“So, this comes to question: Do we then fear death or is it that death is such a presence within our minds, because we don’t have life. We’re not Living Life, we’re not Expressing Life. Life is not who we are and so we’ve polarized our existence completely for Death to exist in our inner-relationship to our minds, and Life then to exist also in relationship to our Minds. So, it’s like Life and Death is this polarity that is in our Minds: Life being defined according to Money from an external perspective and then Death existing because we do not have our initial pure Life-Essence within ourselves. And, then we fear Death, because we’re not living life and we can’t live life because Money has it, essentially.” Sunette Spies
Reading this in Heaven’s Blog today really hit home with me in terms of what I’m realizing about how for my entire life I’ve existed within the point of fear of death, money, and consuming life instead of living life…
As strange as it may sound, having cancer and facing the fear of death, is assisting me to see the degree in which I’m ridden with self interest and that basically, all I’ve ever existed as is the search for energy, trying to fulfill a want and/or a desire. It makes sense that Life is Not who I’ve been because my life has consisted of and has been defined in relationship to the wants and desires of and as my mind…
I realized this with greater clarity yesterday when my daughter was leaving to go have supper with a friend of hers and I became jealous. I ‘wanted’ to tag along, but the fact that I have cancer and am following the strict metabolic diet meant that I wasn’t able to eat what they would be eating. I mean, this is how our mind consumes us. Because I wanted what I wanted and I was very aware of how I resented my daughter and her friend for being able to have what I can’t have.
It just makes sense that one would stop having such desires – to have certain foods – because what one ‘wants’ is life-threatening for self, but No! The mind as consciousness never considers the abuse it imposes upon our physical body and our physical reality. It is only interested in consuming and having the money to do so…
The Psychological aspects of cancer have the potential of killing one long before the cancer even have a chance to because the mind wants what the mind wants and it wants to be in control. And, what I’m seeing is that as I continue to remove from my life those things that I’ve been all consumed with, in relation to food/money, such as sugar, processed foods and caffeine for example, me as my mind as consciousness, begins to question ‘what is there to live for’?
This how I’m realizing that my constant wants and desires, to have and partake in the consumer process of purchasing the foods and then consuming the foods, is actually the very thing, the overindulgence that have manifested me with cancer in the first place. This may seem like a harsh reality, but it is the reality of my life at this moment.
The irony that my overindulgence as a consumer has led me as my physical body to have to resort to consuming myself in order to survive cannot be taken likely and absolutely cannot continue if I am to be successful in assisting my physical body to health. It will definitely be an accumulation of remaining consistent with following my nutrition program and taking the required vitamin/supplements.
One of the most important things that has prepared me for this Journey is the consistancy to self that I’ve acquired through blogging here my Journey to Life, and, I remain grateful to the Desteni I Process and the Destonians for their continuted support. I will continue to investigate this point of consumption through self-forgiveness and will continue to share the details here.
“So within this, we invite you to consider this relationship between life and death within you and how it primarily exist in the mind, where death takes over because we’re not really living. Within Desteni, the Desteni I Process and also the products available on EQAFE, we assist and support with understanding what it means to live and – it may, for example, sound easy with me speaking about it or putting it in this illustration, but it is quite tough, because we have never done it before, we have never really in fact lived.” Sunette Spies