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Day 270: How to Stop being at odds with myself

You know that moment when you’re driving somewhere unfamiliar, and you’re looking and driving and looking for the correct street, then suddenly you convince yourself you’re going in the wrong direction so you turn around, then, you find out later that you turned right before you would have gotten to the place you were looking for? That’s how I would describe what it felt like within myself when I referred to myself as being ‘at odds with myself’. It’s like my wants were in conflict with my needs, and it’s a point that opened up as a memory was triggered of a very emotional and very dark time in my life.

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So as I’ve investigated the point further, I realized my inner war has been in my relationship between life  and death and/or right and wrong and in relationship to any and ALL  positive and negative energetic experiences.

Seeking energy is a problem that keeps me going within my fear of death – which has always been creeping forth from within me – even when I didn’t realize that the very world/money system that I live in, and that I have supported, is in fact deciding my choices for me through my fear of survival.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make decisions according to emotions and feelings and/or the negative vs the positive where through and as negative energetic reactions of/as hope, faith and fear of survival, I sought my desires and accepted and allowed a positive energy/ego experience, paying no attention to the consequences that doing so created.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand how having to depend upon another for my survival not only compounds and manifests more fear, it also supports internal conflict, which unfortunately determines how I will function and respond to others within and as my world/reality.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to avoid facing the fears that exist within me and instead allowed myself to be lead down the same path of self destruction over and over within a vicious cycle of self defeating behaviours within the mind-set of right vs wrong.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to struggle with internal conflict, where I secretly disagree or quarrel with myself and then deliberately focus my blame on the externalities of my world as being the reason for why things keep going wrong in my life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make up my mind through assumption, which is self deception, and for how I put myself in a position where I’m lying just to save face and / or to deliberately harm or deceive/manipulate others to think thoughts that I know will have consequences – where a person cannot self realize, and/ or to say or act in revenge and/or jealousy.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to chase a dream that I created in my mind through advertisements and television that fuel a desired experience of ego, where in self interest I seek to fulfill my own wants, needs and desires which ultimately keeps me enslaved and trapped within and as them chasing energy as imagined dreams.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I carry some dark energy / memory of myself within my mind that governs/directs me according to my past experiences, and determines my future whether through deliberate choice or self automation.

When and as I see myself experiencing myself within a negative energetic experience that presents itself within emotions of faith, hope and fear, I stop.  I Breathe.  I Direct myself to investigate the motive behind the desire to replace the negative with a positive and to see, realize and understand that self trust and self change come when one stop one’s ego-mind-energy.

I commit myself to stop running from myself and Face who I am as a negative energetic experience so to forgive myself for chasing the dream of ‘if only’.

I commit myself to not make up my mind through assumption and to instead have responsibility towards myself and others as myself according to what’s best for all.

I commit myself to getting to know who I really am and to see, realize and understand that dreams and desires cannot be sustained as they exist of energy which inevitably come to an end – where I’m left with nothing – as the nothing the dreams and desires consisted of and existed as, because they exist of/as energy and aren’t real to begin with.

I commit myself to assist and support myself to change the definition of Life and Death to one that is supportive of All Life – from the beginning of one’s Life until death according to what’s best for all.

For Further Clarity, Please download:  Life Angel and Death Devil – Life Review

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“We are in a Society where our Community is Designed by Our Communication, being mostly TOLD WHAT we should ACCEPT as Real and What Not.

Communication like Television, Movies, Magazines, Newspapers and fraudulently conjured up Academic Textbooks to make the Lecturers some Money (See the College Conspiracy Documentary) – All in the Name of the Ultimate Communication, which is “Happiness Consumption”.

The Communication BEHIND All this, is that you’ll be Unhappy, if you do not do your Best to be a Success in Society and make Lots of MONEY to “Live the Dream”, being communicated, nowadays, through Visual and Sound – combined Visions that Tell you what Dream you should Aspire to.” Bernard Poolman

Day 164: After Death Communication – Part 13

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Day 119: What Imprisons You?

Ranchers lose hope drought aid will come in time

This years drought is having a devastating effect on farmers and ranchers who are now unfortunately having to depend upon hope to receive government assistance.

As I was reading the comments below the article, I realized once again how the ‘little guy’, ‘the enslaved’ – that’s the majority of us – attack each other, instead of supporting each other.
Sure, there are a few who send their ‘prayers‘ and ‘well wishes’ but that’s all worthless comments by the ‘I’ll pretend to care’ characters.

One guy wrote: “Get rid of foodstamps and welfare and if they don’t get a job,let them starve to death.”

Has this guy been living under a rock? There are a limited number of jobs to be had!

