Day 43: ‘Don’t Pretend You Know Me’

Here forgiving five words of a sentence that I’ve used as a weapon to/towards others through the fear of facing what I actually knew about myself, but feared facing the details of as my mind and what that exist of.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to pretend that I know who I am within the fear of my own self-honesty.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the very nature of who I’ve existed as to be lived in pretending.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to sentence myself and others to a corrupt world/money system through pretending to support and care about life, when in fact, everything that exists within our world has been a revolving lie around money.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe the deception in pretending that there is no need for change.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to deceive others because I’ve been willing to deceive myself through pretending.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use the words, ‘don’t pretend you know me’ as a weapon against others similar to holding up a shield and a sword and going into battle, only suddenly realizing what you’ve deliberately hidden from yourself in that the only real battle field exists only within one’s own mind.

I forgive myself for accepting myself as a child to allow myself to practice pretending until I manifested myself as a living definition within a state of pre=tense which became a life long practice/pattern of who/what/when and how I’ve existed as.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be incapable of responding in self-honesty to/towards and within my relationships because I’ve allowed me as ego/character to stand in as me as I pretended to be someone/something where the behaviours of myself were within a belief system that fit in with societies expectation system.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use the words ‘don’t pretend you know me’ as a Weap-on of excuse to blame others for how I experienced myself instead of facing the guilt I felt about how I treated them as I walked the path of self-righteousness.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to enjoy saying the words, ‘don’t pretend you know me’, which was actually in-SINcere behaviour intended to give others an appearance of myself as having a greater importance in life than them.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to pretend to be what others wanted me to be by manipulating them through words to boost their ego as I secretly expected them to create a similar experience for me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to lie, cheat, steal and bargain with others using money as a means of maintaining the pretending/feeling of importance within myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to pretend to be the friend I thought was required in order to maintain a relationship when in reality, it’s not possible for anyone to actually know me because I’ve never actually known who I am.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use and abuse words living them in self-dishonesty.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the me I pretended to be was an act of self-dishonesty in an attempt to receive validation for me as ego.

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I commit myself to stop hiding and pretending and accepting anything less than who I really am in self-honesty.

I commit myself to embracing me in self-honesty and taking full responsibility for what is here existing as our world manifested as who we as a humanity have existed as within, and thus, I commit myself to supporting and creating a world/money system which values life according to what’s best for all where life is expressed free from pretending.

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