Last night, we watched the movie Haywire, which is about a highly trained operative who works for a government security contractor in the dirtiest, most dangerous corners of the world. While I wouldn’t recommend the movie – the violence in it assisted me in that it triggered thoughts and pictures from within my secret mind and for that I’m grateful as it’s an opportunity to apply self-forgiveness.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear the thoughts and pictures within my secret mind triggered through watching a violent fight scene in a movie where for a moment I feared what if I become the show within my mind and thinking in the illusion of horror that I wasn’t previously aware of as a part of me that I at some point accepted and allowed to be me.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to sink in self-doubt and shame within my awareness of myself as my secret mind.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to question my abilities and effectiveness in supporting life when I see/realize and understand that who I have accepted and allowed myself to be as consciousness will take time in walking out of – I re-commit myself to myself within the gentleness of self-forgiveness.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be controlled by my mind as consciousness where I actually feared thoughts and pictures within my mind as if they can actually control me without me first giving myself permission to be and exist as them.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist in an illusory world according to feelings and emotions as if they are real when I’ve proved for myself time and time again that they are the illusion that sucks the life out of me as my physical body.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to disregard the role that violent movies and video games play to further armor and fuel the mind with ammunition to direct the human unaware of how the mind as consciousness will create self as it, if accepted and allowed, thus we continue to project and manifest evil as is already here in living color for us to see through the examples of murder, rape and starvation within and as our world.
I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see what we’ve been showing for ourselves to see as who we are through television shows, movies, newspapers, video games and a countless number of wars, all representative of greed and ego, for as long as any of us here have been walking this earth as, and yet in our quest to compare, compete and win, we have failed to recognize the evils we unveil upon ourselves and our reality in our unwillingness to walk in the shoes of another.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to Not consider the external factors such as parenting, education, television, consumerism, religion, and video games and the role they have in forming the personalities within our mind which we keep in secret to such an extent that when crimes are suddenly committed against another with no explanation and/or previous warning we sit in a silent stutter as if we’re not equally responsible when in fact we are All Equally responsible for what is here.
I commit myself to stop taking for granted the breath I breathe and to face me within all that is here in becoming a living example of self-responsibility in supporting a world according to what’s best for All.
“I commit myself to show that the game theory taught to the child through fairy tales, comic books, television, religion, education, family values, consumerism, and all systems that now exist in the world, in fact only shape the Graven Image of self-interest that ends with death as it is not in fact real.” Bernard Poolman
For Further Perspective: Read:
The Invisible Invincible Mind