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Day 224: Calling the Beast by it’s Name – Breast Cancer – Treatment Plan, Let’s Walk – Day 9

For Context Read:

Day 209: ‘The Lump’ Sum of ‘What If’s’

Day 211: Processing…

Day 214: Touch it

Day 215: The results show

Day 216: A Means to an end

Day 221: Calling the Beast by it’s Name – Breast Cancer – slash-and-burn strategy – Day 6

For Context Watch: G. Edward Griffin – A World Without Cancer – The Story Of Vitamin B17

I’ve Definitely made the Decision to forego surgery and All conventional Orthodox treatments, such as chemo and radiation.

This decision hasn’t come easy. I spent near all week researching alternative treatments and educating myself with remarkable stories of people who have achieved tremendous success in stopping cancer. Now that I understand with better clarity the kind of cancer I have, the better prepared I am to make the decision that will ultimately support me as my physical body.

I am not having any other symptoms of cancer except for having the lump and the cancer having spread to one node.  But, basically, I’m not ‘physically sick’.   Thus, my Decision is to begin an Intense Metabolic Cancer Defense Program, which will involve Nutrition Therapy and Vitamin B-17 Therapy.

The thing that finalized my decision to forego surgery and All conventional Orthodox treatment was when I learned how within the lump – that not only are there malignant cells, there is also always an exact EQUAL amount of Helpful/good cells,

thus, surgery is irrelevant, surgery is only necessary if the tumor is attacking a nearby artery. What’s important is to correct the problem through replenishing the body through Nutrition, Enzymes and Vitamin B-17, Detoxing, and a very strict eating regimen.

I certainly understand the importance of nutrition more than I ever have. We should always stop and ask ourself if what we’re ingesting is just a food that we want, or is it a nutritional substance that will support our pancreas/entire physical body. Proper nutrition with a balance of vitamins, minerals and enzymes will assist the pancreas/entire physical body to function properly.

Artwork By: Marlen Vargas Del Razo 

shoesBasically my plan is to cultivate the good cells through proper nutrition, and then through a process of supporting the activation of stomach enzymes + Vitamin B-17 Therapy – which is like a process of natural radiation – I’m going to ZAP the malignant cells and nourish my body to health. That, I am comfortable with.

Others, not so much, lol – my Partner is, and we’re both in agreement and will walk this together.

There are members of my family and past friendes who will agree and support my decision, some will not,  however, with a commitment to myself  and the tools I’ve aquired through Desteni I Process,  as well as the assistance from my fellow Destonians, I’m in great hands.

As for the Alternative Therapy, it’s not cheap. Unfortunately financial adjustments will have to be made and we will moment by moment cut corners wherever we are able to so we can afford to continue with what I see as a brilliant cancer treatment alternative.

Which brings me to what is most important – that being Equal Money. If Equal Money were in place, every single cancer patient in this world would have the most advanced and less invasive treatments available. In our World of Technology, we should expect nothing less.

The fact is, the only way our world will ever become one that is supportive of our physical body and this physical reality is with Equal Money, because with Equal Money decisions are based according to what’s best for all – instead of decisions that manipulate the patient to pick treatment plans simply because it’s the one that brings in the most profit and thus continues to support the current system.

So, the bottom line is what? Of course, it’s Money.

People are getting very rich because 1 out of 3 women will get breast cancer…

I cannot dismiss my own lack of self-responsibility within this. I agreed to the current world/money system, if even in ignorance.. I buy/support the current food industries even when I know there is absolutely no nutritional value in the foods they’re selling.  I’m the one who accepted and allowed myself to abuse my physical body through consumption while I tried to make myself ‘feel good‘.

I’d like to say that I wouldn’t  have consciously chosen this experience, for myself – breast cancer. But the fact is, I know that Cancer is a Consequence of what I’ve accepted and allowed myself to participate within and as.

