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Day 71: Forgiving my Tendon-Sees

I’ve been experiencing pain in the tendons of my left ankle and leg and have realized the pattern as living in the past as that of participating in/as thoughts and feelings where through comparison I’ve sought approval and attention, thus, I’m grateful for the assistance from my physical body which assisted me in seeing and facing what I was accepting and allowing. Thus, the following self-forgiveness.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist within and as the tendonSees of my past actions of myself in how I seek approval from others to validate me as the stress and tension I am actually existing as within.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself in/as fear to suppress my self-expression from beginning as a small child for the sake of receiving from others attention and approval.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself in/as comparison to seek attention and approval for the sake of entertaining me as my mind as consciousness.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to manipulate myself into feeling the need to be approved as if I’m a piece of merchandise about to be stocked for sale within our current world/money system.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist in/as a seeker of attention which is nothing more than that which my mind approves of and for me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to in/as self-manipulation participated in thoughts that are only slightly updated from the ones I participated in when I was 5 years old and seeking attention and approval also.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself in/as my tendencies to not see/realize and understand how all I’ve ever done is compete with me for approval and attention from me as my mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself in/as tendencies/patterns to not see/realize and understand how I’ve circled around and around the same patterns which are consistent with the same thoughts of desiring to receive attention – where only the pictures have changed/updated, but the programming of me as my mind is the same as it’s always been – where it never matters who or where I receive attention from, because it’s never enough, because it is Me I’m looking for as the attention I desire from me as me in self-honesty.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself in/as tendencies/patterns to remain in polarity by dividing myself into compartments within myself – whereas I compare myself to others, Not seeing/realizing and understanding my TendonSees in how I’m only competing with myself as my mind as consciousness to receive myself as charged in/as energy in/as my own attention and approval.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself in/as tendencies/patterns to feel guilty for comparing myself to others within my attempt to seek approval and attention, not seeing/realizing and understanding that I’ve been walking a continuous mind construct of/as consciousness which I began when I was a child seeking approval and attention from my parents, how ultimately, there is Not enough approval and attention to fill what I am actually requiring to gift to myself, which is me in self-honesty, according to what’s best for all,.

I commit myself to purifying me as the word comparison and releasing me from competing within and as my mind as consciousness through self-corrective application in/as the directive principle of me as my mind according to what’s best for All.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself in/as habitual tendencies/patterns to seek for attention and approval from others because I’ve not been willing to give to myself that which I seek to receive.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to in/as tendencies/patterns to Not see/realize and understand that when I become willing to give to myself that which I seek to receive is when I’ll be willing to give to All living beings freely that which All seek to receive, which is the ability of living a quality of life in loving self as life unconditionally, free from the restraints of and as our current world/money system.

When and as I see myself existing within the pattern of seeking approval and attention from outside myself, I stop.
I breathe in what I see/realize and understand in this moment – that I have fought this same point within my mind as consciousness long enough and I have proved to myself that I am only ever competing with myself within my mind as my thoughts, feelings and emotions and, that I have made the decision to Stop and Direct me according to what is real and what matters, which is supporting a world/money system according to what’s best for all, where All living beings will be able to unconditionally receive the assistance required to support our physical body and our physical reality, thus, we’ll begin to explore ourselves and each other as real self-expressions as who we really are, together here as Life.

I commit myself to stop the Tendons- I-See of/as me as comparison and in/as seeking attention and approval and instead, I support me as the Tendons-of-me as my physical body in/as support within and as this physical reality, through Standing up and Supporting a way of Life where All living beings are provided for according to what’s best for All.

Day 60: Mirror Mirror lies of me

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that my relationships have been reflecting patterns of the lies I tell myself on the inside thus bringing to life the parts of me that I’ve chosen to ignore and/or disown because I fear facing the lies I’ve allowed myself to tell myself according to the direction of me as my mind as consciousness.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see/realize and understand that any and all abuse within my relationships is actually all the lies I’ve lived as me mirroring me from the inside out and is according to that which I fear revealing as who and what I’ve accepted and allowed myself to be and become of/as what lies beneath the layers of/as me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to point the finger to/towards my partner as him being the reason for my habits and/or behaviors through and how I have lied to and lived denial as myself as I reached outside of myself for that which I craved from myself.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame my partner as controlling my behavior when in fact my perception of being controlled is coming from within myself not from someone outside of me simply because I’ve lied to and don’t like the girl I see as me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to teach myself throughout my childhood that the only way to have a relationship with another is to give up parts of myself so I lied in waiting for myself not seeing that I’m only adding fuel to the fire in my own game of self-victimization.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to lie my way out of seeing who I really am as the one who’s standing right in front of me waiting for me to stop judging myself and to instead forgive myself for forsaking me in and as polarity games of love and hate, right and wrong, and positive and negative energetic equations where there is no one winning only death in waiting.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to play the biggest lie of all in the game of money where the ‘stakes are high’ in attempting to buy my way to unconditional love – instead of realizing that money is the set up for and as the lie that keeps us on the marriage-go-round.

Proverbs 1:11: They may say, “Come and join us. Let’s hide and kill someone! Just for fun, let’s ambush the innocent.”

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to live and become the words written by man even as I lied to myself that I’m better than that, when in fact I am equally responsible for the countless acts of abuse that have been imposed on the poor and innocent within our world while I saw in the mirror only what I as my mind as consciousness wanted to see.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to lie to myself to such a degree that I’ve not yet understood the depths of my own self-betrayal so much so that I’ve not realized that in my own self-neglect I’ve neglected to see what I’m accepting and allowing as the abuse that is running rampant in and as the hearts of man as we sit and watch and allow children to go homeless and starve to death daily.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to exist as the lie in families who believe their bloodline deserve to have All the Money yet care not for those that suffer and have absolutely nothing.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be so engulfed in self-interest and greed that I wouldn’t see how I lied and manipulated myself into believing that I was a ‘good person’ not realizing how that was my biggest lie of all because in my belief of being a ‘good person‘ was the beLIEf that I deserved to have and be more than others and never considered those who are existing in the Reality of our World which is, if you don’t have money, you get to die because those who have money and see themselves as a ‘good person’, don’t really give a shit.

I stop. I Breathe. I take self-responsibility for what I‘ve accepted and allowed as how our World exist, and I commit myself to supporting a world/money system which does away with good and bad, right/wrong and positive and negative polarities, and instead supports ALL Living beings according to what’s best for All.

I commit myself to face all of me no matter how painful I perceive it to be in seeing myself within all that is here.

I commit myself to show that our Reality is not pretty pictures and free vacations but is in fact hell on earth daily for millions and that to Not see how we’re All Equally responsible to bring an end to abuse and suffering is to be existing as a slave of and as the CON of Consciousness.

Please READ the Following:

The Deal with the Devil: DAY 40
Adam and Eve: DAY 51

Day 49: The Quantum Flesh
Day 63: Pinky and the Brain