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How come we take life for granted?

‎The problem is, we’ve taken life for granted, as if it is suppose to be about work, struggle and survival. Since most of us have lived our perception of ‘seemingly’ surviving it – we ‘perceive’ that everyone must be having the same ‘opportunity’. When in fact, they’re not. It’s taken almost 4 years of research and re-educating myself (in how our current money, education, banking and governmental systems operate, where profit is always valued over life), for me to even begin to comprehend just how serious a situation all life is in.

There is truly not even a shred of opportunity for millions of living beings to even come close to ‘achieving’ what they are most certainly’capable’ of. To insist that there is opportunity for everybody, is simply a lack of education of the one insisting. Because the facts of how people are struggling, barely surviving from paycheck to paycheck and/or homeless and starving to death, is everywhere here to be seen. If one look at how we’ve accumulated ourselves up to now – it’s a mathematical certainty that we’ve not begun to see the worst of what will become of humanity – unless, we begin anew direction, with Equal Money.

When I ask only ‘myself’,’does every physical living being born here have the ‘right’ to food, clothes, clean water, a home, an education and healthcare’? It’s like, not only a ‘right’- it’s common sense, it’s a ‘given’and, is what is required if the physical being whose being born is to continue living. Everything else, is irrelevant, until the gift of Equality is given.

Equal Money will allow everyone to prove ‘for themselves’ just how capable they truly are.


I was in bed, naked with my partner, and he asked me to get up and turn on the light… I saw five main problems with his request:

1. I was naked. 2. I would have to get out from under the covers to turn on the light, thus exposing my nakedness. 3. Once the light was on he’d be able to ‘see’ me naked and exposed. 4. I was naked. 5. I was naked… I didn’t mind getting up to turn on the light, but, I was scared of exposure. Fear the exposure would cause him to stop loving me, wanting me and that maybe, he’d be ashamed of me…

How is it that I’m afraid to be seen naked with the lights on? It’s interesting that I’ve often feared exposing myself in speaking and writing. In writing we are essentially standing before ourself exposed/naked. Though – the flesh of our human physical body stimulates the sex systems of consciousness and it’s not surprising that many have similar fear, of being seen naked, by the opposite sex especially.

I’m quite certain my fear of naked is somehow motivated by money because, everything is. The sex and porn industry is a multibillion dollar business and everything and everyone is affected constantly by subliminal messages which are sex orientated through commercialism for instance, where sex is presented so subtly that one actually believe their experience was their idea and real when in fact we’re ‘acting’ on impulse. The fact that most of us don’t match up to the picture presentations that are impulsed have certainly provided us with more to ‘think’ and ‘judge’ about ourselves. This is Not about blaming because we are each equally responsible for what we’ve accepted and allowed and for how the current money system exists as.

Emmeline is my 18 month old granddaughter. She doesn’t yet grasp the nature of adulthood such as sexual urges and impulses. She so enjoys herself and, often she’ll shed off all of her clothes, her shoes and socks and then, she just runs through the house. She’ll stop and look and me as if to say, see, you can do it to. Yet, what would one say if they walked in to see me running naked through the house with her? Would they call it child abuse?

Backchat thoughts here that I remember myself saying: Get some clothes on! I’ve said those words in playful gesture to my own children, yet now am seeing how I was masking myself in my own self fear and self denial. A point of shame for reasons that I never even stopped to consider and/or question and in doing so am realizing the fear of ‘naked’, is Not real.

What is it like to walk through the woods naked, enjoying the air on my physical body. What is it like to run naked? I’ve skinny dipped a few times, but, I was drunk or close to it every time.

When I’m breathing – stopping all thought participation – I’m aware in common sense that my physical body is actually very elegant. It displays me as what I’ve accepted and allowed through habits, tastes, personalities, babies I’ve birthed, all of the choices and more I’ve made in my life. It is in those that I’ve scripted and molded and formed an opinion of myself and imposed them to settle upon and as my physical body which in separation causes suppression of guilt and shame. My physical body has paid the price for the sake of me participating in and as my mind, yet my physical body has never forsaken me, as it is here breathing for and as me equally as life.