The Fact is, I am grateful for every moment that I’m able to be here because life on earth is worth the Solution as Equal Money.  And, I’m absolutely certain  that the ways and means, the procedures, the rules within how our world/money system functions – has to be completely stopped and re-designed.   I mean we’ve got to  investigate and reevaluate every functional system to consider the consequences that we are facing within our world because of the poor decisions we’ve made according to our  dependency to a system of profit and greed.

Equal Money will be able to stop our lives being lived in a continuous crisis mode.

Ok, that’s my plan, and if it requires moderating then so be it.

In blogs to come I will share more specifics.

See you then…

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“Happiness Play a Central Role in the Evaluation of Life Experience on Earth. In this, Money Plays a Significant Role, as anyone that’s been under Financial Pressure can Attest to.

The Vital Question then, would be: How can we Ensure Happiness for ourselves and our Loves Ones as a Constant Experience in Every Way Possible? 

To Investigate this, there is a Way – to Ensure Happiness for Everyone on Earth as much as Physically Possible. This will also Ensure a Secure and Dignified Life for Every Child Born, and thus for One’s Own Family. This will be a Journey though, as Each One will have to Investigate their Current Version of Knowledge and Adjust their View of the World to not Only Include their own Self-Interest, but also to Include the Self-Interest of everyone else. It’s like taking the Jesus the Message of “Giving as you would like to Receive”, to its ULTIMATE Success, which Ensures Successful Living for yourself and Everyone Else on Earth. There are a Few Exceptions like for instance, Distorted Mental Health, Physical Disabilities and Unforeseen Events – but, for the most part: it is Possible to Ensure a Life of Happiness for Everyone. What is Amazing is that: you do not Require the Law Of Attraction for instance, to Bring this to yourself. You have to Understand the Law of “Giving as you would like to Receive”, and in this – the First Step is, GIVE. And the Law Of Attraction – you want to First Receive before you Give. And therefore, it is Not an Effective Way to Ensure Happiness for yourself or Anyone Else, and only a Few will Hit the Jackpot with the Law Of Attraction.

With the Law of “Giving as you would like to Receive” –everyone will Hit the Jackpot Every Time, which Bring an End to Luck and Casting the Lot, as Happiness will no longer have an Element of Luck to it.

To Grasp How this is Possible: we Must Emphasize the Importance of Initially, Patiently, Studying the Economic Principles of Equal Money Capitalism. And Yes, it is Capitalism – Functioning in the Way it was Intended, to Produce Not Only Opportunity, but ACTUAL Success for Every Person on Earth. A Few Points about Equal Money Capitalism, just to Wet your Appetite:

– It will Bring an End to All Debt in the World
– Property Ownership will be a Basic Human Right
– Healthcare will be a Basic Human Right
– Happiness will be a Basic Human Right
– Employment will be a Basic Human Right
– Education will be a Basic Human Right
– Freedom of Choice will be a Basic Human Right

This is But a Few of the Results of the Law of “Giving as you would like to Receive”, Embodied in Capitalism that is Based On Equal Rights for Every Human Being on Earth.”

Bernard Poolman

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Suggested blogs to follow:
Creation Journey to Life
Heaven Journey to Life
Earth Journey to Life
Economist Journey to Life

Day 223: Calling the Beast by it’s Name – Breast Cancer – Hunzas – Day 8

Referred to as the roof of the world – the mountain peaks of the Himalayas are home to an amazing race of people called Hunzas (pronounced ‘Hoonzas’). I began to research the Hunza’s because no Hunza has ever been documented as having cancer – mostly because of their nutritional means of ingesting Vitamin B17.

Learning about their culture has been fascinating, seeing how they coexist together where there are no banks; no prisons, and No Disease…Clearly they’re an example of how the human could come to coexist if an Equal Money System were implemented.

