minimum of 7 Years of Daily Application IN EVERY Breath, but more Likely take 14 years due to the Many Times that the Directive Will will Fall to the Current Dominion of the Programs that were allowed to Become the Flesh as the Physical Mind.” ~ Bernard Poolman

Polish troops cleared of war crimes after NATO atrocity kills women, kids – Humans kill as if they’re playing a video game

Murder in the name of Money–War for Profit

 

"The [U.S.] drone-hits in Afghanistan and Iraq don’t see children; they don’t see anybody. They kill women, they kill children. They kill everybody."  The remote-controlled drones that are being guided, mostly by computers located at the far-away headquarters of the Central Intelligence Agency (CIA) in Langley, Va., are said to be the weapons of the future, say military analyst. 

Humans kill as if they’re playing a video game.  If we’re going to kill innocent women and children, shouldn’t we at least have to look them in the eye?   This is murder, and we’re accepting and allowing it so we’re murders to…

“Thus – the mind is the very ‘thing’ within each human being of thought, feeling and emotion – that has / is manifesting and designing the unified consciousness field – look at the world at what it has become as human beings of mind as thought, feeling and emotion: Innocent children being raped, molested and abused, starvation, poverty, war, murder, violence – the barbaric nature of man as mind currently manifesting as an actual experience – humanity reflecting the very nature of the mind they have accepted and allowed themselves to become.” Bernard Poolman

 

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Support All Life – From Birth ’til Death

Fatal stabbings and violent muggings and failure of the police and justice system is creating civil war conditions everywhere while people are forced to go hungry with the ongoing dollar crisis and hiked prices of basic goods and services.  Contradicting every promise their government made, where political freedom and human rights have been denied from day one,  where socially the people are neglected so badly it has led to the establishment of civil war conditions in every island community and economic communities in Maldives, and the people are being left in deprived states of famine. These are the conditions in Yemen which is similar to the conditions in Bahrain. 

There are so many who are struggling and suffering is everywhere within this world – and yet, most of us carry on watching our favorite television shows while enjoying our evening meal oblivious to the suffering of another.  It’s a very simple equation: When people are hungry and starving, they die.  So stop with all the politics and tell me, what are we going to do to assist these people?  What would you do if you were starving?  If you ask yourself how come anyone on planet earth, where the sun shines free for everyone, is starving to death – your answer will always be the same, because of money. The common sense solution is Equal Money for All – from Birth til Death.

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Raw Video: Yemeni Troops Kill Protesters

Willful Negligence of human life in the name of Money

Dozens of African migrants were left to die in the Mediterranean after a number of European military units apparently ignored their cries for help – two of the nine survivors claim this included a Nato ship.  The boat carrying 72 passengers, including several women and young children ran into trouble in late March after leaving Tripoli for the Italian island of Lampedusa. Despite alarms being raised with the Italian coastguard and the boat making contact with a military helicopter and a warship, no rescue effort was attempted.

All but 11 of those on board died from thirst and hunger after their vessel was left to drift in open waters for 16 days. "Every morning we would wake up and find more bodies, which we would leave for 24 hours and then throw overboard," said Abu Kurke, one of only nine survivors. "By the final days, we didn’t know ourselves … everyone was either praying, or dying." Link to full article: Aircraft carrier left us to die, say migrants

Libya

An overcrowded ship carrying up to 600 people on the 9th of May, 2011, trying to flee Libya, sank just outside the port of Tripoli, the U.N. refugee agency said Monday, citing witness accounts.  Witnesses who left the Libyan capital on another boat shortly afterward reported seeing remnants of the sunken ship and the bodies of some passengers floating in the sea, she told The Associated Press. Other witnesses saw passengers swimming to shore but it was unclear how many survived, according to the International Organization for Migration. Its staff on the tiny Italian island of Lampedusa interviewed a Somali woman who said she lost her four-month-old baby in the sinking. The woman swam to shore and managed to board another boat heading to Italy. Link to full article: Witnesses: Ship with 600 migrants sinks off Libya

The United Nations have reported that nearly 750,000 people have fled Libya.  It’s not clear what will become of these people who are struggling with the loss of everything they’ve ever known.  They don’t really have anywhere to go, no home, no food, nothing, and few barely notice.  I’ve heard and read plenty of people mention briefly, that the real reason for the situation in Libya is because of the countries oil.  But, the reality of these peoples lives are only briefly mentioned and there have been no solutions.  Libya produces about 1.6 million barrels per day of crude oil.  Few fail to mention the fact that the oil in Libya means Money for the governments involved. It’s also important to mention that Libya’s debt to the World Bank was less than one month of it’s GDP, and that was working capital. In addition to supporting his country, Gaddafi paid a social wage to every Libyan of working age the equivalent of $1000 a month, and it was up to them whether they worked or not and all education was paid for. So Gaddafi was putting money back into the community. Interesting the fact that he was Not in debt to the world bank.   Obviously there has been no consideration of human life, so the question to ask is, how much money is involved here and who is to gain? Investigate and you will discover the answer for yourself.

This is Willful Negligence of human life in the name of Money.  War does not determine who is right and/or wrong, it only determines who is left with the money.   When will we Stop accepting and allowing this?  How many more must suffer and die?   If this can happen to even one person on this earth, then this can happen to anyone anywhere, and it may be you and/or your family searching for a home, in a boat, out to sea, where no one cares, if you live or die…  Support the Solution – Support an Equal Money System. 

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"Give me the money that has been spent in wars, and I will clothe every man, woman, and child in an attire of which kings and queens will be proud.  I will build a schoolhouse in every valley over the whole earth.  I will crown every hillside with a place of worship consecrated to peace."  ~Charles Sumner