We’ve taken away the essence of our natural birthed form of self as life. The physical breathing expression of ourselves, and we’ve draped it in opinions, ideas and judgments, ego and greed, and it has cost us our very life. I Stop. I Breathe. I Forgive Myself.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to clothe/mask my fear of self in denial, shaming myself for reasons that I never even stopped to consider and/or question.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed being ‘better than’ as the polarity opposite of ‘not good enough’ to exist within and as me as my physical body.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear walking through the house naked because I participated in thoughts in fear of being rejected when in fact I was the one rejecting me as my physical body in dishonesty as a manifestation of rejection walking. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to reject me as my physical body. I stop. I breathe.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to believe being naked is ‘bad’ without clear understanding of the polarity of ‘bad’ and ‘good’.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to disregard, get mad at, and take for granted me as my physical body according to seeing through the eyes of the mind consciousness system as being ‘better than’ because of accepted and allowed comparisons of seeing me through the eyes of other women and judging me as being better than and/or worse than.

I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to be comfortable with myself, naked, one as my physical body.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to change, shape and control me as my physical body through emotional symbolism and impulses.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to require money as a means of providing and proving myself to be more appealing so that I would be loved and desired by a potential mate.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use sex as a means of survival in our current money system causing me to feel guilt and shame to and towards me as my physical body.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear experiencing regret.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define self expression according to a picture of what a sexy beautiful woman is according to an accepted idea and/or opinion supported and intended by our current money system as a way of keeping myself in my mind separate from me as my physical body.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in judgment towards me as being better than my sister through seeing me through the eyes of my sister through comparison and then judging me as being better than her.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to forsake and separate me from me as my physical body as always pinpointing something about my naked physical body that I wished I could improve.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from my physical body because I wanted my ass to look tight and firm in a pair of jeans within the polarity of good and bad, positive and negative as I dreamed of looking like someone other than me as my physical body.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to force conditions of indulgence and/or lack upon my physical body because I feared who I thought I’d become if I did or didn’t do specific things, like diet.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not consider the effects my participation in drugs had on me as my physical body.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to support the current money system which accepts and allows abuse and death through the lack of money/ability for one to feed and provide for ones physical body.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to push my physical body to the limits in energetic pretense patterns according to how I ‘wished to experience myself’.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to neglect, avoid seeing, hearing, touching and being one with my physical body.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to through participation in memories, have repressed and impressed traumatic stresses upon my physical body.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give my power away to sex as a way of fulfilling a fantasy existent in thought patterns.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give my power away to desire, want and need for a relationship, even when I knew the relationship would cause harm to me as my physical body.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to engage in a relationship to be socially acceptable, loved and desired.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to require money as a means of providing and proving myself as more appealing as me as my physical body.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define sex as having to be shameful and secret instead of it being self expression as me.

I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to touch me, to feel me within and as oneness and equality as my human physical body.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define self power and self support according to relationship and sex.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear God would be ashamed of me for having sex instead of realizing that only I direct me in self-honesty in every moment as breath as who I am as the directive principle of me as my physical body as all as one as equal.

I see and I realize that I do Not fear being naked. In actuality, I fear the system, because I already know what the system is going to do/be and react as, because I am it. We as people design the systems and, we make the decisions and benefit and/or loose based on our decisions.

When our decisions are based upon what is best for all, then we’ll All Stand Naked as who we’ve accepted and allowed ourselves to be.

Then we’ll have the Answer and the Solution of an ‘Equal Money System’, the ‘Solution of Equality’. Finally, we’ll have an Answer and the Solution for the starving child as to why we allowed systems to abuse and enslave us to the point of allowing another living being to physically starve to death.