In the 1920’s, a Scottish Dr. by the name of Mac Carrison came in contact with them during his travels and spent several years living amongst them, making copious notes with regards to: their diet, daily lifestyle and overall health. He documents how at age 100, a Hunza is considered neither old nor elderly, and many live to an advanced age(for us) of 145 years. To live to an age of 130, is considered quite normal for a Hunza. The Hunzas live in the Himalayas between the borders of: Kashmir, China, India, Afghanistan and number only around 30,000 as a population.

They begin their day around 5am and they don’t have electricity, so they go to sleep at nightfall. A daily walk of 9-12 miles is considered quite normal for them and they love to swim in the freezing mountain waters and practice slow and deep breathing.

It is obvious that part of their secret of longevity is their diet. They eat very little meat, just poultry, and only once a week. They eat twice a day and they eat sparsely, Hunzas do not overeat. Their diet consists of nuts, seeds, grains, fruits, and vegetables which are cooked specifically that contain B17 (also called Amygdalin or Laetrile) – which is one of the most controversial substances in cancer research.

Hunzas live in a remote and inaccessible part of the world, thus they have pure air, water and food. So they have much to teach us, if we’re willing…

It’s a strange thing when you learn how a tribe of people are healthy because they eat raw unpasteurized almonds and raw apricot seeds – just to name a couple of the common foods they eat that contains B17 – but you realize you can’t purchase any because in the United States it’s illegal to have raw unpasteurized almonds… The research regarding Vitamin B17 is out there to be investigated and understood, there is no excuse for us to reason with as to why we accept and allow a government that demands the pasteurization of almonds.  Who’s asking Why?

Equalitylife04The killing of the natural abilities that nature provides for us, stripping it of it’s nutrients so that the Big Corporation can make their money – that kind of stuff will Not be tolerated in an Equal money System.

When are we going to figure out that everything within our world is set up to support the rich to get richer and the poor to remain that way – where getting caught with raw unpasteurized almonds can land you in prison.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to support a World/Money System that takes the essence of life and annihilates it and I Commit myself to take self-responsibility for myself and others as myself, to Direct myself in common sense – to stand by the Decision and the Commitment to Support a World/Money System that provides common sense support for everyone, based upon what’s best for all – Not for the purpose of having more than others.

Is it any wonder that we’ve overlooked the most recent Breast Cancer Statistics: 1 in 3 women are predicted to be diagnosed with breast cancer.

“Everyone should know that most cancer research is largely a fraud…” – Linus Pauling PhD (1901-1994) Two times Nobel Prize winner.

“Of course many also contend that the pharmaceutical industry has a lot of financial incentive to ensure that vitamin B17 remains illegal and unacceptable by the medical establishment. Unable to patent a naturally occurring substance (and thereby in risk of losing a $200 billion a year industry), a war is being waged on the forefront of cancer research – each side supporting various studies on its effectiveness. In fact it is even illegal to sell Laetrile as a cure for cancer in the U.S. – and some have gone to jail for it. Despite this I found information online about proper dosages and “The Little Cyanide Cookbook” which explains how to prepare foods high in Vitamin B17. Foods containing B17 include berries, beans, nuts (especially the bitter almond), and various veggies – but the most is found in apricot seeds (the little seed found inside the pit) and apple seeds – in fact it’s said three apples a day, including the seeds, could prevent cancer.
What’s that old saying, an apple a day? Could be more important than we know.” ~ From the Blog: Eat Your Apple Seeds

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“I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to NOT realize to FOR GIVE me abundance through UNDERSTANDING that if I allow and GIVE abundance to ALL from the confirmed ABUNDANCE available to in sufficient measure on Earth, I will also receive ABUNDANCE as I have given, and Life would PROSPER IN ABUNDANCE AS ABUNDANCE is GIVEN AND RECEIVED.” ~Bernard Poolman

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Suggested blogs to follow:
Creation Journey to Life
Heaven Journey to Life
Earth Journey to Life
Economist Journey to Life

