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Day 43: ‘Don’t Pretend You Know Me’

Here forgiving five words of a sentence that I’ve used as a weapon to/towards others through the fear of facing what I actually knew about myself, but feared facing the details of as my mind and what that exist of.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to pretend that I know who I am within the fear of my own self-honesty.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the very nature of who I’ve existed as to be lived in pretending.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to sentence myself and others to a corrupt world/money system through pretending to support and care about life, when in fact, everything that exists within our world has been a revolving lie around money.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe the deception in pretending that there is no need for change.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to deceive others because I’ve been willing to deceive myself through pretending.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use the words, ‘don’t pretend you know me’ as a weapon against others similar to holding up a shield and a sword and going into battle, only suddenly realizing what you’ve deliberately hidden from yourself in that the only real battle field exists only within one’s own mind.

I forgive myself for accepting myself as a child to allow myself to practice pretending until I manifested myself as a living definition within a state of pre=tense which became a life long practice/pattern of who/what/when and how I’ve existed as.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be incapable of responding in self-honesty to/towards and within my relationships because I’ve allowed me as ego/character to stand in as me as I pretended to be someone/something where the behaviours of myself were within a belief system that fit in with societies expectation system.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use the words ‘don’t pretend you know me’ as a Weap-on of excuse to blame others for how I experienced myself instead of facing the guilt I felt about how I treated them as I walked the path of self-righteousness.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to enjoy saying the words, ‘don’t pretend you know me’, which was actually in-SINcere behaviour intended to give others an appearance of myself as having a greater importance in life than them.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to pretend to be what others wanted me to be by manipulating them through words to boost their ego as I secretly expected them to create a similar experience for me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to lie, cheat, steal and bargain with others using money as a means of maintaining the pretending/feeling of importance within myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to pretend to be the friend I thought was required in order to maintain a relationship when in reality, it’s not possible for anyone to actually know me because I’ve never actually known who I am.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use and abuse words living them in self-dishonesty.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the me I pretended to be was an act of self-dishonesty in an attempt to receive validation for me as ego.

Artwork By Adam Closs

I commit myself to stop hiding and pretending and accepting anything less than who I really am in self-honesty.

I commit myself to embracing me in self-honesty and taking full responsibility for what is here existing as our world manifested as who we as a humanity have existed as within, and thus, I commit myself to supporting and creating a world/money system which values life according to what’s best for all where life is expressed free from pretending.

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EARTH’S JOURNEY TO LIFE – Day 12: Redefining Words (Part 9) – Self Forgiveness statements on redefining words

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CREATION’S JOURNEY TO LIFE – Day 46: TRUST ME!

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Day 29: Triggering the Secret Mind

Last night, we watched the movie Haywire, which is about a highly trained operative who works for a government security contractor in the dirtiest, most dangerous corners of the world. While I wouldn’t recommend the movie – the violence in it assisted me in that it triggered thoughts and pictures from within my secret mind and for that I’m grateful as it’s an opportunity to apply self-forgiveness.

Art By: Scott Cook

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give my power away to the mind as consciousness where evil lives in the mind as the human.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear the thoughts and pictures within my secret mind triggered through watching a violent fight scene in a movie where for a moment I feared what if I become the show within my mind and thinking in the illusion of horror that I wasn’t previously aware of as a part of me that I at some point accepted and allowed to be me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to sink in self-doubt and shame within my awareness of myself as my secret mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to question my abilities and effectiveness in supporting life when I see/realize and understand that who I have accepted and allowed myself to be as consciousness will take time in walking out of – I re-commit myself to myself within the gentleness of self-forgiveness.

Art By: Marlen Vargas Del Razo

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be controlled by my mind as consciousness where I actually feared thoughts and pictures within my mind as if they can actually control me without me first giving myself permission to be and exist as them.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist in an illusory world according to feelings and emotions as if they are real when I’ve proved for myself time and time again that they are the illusion that sucks the life out of me as my physical body.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to disregard the role that violent movies and video games play to further armor and fuel the mind with ammunition to direct the human unaware of how the mind as consciousness will create self as it, if accepted and allowed, thus we continue to project and manifest evil as is already here in living color for us to see through the examples of murder, rape and starvation within and as our world.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see what we’ve been showing for ourselves to see as who we are through television shows, movies, newspapers, video games and a countless number of wars, all representative of greed and ego, for as long as any of us here have been walking this earth as, and yet in our quest to compare, compete and win, we have failed to recognize the evils we unveil upon ourselves and our reality in our unwillingness to walk in the shoes of another.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to Not consider the external factors such as parenting, education, television, consumerism, religion, and video games and the role they have in forming the personalities within our mind which we keep in secret to such an extent that when crimes are suddenly committed against another with no explanation and/or previous warning we sit in a silent stutter as if we’re not equally responsible when in fact we are All Equally responsible for what is here.

I commit myself to stop taking for granted the breath I breathe and to face me within all that is here in becoming a living example of self-responsibility in supporting a world according to what’s best for All.

“I commit myself to show that the game theory taught to the child through fairy tales, comic books, television, religion, education, family values, consumerism, and all systems that now exist in the world, in fact only shape the Graven Image of self-interest that ends with death as it is not in fact real.” Bernard Poolman

For Further Perspective: Read:
The Invisible Invincible Mind