I accept me as my physical body. I accept all life as their physical bodies. I choose not to be ashamed. I choose to stand up and stop the systems of consciousness. I choose all life in dignity – over money. I choose an ‘Equal Money System’. I direct myself according to the ‘Principle of Equality’.

I direct me in self-honesty in and as my physical body breathing, naked.

Trees Dying in Human Boxes and on Bonfires – Will Stop with Equal Money

What is the practical purpose for ‘setting up a tree in the house’, decorating it, ‘buying presents’, ‘wrapping them’ and ‘gently placing them under the tree’, ‘to open’ at a later date’? The tree slowly dries out and dies in our boxed homes and often are then thrown together in a huge bonfire surrounded by humans watching after having been sacrificed in bizarre rituals.

The human exists directed according to their mind in bubbles, boxed in our own separate space as pre-programmed behavioral thought patterns, and pictured memory moments.And, as we’ve participated in them, we physically create and manifest the story of us. Seeking to birth experiences of ourself through energetic stimulation consisting in the highs and lows, and ups and downs, and positive and negative polarity of and as the mind.

Consciousness – where there’s a high, there’s a low, and we’ve all recognized this at some point if only for a split moment between the two. Our current monetary system reflects how the energetic managing of ourselves is consequentially manifesting in how profit/money is valued over life itself.

The rich and the poor, the king and the pauper, the stuffed and the starving, the employed and the unemployed, the pretty, the ugly, and the perfect gift vs the worst gift. All of which are polarities of positive vs negative, good and bad, right and wrong, and we believe our experience within it is real and it isn’t.We’ve educated, imagined and participated in and as it, which is how we continually create the polarity effects of highs and lows and in the process, we’ve missed a principled possibility – how to equalize all life in existence and in the process equalize our inner self.

An interesting and cool experiment where one can realize their pre-programmed self, is to, every day, sit and consider an Equal Money System. While saying and considering the following words below. If you sense a feeling like the inside of yourself as your stomach, just dropped like going down a steep hill – that’s energy and it’s fear related. There is Fear of the word/s meaning and/or association and definition of the word ‘Equality’.

The Ego thrives in greed and greed will diminish in an Equal Money system. So, that feeling in your tummy, that ‘fear’, is consciousness programming pulling you in so you’ll not see your responsibility within all that is here. Equality is Not a pre-programmed pattern of acceptance, thus the resistance.

Did you realize there is an application of self consisting of No energy and Stops inner turmoil = self-forgiveness and self-honesty.

Resistance to Equality and an Equal Money System are totally fraudulent and can be stopped.


    In self-honesty, sit every evening with yourself and think about and make a list of words with the world equal in them (I enjoy this the hour prior to going to bed), and imagine a world with Equal Money while reading the word list and *write down and investigate any thoughts or emotions and add words as is relative to individual process.

    For example some words to begin: coequal, coequalities, coequality, coequally, equal money, equal, equalises, equalising, equal money, equalitarian, equalitarianism, equalitarianisms, equalitarians, equalities, equal money, equalization, equalizations, equalize, equalized, equal money, equalizer, equalizers, equalizes, equalizing, equalled, equal money, equalling, equally, equality, equallife, equaldeath, equality, equalmoneysystem, equalmoney.org


…continuing with regards to: Trees Dying in Human Boxesand on Bonfires

One Example: Christmas

Trees literally allow us to be here. Yet, they are sacrificed in numerous ways.

Is such participation and actions assisting in contributing to ‘What’s Best for All’?

How does it serve the best interest for all in Equality, free of Energy?

Consider we’ve not yet experienced nor comprehend the value and’meaning’ of ‘what is best for all’, and havn’t the ability to answer those questions – except in self-honesty – free of energy. Because we’ve not yet lived it as an actual living accumulated application and expression of ourselves as who we really are as all as one as Equal.

Maybe it’s what human beings are for, the creation of meaning. When the consequence of our action is our reward (Love Thy Neighbor as Yourself), the Principle of Meaning will put ‘Equal Money’ to work as ‘Equality’ in action. We’ll be and become actions in play-as-our-work will always be according to what’s best for all.