Day 222: Calling the Beast by it’s Name – Breast Cancer – One Answer to Cancer – Day 7

I spent much of my day today investigating a number of alternative treatments for cancer and it has been some fascinating research. First as a reminder, any and all applications and/or alternative treatments that I am considering should be individually investigated. I am in No way claiming a cure or a miracle regardless of my preferred method of treatment.
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I’m simply making a decision to manage my cancer  through a natural and non-toxic approach to assist my physical body to reach a healthy balance.  I mean, I’ve never taken self-responsibility for myself as my physical body because if I had of, I wouldn’t be facing the consequences of the Beast as Breast Cancer.

Even though surgery is eminent, I am not at this point going to commit to chemo and/or radiation. The cancer has spread to one node, but they will have to remove 10, and that’s really not that many.

For this blog, I’m pausing for a moment to share the story of a woman who was 60 when she was diagnosed with breast cancer, stage IV. She was irradiated only twice, had no chemotherapy whatsoever, and she lived for another 27 years.  You can read more about her from her daughter’s blog: My Mother Survived Cancer Without Chemotherapy.  The mother and daughter have kept detailed documentation of their remarkable Journey.

Also in her blog she mentioned Dr Kelly so I’ve been educating myself about his Metabolic Therapy.  Dr. Kelly wrote the book: One Answer to Cancer (download complete book here Free).  It’s been 32 years since it was published, but it’s definitely a common sense perspective about cancer and how to stop it.

Okay, I have much more to share very soon.  Until then,

“Against the advice of leading doctors and scientists across the country, FDA commissioner Dr. Kessler approved the fat substitute ‘Olestra’ for public consumption. Doctors across the country from John Hopkins to Harvard Medical warned against the possible fall-out from introducing this synthetic fat into the American diet for reasons which have been well published in the media, (see Appendix II). Interestingly most of the warning comes from the academic side of the medical science community. Why do you suppose that is? I’ll tell you . . .

I have believed for a long time that the American Medical Complex and the Consumer Food and Beverage Industrial Complex have little interest in the prevention of disease. It makes far better business sense to let the population eat, drink and smoke to their heart’s content and then offer seemingly high tech and expensive methods for cleaning up the aftermath. In the United States, the food industry alone generates 500 billion dollars in sales: Bacon, eggs, milk, fast food franchises, soft drinks, fried food, dead food, overcooked food, sweets, treats and canned goods. We have gotten away from simple diets and become human garbage disposals. Sixty percent of the American public is overweight. Clearly the large food conglomerates are successfully marketing to an oblivious public. After feeding your body with dead and processed foods for 20, 30, 40 or more years, things begin to run less perfectly. We have overlooked the processing energy required to digest bacon and eggs each morning, that steak in the evening and the cocktails in between. The result is the current health crisis where one in three will have cancer in their lifetimes — not to mention heart disease.” ~William D. Kelley

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Suggested blogs to follow:
Creation Journey to Life
Heaven Journey to Life
Earth Journey to Life
Economist Journey to Life

Day 221: Calling the Beast by it’s Name – Breast Cancer – slash-and-burn strategy – Day 6

Alright so my partner and I met with a surgeon to discuss my treatment plan and whether or not the plan involves a lumpectomy or mastectomy. Sitting there listening to the detailed step by step treatment plan being laid out and projected before me, I was very much aware of my urge to RUN, Do Not walk to the nearest exit… This wasn’t personal towards the surgeon, on the contrary. The rhythm of his knowledge and information combined with his experienced hands, caused me to want to jump on the surgery train with him. And, that scared the hell out of me. Within my mind, I saw how I was just searching for a reason to follow this guy, (the surgeon). I tell ya, it was no different an experience as the one I once had at a church revival when I believed I’d been touched by the holy ghost.

I guess shock was what finally broke the energetic spell I was existing within, and it was then that I began to ask questions.

