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Day 153: Fear Me Not

I’m facing some changes in my life and within them have become very aware of how it’s in the smallest details that I face my biggest fear in asking myself, am I willing, and can I stop my fear of change, to thus change myself from the inside out, where the result is me standing for eternity, in support of and for a World according to what’s best for All.  Thus, beginning here with the following self-forgiveness.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to deny that I fear change.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that when I fear change I am in fact in fear of me as who I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel outta control at the idea of a sudden change in my life such as the death of a family member or having to move from where I live.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize how I have utilized the words ‘out of control’ as a definition of self that keeps me stuck within a place of suppression within myself where I have believed that I’m not strong enough to make it if my life were to suddenly dramatically change.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to associate change with losing something and or someone.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear that if I change, where I stop the characters and personalities that I’ve become aware of in who and how I play out the desires of my mind, that I will upset and/or lose those closest to me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed fear of change to stop me from taking any action at all which would result in me establishing self-trust.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to associate change as something that will cause me mental discomfort and/or physical pain.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see change as a point of discontent within an image in my mind where I experience a sense of losing my possessions.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to depend upon the same routine day after day where within my mind the daily routine locks me into continuing the perception of me as my mind as being in control.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to tell stories to myself within my mind in order to make myself continue existing in the belief that I fear change.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become frustrated with my children as a fear reaction when I see that they are about to enforce a change within their lives that I see will affect mine.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I have created a protection and defense mechanism within my mind against change in that when change comes up within my mind, I see how I relate who I am toward people and my environment within a definition of myself that appears to be a safe place of knowing who I am, yet is in fact not so because within me as my mind I exist in reference to and relate myself to that someone and/or my environment remaining the same in order for me to know who I am.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that if who I am is dependent upon another person and/or my environment to stay a certain way for me to know who I am, then who I have believed myself to be is not and has never been real.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that to fear change is to fear embracing who I am as life within and as my physical body and my physical reality, outside of and free from the direction of and as my mind.

When and as I see myself begin to fear what I see is going to result in a change within my world, I stop, I breathe.  Instead I direct myself to see, realize and understand that when change in self is required where self-honesty is applied within a principle according to what’s best for all, there is nothing to fear thus, I commit myself to stop going into an automated state of fear and to realize that life is in awareness of self as breath in every moment.

I commit myself to walk in and as the redefinition of self as the words ‘out of control’, where  I direct myself to be in control in determining who I am in self-honesty,  wherein I am stopping who I’ve been as my mind as consciousness because I see, realize and understand that it is I who decides who I am in control of me as my physical body as one who is strong and consistent in bringing forth a world according to what’s best for all.

I commit myself to show that who I am within and as change is to have a clear awareness of myself and my world in being able to assess in common sense what is best for all within any given moment and as such to realize the importance of supporting an Equal Money system as a means of supporting all life according to what’s best for all.

 

Don’t Be Afraid

Artwork by: Marlen Vargas Del Razo

Don’t be afraid to question what you’ve been raised to believe in, and understand that no one, not even your parents have the right to demand your acceptance of that which you’ve not yet come to realise is worthy of questioning – which is absolutely everything that is here.

2012 – The Year of Stopping Fear


Self-forgiveness and Self-Corrective statements to direct myself in stopping fear related to the following topics/childhood and adult fears/videos which I shared on You tube with regards to fear week.

Childhood Fear of seeing white looking figures walking in my room at night

i forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to accumulate who I am through and as a childhood fear where I would see and fear white looking figures walking toward me in my room at night and where I believed them to be an alien or the spirit of a dead person coming to cause me or my family harm.

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to fear the dark because I believed what I was seeing was real instead of realizing that my mind was directing me through emotions of loneliness that I participated in and as until I began to manifest visions at night that I then kept alive through the very fear that created them.

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to harbor anger towards my parents when they couldn’t see the white figures in my room that I believed I saw and so therefore they did not believe me or have patience with me when I told them about the white ghosts in my room at night.

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to use the white ghostly figures of my minds imagination as a way of getting attention from my parents.

I see and I realize that the fear I experienced as a child was me as my mind directing and manipulating in order to create a reason for my parents to show me attention and I no longer accept or allow myself to exist as such and instead I stop, I breathe and I direct me here according to a principle of equality for and as all life.

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Fear for my childs future

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear for the lives of my children within our world where the price of living is increasing daily.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to worry if my children will be able to afford to feed themselves in our world where money is valued over life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear what the world will be like when my grandchildren grow up and will they be able to provide themselves with a home and food or will they end up homeless because of our abusive money system.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to become angry at how we take life for granted and where we look past the suffering of others.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed emotions and feelings to direct who I’ve been where I’ve overlooked how corrupt our current money system is.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed others to suffer while I indulged in frivolous nonsense.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the abuse of our current money system instead of standing up sooner and educating myself in how our world economic system functions.

When and as I see myself fearing for my children and/or my grandchildren’s future, I stop, I breathe and I direct myself here to stand up in support of an Equal Money System which is the solution that will give all life a chance to live in dignity.

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Childhood Fear of the nickname Spot

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to be hateful and resentful to those who called me names when I was young and in grade school.

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to fear those who called me names in school.

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to react in spite towards those who called me names which further instigated their name calling.

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to blame and deny taking responsibility for how my life was and is because I alone am responsible for how I experience myself within this world.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear facing me wherein I actually enjoyed feeling sorry for myself and as such abdicated myself from myself and all life here.

When and as I see myself avoiding taking responsibility for how I am experiencing myself I stop, I breathe. I realize that I have walked the pattern of feeling sorry for myself and I know how I exist because of it. Till here no further. I no longer accept the pattern as who I am. Instead I take self-responsibility and I stand and direct myself in support of an Equal Money System so that all Life may experience heaven on earth.

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Adult Fear of being Eaten Alive and/or Cannibalism

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to fear being eaten alive by a large animal like a bear or a tiger.

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to fear being dismembered by someone or an animal and then being left alone to die.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear people becoming so hungry and desperate for food that they resort to cannibalism.

When and as I see myself fearing being eaten alive or fearing cannibalism, I stop, I breathe. Instead I see and I realize that fear is energy related and only serves to fuel the mind as consciousness and I choose to stop who and what I’ve been as consciousness and to direct myself here in self-honesty according to what’s best for all life so that all abuse within our world may be stopped.

I stand before myself facing who and what I’ve accepted and allowed to exist within this world through my fears and denial of self and I forgive myself. In Self-honesty, I vow for 2012 to stop fear and instead stand up for and as all life beginning with supporting an Equal Money System so that all life may exist here in dignity.