With Equal Money, the human will become successfully effective in self-direction, recognizing their responsibility as able and willing to stand according to what’s best for all – free of life depleting energetic patterns.

We stop accepting polarity within our current money system and we’ll stop manifesting a living expression of life living definitions/meaning of and as ‘atrocity’.

Trees Dying in Human Boxes and on Bonfires – Will Stop with Equal Money


Game Theory

    Bernard Poolman reveals the Rules of the Game in our World and how we are all fully participating without being aware of it.

Game Theory

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My whole ‘life’ – I accepted life according to the fear of Not having enough money

    Age 25, moving out of the only home my 2 small children had ever known and divorcing after 8 years of a marriage that began when I was 16 – I had never known what being ‘single’ meant, much less the responsibility of being a single parent. There is little to no assistance from our current money system which is unsympathetic to the mistakes of anyone much less that of a 16 year old female drop-out turned 25 – with little to no educational training for how to survive in this world.

The systems we accept and allow in this world, for example, our educational system – is impractical and insensitive, leaving us uneducated, unprepared and fearful as human beings with no clear understanding of what it is to provide for ourself. The point of self-responsibility and self-trust is simply non-existent for those who don’t have money.

Those who have money pretend responsibility and use money as a face off for their pretense, but hell, if everybody had enough money to provide the basics needs for ourselves, then we can All ‘stop pretending’.

Self-responsibility has been avoided by us all. Because through self-interest, greed and ego we’ve competed against each other for a way of life that’s better than the best and we don’t really care to see beyond our accepted way of ‘thinking’. Thus we have lacked self-responsibility and clear comprehension of the fact that we are all responsible for how our world exists.

I’m now 53 and, I can honestly say that at 25, my ‘thoughts’ and my ‘actions’ as my ‘thoughts’, were that of lust and desire and the need to be taken care of by someone who was ‘willing’ because I was scared to death that I couldn’t afford to ‘make it on my own’.

Accepting that about myself is how I allowed my life to be as it has been. How is that? For 37 years, since I was 16, I’ve been single for only 1 year – I alone am responsible for my life because I contributed and supported our current capitalistic money system. And, I had it easy compared to the number of those who starve to death daily within our world.

    My whole ‘life’ – I accepted life according to the fear of Not having enough money. I’m going to write that again – I accepted ‘Life’ according to the ‘fear’ of Not having enough money. Yes, I worked many jobs making decent money but always living paycheck to paycheck. I feared for mine and my children’s survival and never considered until 4 years ago that there is a Solution.

When one is younger, we ‘think’ that to grow old will be cool because then we can relax and retire and stop the ‘wanting to please’ another syndrome – whether that be by ‘loosing weight’ and/or ‘looking sexy’, whatever one does to secure there survival.

Survival requires money, so to ‘please another’ really means ‘please don’t let them grow tired and want to leave me’. But, holy shit! The thoughts as one gets older, they don’t stop! Instead they are more frequent because of all the compounded suppression within ourselves through years of accepted fears, personalities, distractions and perversions, just downright self-dishonesty. As such, we’ve missed a crucial part of ourself, which is that of becoming aware of ourself and are actions as a self-responsible, self-trusting and life supporting human being.

    Four years ago – I stumbled upon the Desteni Universe material and began a process to stop my thoughts and direct me as my mind, and discovered that, ‘I can forgive myself’. If one will forgive themself then one is able to be inpeace with equality.

The tools offered through ‘Desteni I Process Self-development Course’, is a once in a lifetime opportunity to see for yourself who you are in self-honesty, self-responsibility and self-trust.

Self-responsibility and self-trust is practically living and supporting all of life on earth according to ‘what’s best for all’. This is a point that we each one are responsible for – to accumulate ourselves through walking and living Equality into being so we can fully comprehend the majesty in walking as all as one as equal.

Join us as we reshape and redesign ourselves from the inside out to bring forth a world where life will change because all life will be provided for first with Equal Money.