First it’s important that I take a moment to make perfectly clear that every individual cancer case should be treated as that, individual and personal. Thus, there may be some things that I will document for myself, but keep private for the moment.

Whatever treatment I choose will be mine and mine alone. Please do not refer to my experience as being a cure or a healing. It’s important that one consult with their Doctor when choosing and making medical decisions. Investigate and Educate yourself according to your own individual process/situation.

Ok so what do I know about the kind of cancer that I have? It’s Estrogen receptor (ER) positive, meaning this type of breast cancer is sensitive to estrogen. It’s also Progesterone receptor (PR) positive, meaning this type of breast cancer is sensitive to progesterone.  So this is cool because we know what caused it and how to stop it.

Alright then, because of the size and location of the lump, it will make a lumpectomy rather difficult. So basically, the plan is leaning towards a mastectomy. That brings me to the next option, my insurance will pay to have my other breast removed and if I choose that option, then they’ll also pay for reconstructive breast surgery. I was aware of how within me, I was glad to hear about the reconstructive breast surgery, but no matter what, the idea of having my breasts removed, is, well it’s hard to plan for.

Ok so the surgeon also checked my lymph nodes and did a biopsy on one of them. He said he will probably have to remove at least one lymph node, but he doesn’t think the cancer has metastasized/spread. But we’ll know more after the surgery. Either way, he says that because of how fast the lump grew, he suggests after surgery and recovery that I then have approximately 4 months of Chemotherapy, followed by 6 weeks of Radiation Therapy consisting of five days a week as preventative measures.

I continued to ask questions, like, what about the hormone therapy to block the estrogen receptors as a preventative measure? What about that?  Why is it the last step of treatment instead of the first?  Why chemo and radiation therapy as a preventative? It makes sense to me to remove the cancer and begin the hormone blocker therapy.  However,  if the cancer is only found in one area of my body, why abuse my entire physical body with poison and burn it out as a ‘preventative’, so to speak.

“The mainstream medical establishment often prescribes mastectomy, radiation and chemotherapy to treat cancer, an approach that has been described as a ‘slash-and-burn strategy’. The treatment for breast cancer is unfortunately often the general rule among cancer treatment– cut off the affected organ, poison the body with chemotherapy and then harm the body even more with radiation.” ~ Professor Null, Complete Encyclopedia of Natural Healing

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As I look at this, I realize it seems easier for the patient to just do what they’re told by the healthcare professionals, because the mind is in such uncharted waters that it finds comfort in accepting the pre-outlined decisions – follow the rules as instructed and don’t question anything. That’s how our world/money systems function as a controlled environment that gives us the illusion of choice.

How strange is it that we support systems that are designed to keep us enslaved and specifically to stop us from taking self-responsibility for ourself?

What other species accepts the kind of abuse, punishment and unspeakable acts of terror to happen within our world as a result of how we’ve designed, accepted and allowed our current Capitalistic Money system to exist, with regards to how Life is lived and experienced as Death?  None.  Only the Human accepts and allows such a slash-and-burn strategy, which is exactly why we require a new money system.

Alright, it’s late, I will stop here.  To be continued.

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“A Few Points about Equal Money Capitalism, just to Wet your Appetite:

– It will Bring an End to All Debt in the World

– Property Ownership will be a Basic Human Right

– Healthcare will be a Basic Human Right

– Happiness will be a Basic Human Right

– Employment will be a Basic Human Right

– Education will be a Basic Human Right

Freedom of Choice will be a Basic Human Right

This is But a Few of the Results of the Law of “Giving as you would like to Receive”, Embodied in Capitalism that is Based On Equal Rights for Every Human Being on Earth.

Every Human Being Claim ‘the Right to Life’, yet there is no Protection of this Right – unless you, in the Current Capitalism, have the Benefit of Money; this Equal Money Capitalism (EMC), will Prevent. What will also be Prevented, is War. As War is Profit-Driven.