That’s just like the enslaved isn’t it? We’d rather turn on each other and hope that we’ll never require assistance. Instead of realizing the common sense of coming together as a group in support of a world/money system that will support everybody according to what’s best for All.

Let’s get real, at this rate, any one of us could be out of a job at any moment. Hell, the majority of us, are two paychecks lost away from poverty and homelessness. And the price of food is so high that we’re barely able to buy groceries after bills and rent. We’re in a mess and WE, Together have/are the Solution.

Ask yourself – WHEN, Why and How come we’ve decided that the Systems of this World “shouldn’t” provide the necessities of Life for the People? Come ON!

WE Are The People – WE DECIDE!


Look how odd it is that the few who are filthy rich continue to get richer while the majority of us just keep beating each other up because, well, we’re just to damn greedy, needy, and plum ignorant.

A guy from Milwaukee, Wisconsin wrote:
“Tough sh$t for these farmers. The last 5 years when you were greedy pigs you never gave 1 thought about helping others. The government should do nothing. The government didn’t bail out my construction company when the housing industry dried up. I did with less and survived
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WTF? No wonder we’re all so enslaved. We’ve not realized what the hell is going on because we’re so busy existing in spite in the fight to out-survive our Neighbor.

How come we haven’t considered that our entire existence is what it is because of who we are within and as it?

Who, How, and What determines who you are Inside Yourself? Within the darkest Secrets of your Mind?

Look at the words we use as ammunition against each other – that’s where the evidence of ourselves lie.
It’s time to shut-up, breathe, and look in the mirror.

Ask Yourself: What Imprisons You?

Answer that for yourself in Self-Honesty.

Write it down. Look at it.

Forgive Yourself.

Stand up as that which you are capable of being, which is Life – NOT Enslavement

Stand as a Group in Support of your fellow Neighbors – who are merely reflections of yourself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to abuse my neighbor in spite and hate because within myself I am scared to death for my own survival and within that I forgive myself that I never considered that I Don’t have to fight for my Right to Life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to race so hard to get ahead in this world that I didn’t realize how we’re all in the same boat and our boat is sinking while the rich are living in luxury cruise lines.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to wish failure on my neighbor in order to fulfill a need to believe in myself – when in-fact, I’ve never stopped to consider that the rich and famous can only be rich and famous because of how the poor and infamous continue to accept and allow it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist in/as anger within greed in the belief that I deserve to have more than my neighbor who’s just trying to survive just like me.

I forgive myself for not realizing how my anger and resentment to/towards others is fueled within fear of having to exist within and as the blood, sweat and tears of towing the same line with the same burdens of money as those who’ve walked here before me.

I forgive myself for not realizing that turning against my neighbor is the same as turning against myself and in doing so I am accepting and allowing both our enslavement to continue.

I forgive myself for not realizing how within self-interest, greed and ego through and as my mind as consciousness in/as inner acts against my neighbor, I failed to see, realize and understand how I’ve neglected that which supports me as life as that of/as me as my Physical Body and our Physical Earth.

I forgive myself for not realizing that I don’t have to fight for my Right to Life when I stand together hand in hand with my Neighbor and come together as a Group in support of a world/money system which supports All Life according to what’s best for All.

I commit myself to in self-honesty forgive that which I’ve accepted and allowed in fear to imprison me.

I commit myself to stop blaming and attacking my Neighbor through words in fear and anger and instead I commit myself to Walk this Life with/as my Neighbor together in support of a world/money system according to what’s best for All.

I commit myself to show how Neighbors can/will come together as a Group all over the World to support an Equal Money System to manifest Heaven on Earth.

I commit myself to Support All Life in Giving to others that which I wish to receive.

I commit myself to support a world/money system where homelessness no longer exists, where the basic necessities such as sanitation, clean water and adequate shelter are provided for All Life Equally.

I commit myself to Stop judgment of my Neighbor and to instead offer to walk in their shoes in order to understand our Common Ground.

I commit myself to supporting a world/money system where our living experience manifests as one which will sustain our fulfillment and happiness within a Quality of Happiness built within the Foundation of Supporting a World according to what’s best for All.

I commit myself to life in support of/as me as my Physical body and our Physical Reality in showing how an Equal Money System is the ONLY Solution that will Support that which is REAL as that which we Require to Exist Here – Our Physical bodies and Our Physical Reality.

I commit myself to assist my Neighbors in stopping the Enslavement to Money of/as Humanity by Standing as a Group in support of an Equal Money System.

I commit myself to never stop assisting my Neighbor to hear, see, realize and understand how nobody has to live life struggling every day in the race to survive when it only requires One Man, One Vote for Equal Money to thus manifest Heaven on Earth.