Guaranteed for everyone will be the basic requirements to exist in this world. Who will we be when every single one us are able to physically provide and care for ourselves? We’ll see…

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    I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to accept life any way it comes as long as I can find someone to take care of me so I won’t starve to death.

    I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed life to be a struggle day in and day out for all of life simply because I feared standing up and taking self-responsibility for myself and my actions of myself in self-honesty because I feared what others may ‘think’ about me – instead I see and understand that what I’ve really feared is what I will ‘think’ about me. I stop. I breathe. I stand and I walk for and as life until all living beings live life in dignity as equals.

FAQ: Equal Money is home of the 4 year career

Our current labor system is a system of survival – yet it is not a system that actually support life.

In an Equal Money System all living beings will be properly cared for. This includes food, water, a home, clothes, healthcare and an education. Another cool point with an Equal Money System is that it recognizes that life should be, and will be, more fun with Equal Money. Once all our basic needs are taken care of, we’ll be able to find something that we actually enjoy doing then actually be able to do it.

The jobs which are an important part of human survival, those that actually support life, will be placed within a 4 year conscription. What this means is that once one is through with their primary education then each will participate for no more than 4 years within a labor system to assist with those jobs that must be done to meet the basic requirements of keeping society moving and functioning practically, according to what’s best for all.

Each will learn and participate in becoming aware of what is involved in maintaining and preserving life within our physical reality on earth, where all will be able to experience dignity in living. We’ll begin to express ourselves in ways we’ve never known.

The fact that Equal Money is home of the 4 year career plan will be a welcomed change. A change that will stop rising prices and static incomes which are hitting people hard in all areas of our world. Capitalism within our current money system is forcing further cutbacks in what is already frugal to nothing lifestyles – which has meant years of work with only the ‘possibility of retiring‘, so that ‘maybe’, then, one can enjoy life.

Equal Money will bring about a World where All living beings are able to enjoy life because, Equal Money is home of the 4 year career. It’s a FAQ!

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Worth more in death than in life? You hold the key with Equal Money

Recently I was told how since my sister died a couple of months ago, that her 13 year old daughter has begun receiving government assistance through a monthly check. I assumed this was because of my sister being on disability.

I now find out, that no that’s not it, because she hadn’t been ‘approved’ for disability and, like the majority of us, she struggled daily to provide food for herself and her daughter. She had applied for many jobs but wasn’t able to find one and mostly our father was assisting her as often as possible. She was divorced and her daughter was living with her dad because honestly, he was able to better provide for her.

But Wait! Now that she’s dead, her daughter has become eligible for the government assistance, which is approximately 800 US dollars a month, and will until she’s no longer in school.

Sure it’s cool. Though it’s odd isn’t it – that we support a money system that will not support a living parent, until they’re dead. So, according to our current money system, by definition, my sister is able to support her child with life’s necessities better since she’s dead.

Obviously, one only have to look at our world to see that our current money system values money over life. And, why not, because after all, it’s the accepted way of slavery we’ve become accustomed and addicted to. There are so many children starving to death in this world and we’re struggling so much to make ends meet, that we’re not stopping to see how and what we’re supporting. The fact is, our current money system supports murder. And we support the capitalistic bullshit that continues as our current money system – so what are we going to do to stop it?

There is now a way that every child and every living being will be guaranteed the basic necessities, including an education and healthcare – that is with an Equal Money System.

The signs are here and we’re in overtime – stand up – stop supporting a money system that supports life only in death…

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Everyone’s Talking about it – Freedom Blogs

You have it in you to be the Answer to Your Life. Read how people just like you did it for themselves – to Motivate you to Realize yourself as Life. Freedom Blogs

Watch video here for details ——> Everyone’s Talking about it – Freedom Blogs

Will subsidies end for the ‘Rich and Famous’ in an Equal Money System?