It is Time for a New World System. One Based on Prevention, instead of Reaction. One Based on Honouring the Right of Life, Equally for All.

Join the Journey to Life, and Become Part of a Solution.” ~ Bernard Poolman

Day 220: Calling the Beast by it’s Name – Breast Cancer – The Culture – Day 5

I just received further results from my recent biopsy. I have the kind of cancer where the receptors within its cells are ER Positive – which means Estrogen is what makes this type of cancer grow. Thus, hormonal therapy made to block the physical body from being able to absorb Estrogen is a common/combined treatment plan.

“If cancer cells have receptors for these hormones, it means that they are at least TRYING to perform the tasks of a normal breast cell. They’re behaving—somewhat.”

When I hung up the phone from talking to my nurse, I noticed how me as my mind ‘felt’, ‘better’. I had to stop myself from repeating over and over within my mind what the nurse said – ‘this is definitely in your favor’...

I’d be lying if I said I wasn’t glad to hear what she said, but that begs me to answer the following questios.

What is my favor? Do I favor this kind of cancer over another kind of cancer? Stop – Don’t Prejudge.

I Commit myself to Breathe and Not pre-judge the information.
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What am I in favor of? Drugs? Hormone Therapy? Supporting Big Pharma?  Earth? Life as all as one as equal?  Hunger? War? Equal Money?  

It’s important to me that I investigate the Culture surrounding breast cancer as well as the mentioning of cures.

Seriously, why do we keep giving Money to Rich folk to find the cures they’ll never approve?

How come we refuse to listen, to understand, that if a cure could be bought we would have already purchased it.

Money/Profit/Greed.  is the only Reason why there is no ‘Approved’ Cure for Cancer.

I mean, I just received my cancer diagnosis a week ago and already, I’m in debt for well over $6000 Dollars.

Like it or not, and I don’t like it, the Culture surrounding Breast Cancer, is a well-oiled machine, just like all the other cultures within our society. They’re here for one purpose and one purpose only, Profit, to feed the fat cats…

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“Given the pink ribbon’s symbolic success, what’s wrong with it? Sulik argues that pink ribbon culture focuses attention on the wrong things and does it in a way that is not really contributing to progress toward preventing and curing cancer. It buries medical controversies, ignores environmental causes of cancer and insurance problems, and does not increase access to treatment for underserved populations.” — Judith Lorber

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“Breast cancer, I can now report, did not make me prettier or stronger, more feminine or spiritual. What it gave me, if you want to call this a “gift,” was a very personal, agonizing encounter with an ideological force in American culture that I had not been aware of before—one that encourages us to deny reality, submit cheerfully to misfortune, and blame only ourselves for our fate.” ― Barbara Ehrenreich, Bright-sided: How the Relentless Promotion of Positive Thinking Has Undermined America

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“I commit myself to question the integrity of activists, and to remind activists that activism should be about a new world system that is best for all life always, and that any activist that cannot stand for what is best, is in fact only an extension of the system of greed that has failed Life in every way.” Bernard Poolman

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The thing is, I’m beginning to understand how I have ‘sewn’ the oats of this that I’m walking. I have through my participation in negative and positive energetic experiences treated my body no different from the products that I consume daily. And, I made the ultimate sacrifice when I never stopped to consider what the highs and lows of energy demands from my physical body. Instead, I took my physical body for granted and I abused myself as it.

For Context Please Watch:
The Good and Bad Products of the Consciousness/Mind Factory: DAY 342

“And now, we’ve completely split ourselves into good products and bad products. And, you know, the same exist in this physical existence – we’re consuming ourselves – we’re consuming physicality – we’re consuming that which is, in fact, producing, or providing, natural life and living in this physical existence. For what? For products that have been determined by a particular, specific value to, according to that value, establish for ourselves into a certain social or heirarchical class or, a definition, or character, or personality within this life experience, in this world and this reality. Where, for those products to exist, physical reality – this physical existence – is being sacrificed. I mean, it doesn’t make sense – our existence – in any way whatsoever.” Sunette Spies

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I continue to learn through DesteniI Process and DIP Lite and I appreciate the awesome support both provide.  I also want to say how much I also appreciate  the amazing support from my Partner, my Children, my Desteni I Process Buddy, and my fellow Destonians, all of which assist me daily to walk this Journey to Life.

Ok, tomorrow I am scheduled to meet with a surgeon, and so we continue to walk…

Day 219: Calling the Beast by it’s Name – Breast Cancer – Anxiety – Day 4

Today I don’t want to write and I don’t want to talk either. I don’t want to be alone and I don’t want to be around anyone. I’m both restless and quiet inside myself. And, I’m absolutely aware of how I’m existing in my own little world – where within my mind I’m still trying to make sense of myself within the knowledge that I have breast cancer. Even when we went to my oldest daughter’s house to see my grandson’s, Landon and Logan, I was completely aware of when I was reacting within myself to the anxiety I was experiencing. The truth is, I just wanted to be alone. I sat down to blog a couple of times but instead found comfort in cooking and doing laundry.

While I was cooking, I re-heard a couple of interviews from Eqafe which assisted me greatly with what has been sudden bursts of uncontrolled energy/anxiety. For further clarity please hear: Anxiety Support By the Atlanteans (Part 1) – Part 83, and Anxiety Support By the Atlanteans (Part 2) – Part 84

I mean, being able to effectively look at my relationship to anxiety within this point is priceless. So approaching my anxiety from the perspective of taking responsibility for myself as it and directing myself to Not react meant that I must first understand how anxiety moves, which is very fast.

As I investigated, I become aware of myself kind of shrugging my shoulders and then putting my hands up to my face/mouth just moments before the anxiety comes – that’s when an emotion or feeling will like infuse into the anxiety and within seconds, I feel the energy.  It’s then that I notice a particular thought pattern/memory or reaction, which is what validates the energy of the anxiety.  I mean, did you know that it literally takes time to panic?

Here I will be applying self-forgiveness and  self-commitment statements.

Equalitylife260I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react to the energy experience of anxiety, where I experience a restlessness and an uncomfortability within and as my Physical Body.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to form a relationship with anxiety based upon how the energy of it makes me feel nostalgic and sentimental – with a wistful yearning for the happiness I once felt in a former place and time/within a memory, thus, I commit myself to in my voice make anxiety – that part of me – aware that what it’s doing within and as my physical body is not acceptable. and that I no longer accept it to desturb my ability /decision to remain calm and stable breathing.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realize that anxiety is like an energy that is uncontrolled, therefore, I commit myself to take self-responsibility for the relationship I have to anxiety, to thus breathe and remain calm and stable within and as the directive principle of me as my physical body.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react in anxiety as I stepped outside, where I went to stand and watch my granddaughter play and within that I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand that I do not require anxiety as a reaction to prepare me for simply walking outside to watch my granddaughter play.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to Not understand how I developed a relationship to the energy of positive and negative, where through manifested consequences and experiences, I didn’t consider the damage the participation as the energy cause within and as my physical body.

I commit myself to take a breath, to stand with myself, to trust myself within who I am as the words that I speak as I commit myself to trust who I am as my physical body, to trust the process of cleansing as I commit myself to stop the bully in me by giving first that which I’d like to receive.

I commit myself to be here for me, my trust as who I am.

Day 218: Calling the Beast by it’s Name – Breast Cancer – Self-reflection & pink, twisted ribbons – Day 3

Problem:

I don’t want to talk about it anymore. But yet, I do. I see how I’m searching for some commonality within myself where I can specifically relate to the Beast within me as Breast Cancer – that something that will end the separation that I am experiencing within myself towards it – the lump. Who am I now that CANCER has proven itself to be a definite part of my anatomy?