Let’s look at an example of where millionaires in the United States receive about $30billion annually in government subsidies according to a report recently released. The 37-page report named,’Subsidies of the Rich and Famous” details government payments provided to individuals with an annual gross income of at least $1million.

“According to Wikipedia: A subsidy is assistance paid to a business or economic sector. Most subsidies are made by the government to producers or distributors in an industry to prevent the decline of that industry (e.g., as a result of continuous unprofitable operations) or an increase in the prices of its products or simply to encourage it to hire more labor (as in the case of a wage subsidy). Examples are subsidies to encourage the sale of exports; subsidies on some foods to keep down the cost of living, especially in urban areas; and subsidies to encourage the expansion of farm production and achieve self-reliance in food production.”

There are numerous fraudulent subsidies unevenly distributed that reach into the billions. However, looking at the example given in the recent report of how rock star Jon Bon Jovi, who’s net worth is estimated to be $75 Million, (who’s songs are about someone having a hard time, but rising above it), only paid $100 worth of property taxes in the last fiscal year because he uses his land to raise bees – because of this, he receives government subsidies.

Having that kind of money certainly rises one ‘above it’ – the ‘it’, is extremely relevant when referring to the millions of people who are in deep shit, struggling and suffering and many not surviving – while the rich stroke each other’s ego’s with much help from us – who accept and allow it.

Bruce Springsteen, who’s net worth is estimated at $200 million got money back for leasing land to an organic farmer. The report goes on and on and all of the subsidies come through unemployment checks, Social Security payments, and numerous tax credits. The report notes that in tax year 2009, nearly 1,500 millionaires paid no federal income tax. There are also tax write-offs for gambling losses, vacation homes, and luxury yachts to subsidies for their ranches and estates.

Simply put, the government is subsidizing the lifestyles of the rich and famous! What’s insane is how we observe the lifestyles of the rich and famous – all the millionaires and billionaires for that matter, and yet, we continue to support them. There is a real solution that will bring an end to the insanity. The solution is Equal Money and one that must be thoroughly investigated by everyone of us.

In an Equal Money System – all subsidies will end for the ‘Rich and Famous’ and all of the hypocrisy surrounding the distribution of subsidies will end. Equal distribution with Equal Money will assure that the basic needs of everybody is secured and distributed according to what’s best for all. People will begin to redefine themselves and their life outside the framework of enslavement to one that is self-responsible and supportive of all life.

Every living being will have their basic needs met including education and healthcare to support themselves to have a dignified life. And, one they are able to manage responsibly according to what’s best for all.

We will no longer be servants of the few who hold a title according to how much money they have. Instead we will each become a guardian of life – one that protects and preserves life providing the resources and management required to support a system/network of Equality for and as all LIfe into eternity.

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Complete article: ‘Subsidies of the Rich and Famous”

Special Feelings


“This ‘Feeling’ you become aware of quite early on in Life,

and once it starts to ‘show’ it tends-to ‘overpower’ everything you do in your ‘Search’,

your ‘Seeking’ for ‘Reason and Purpose’, your seeking for the place ‘where you belong’ in this Reality – once you have or you are within that point obviously it’s going-to ‘fuck with you’ in quite a various number of ways.

If you dare to be Self-Honest within the Observation of the ‘Levels of Comparison’ that you ‘move-through’ as you are searching for this ‘Feeling’ that you ‘believe’ is ‘you’,

you’ll notice a peculiar thing that the tendency of this ‘Feeling’ is: to ‘Isolate’-you or ‘Pin-point’-you, or ‘Direct’-you more and more to a singularity, a ‘singular-position’ where you feel your ‘Position’ in this Reality as ‘fully-defensible’ – you can ‘defend yourself’ in all-ways and you are satisfied with your ‘position’ and ‘nobody can move you’ and you’ll ‘stick’ with-that ‘Until Death do you part’ from this Reality.

This is also even embedded within the Contract of Marriage in terms of ‘Death do you part’ within that Construct – so how does it ‘Operate’?”

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                                                        By Bernard Poolman


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