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Solution:

The plan is to get to know who I am as my body/mind/physical, to do whatever is necessary to assist myself to face that which I fear the most.   Death… The monster in the dark, the beast in the night. Strange…

I was always scared that something ‘out there’ was gonna kill me but I failed to comprehend that ‘what’s out there’, exist first ‘in here’ – as my imagination, my thoughts, the energy of ups and downs, the feelings, the emotions, the secrets within and as my mind…

I forgive myself for the the inner definition of myself as the monster under the bed / the demon in the closet / the beast in the night /  self-judgment / imagination / the lump / breast cancer and Death and within that, I commit myself to take self-responsibility to change the inner behavior of myself to stop the bully within by Giving first to others that which I’d like to Receive.

“When you treat a disease, first treat the mind.” ~Chen Jen

There are moments when I am reflective, where I look around me and take everything in. Where I can hear and follow what’s being said by 3 adults and 2 year old, all talking at once – and it’s oddly-comforting as I’m recognizing within me to keep it simple you have to breathe.

“What cancer does is, it forces you to focus, to prioritize, and you learn what’s important.” Gilda Radner

 

“You are in this World, because: You Have No Responsibility, No Integrity and because you have Never Cared about Life in the Universe throughout All Time. You are, in a way, in a Prison. A Prison you created for yourself. You’re Not Going to Get out of This one…not here or in the hereafter without facing consequence, taking responsibility for it and changing for oneself and so for all as self.” – Bernard Poolman

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hold myself back in fear of exposing the truth of me and within that I commit myself to stop pre-judging myself as I Direct myself to walk in courage the willingness to be self-honest and Stable as I walk this Journey to Life.

“We don’t know how strong we are until being strong is the only choice we have.” ~Unknown

So, most of us have a clear definition of what it means to be ‘Strong’.  It goes without saying that we all want to be a survivor. But, I’m no more willing to define myself as the strong struggling to survive.  I commit myself to investigate for myself realistically – for instance, how does me having breast cancer support our current world/money system?  Is my participation as a living being supporting Life according to what’s Best for All or am I a committed supporter of Profit/ Consciousness / Money / Enslavement/  Death?

I mean even the NFL is profiting off of Breast Cancer.   Did you know that Breast Cancer Charities, Companies Raise $6 Billion DOLLARS A Year?
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For Context Read:
How big business cashes in on breast cancer: Junk food, Barbie dolls and even power tools are jumping on this month’s pink ribbon bandwagon

Ok, Will continue to investigate and share how Cancer is Big Business. Because seriously, at this rate there is No way a cure will ever be approved. There are far to many Major Corporations who are getting rich from those of us who have cancer.  In order for the rich to exist the poor and the dying must exist.  We can’t have one without the other.   Rich people vs Poor people –  Why in the world is such a thing accepted and allowed?  Because someone somewhere is getting Rich!

Reward:

Imagine.  If Equal Money were in place, our entire experience of Breast Cancer would change to one where the life of every individual is considered – instead of the only motive for care being based on profit – it would be based according to what’s Best for All and that’s where everything changes as Life on Earth.

I Commit myself to take self-responsibility for myself and Stop participating within my mind in positive and negative energetic experiences and in doing so I commit myself to investigate the consequences for what I’ve accepted and allowed myself to be and become as them.

Human Rights would be the Recognition that All Life is Equal in Each One. It would be the Recognition that the Environment Determines the Outcome of a Life on Earth. Human Rights would be that Every One Born has a Right to the Resources on Earth as Food, Shelter, Water, Sunshine – the things that are Freely Available on Earth, then must simply be Managed to the Benefit of All. Human Rights Should be that No Political Agenda May Exist that will Interfere or Diminish the Right of Any Single Human on Earth and/or that can Limit the Right to Life of any single human on earth in any way whatsoever.” Bernard Poolman

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