Structural Resonance Alignment Training – How Sweet It Is

It’s a few hours later and I am writing out an “energetic experience” of myself that I had earlier so to apply “self forgiveness” and “release” the mind construct within it –   So any further “compounding” can be “released” and “stopped”.

I became angry today when I saw my daughter Holly posted on her facebook status that she was beginning to teach her two boys (Logan 6 and Landon 3) about “responsibility”. She told them if they help her around the house they could earn money to buy a toy.  She then asked Landon if he would go get her the broom, and he said;  that will be 5 dollars.  She then told him he was expensive and she’d go get her own broom.  She ‘thought’ what he said was ‘cute’ and ‘funny’ as well as did many others.  I can’t stand it when I hear a “mother ‘ say these sort of things to their children.  I found it ‘offensive’ and yet a perfect display of human behaviour. I also got the “feeling” she purposely wrote it, even after her and I have had “specific” conversations about the “very topic” of “money” and about “showing by our actions” and “teaching”  more “appropriate” meanings of “money” to “children”. It’s as though she wasn’t even ‘present’ during the “conversation”.  And when I read it, I immediately experienced an “energetic resonance “swell up from within me and my heart started beating very fast. I noticed the palms of my hands even became ‘sweaty’! And in a matter of seconds both of my ears became warm. I wanted to write “WHAT THE FUCK” in huge letters and then I realized that would not even be enough so then I wanted to call her and say WTF!  This whole experience that I accepted and allowed of myself lasted only about a minute of me within my mind ‘thinking’ about what to write before I stopped myself and breathed.

After breathing and applying ‘self forgiveness’,  I replied with the following comment: Responsibility would be to show them how without money people die of starvation – thus, money is like god in that if you have money you eat and don’t die. I am 1 Vote – for An Equal Money System – Then my grandchildren and all children/people would be provided for with food, water, clothes and shelter. Then all could stop greed and express themself freely.

(NOTE: to test muscle communication: the words ‘slave and labour’ come up within me after I posted this response.)

As I write this here, I am experiencing a slight ‘energetic resonance’ within me of anger.

(Mother/Daughter/Family/Slave  Mind Construct Manifestation)

—->I became angry today at what Holly wrote on facebook

———–>My ‘physcial body’ experienced ‘energetic resonance charges’

—————>The beats of my heart is faster

—————>palms of my hands are sweaty and ears are warm

—————–>I want to tell my daughter ‘Fuck Off’!

—————–>I have thoughts searching for a way to say ‘Fuck Off’ ‘appropriately or motherly’

—————–>I Feel angry because she didn’t hear previous conversations with me

—————–>I Feel like my ‘feelings’ are hurt

—————–>I Feel like I’m not a ‘good mother’

—————–>I Feel a ‘desire’ to be ‘acknowledged’ by her

———–>I Feel ‘guilt’ and ‘helplessness’  because I realize that I taught her the same

———–>I experience emotions and thoughts of how we are slaves labouring

I Stop, I Breathe

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be “enslaved in labour” within “emotions and thoughts” of the “mind consciousness system” in which I then have “moved” my “physical body” and “walked” the “deception” as me here within the physical – instead of me “directing” me in “breath” within “self honesty” willing self – walking “self forgiveness” physically as me here within the “Principle of Equality”.

I see how I “implemented” Holly as the “cause”of the experience I was having, meaning within my “emotional and feeling charge” I was experiencing within myself as I was reading the words that Holly had written – I was implementing her by “projecting” my own experience (feelings and emotions) of myself onto her within “blame” and “control” and within this wanting to ‘physically ‘with my voice ‘lash’ out at her. I realize that the ‘energetic charge’ as the ‘mind construct resonance’ was seeking to direct and control me within a ‘mind construct’ in seeking to further the experience of it as me.

This shows me how I have been programmed as to what I have accepted and allowed me to be and experience myself as in  that: “when i feel something”,  and i don’t want to feel it directly that I “project” blame as them being the “cause” through implicating them in how I am experiencing me.  This “blame” has the starting point of “guilt” – wherein I “blame” myself for the person Holly is.  Blaming myself for not “raising her” within a clearer understanding of our reality. This is ‘obvious blame’ because it’s as if I’m ‘pointing a finger’ at her when actually I am existing in “comparison” within ‘guilt’ towards myself – thus really ‘pointing a finger at myself’ however ‘blaming’ Holly for not being ‘unconditional’  which is existing in ‘self comparison’  “within the point as blame”  as well.

In asking myself with regards to this event – where within my world am I not unconditional and where within my world am I conditional within my behaviour?  What stands out for me within this is the point of being ‘the mother’ and I see myself ‘behaving like my mother’ from the perspective of – ‘wanting to be right’, or in ‘control of my child’ and within this the point takes me back to guilt.  This is a deceptive technique that I have accepted and allowed to exist within me as who I am and how I experience myself is I “project” from this “emotional” and “feeling” charge. In accepting and allowing this of me I am not taking direct responsibility for me and my world.  Because what is really going on within me is seeing me not wanting to see my own “creation” – In that “Holly” is a “direct” manifested “result” of my accepted and allowed self within ‘beliefs/opinions’, ‘thoughts’, ’emotions/feelings’ and ‘actions’ taken of myself in self “dishonesty”. That I am in fact walking and facing my past in every moment – my world is a direct reflection of me.

Is this the point I was to look at here? Yes

Is this point clear? Yes

The ‘relationship point’ here is in it being a ‘big deal’ to me that even though her and I have talked numerous times about an  “Equal Money System” and how ‘children’ should be raised within an ‘equal’ understanding of money for All – It’s as though she didn’t ‘hear’ me or as if she is purposely mocking me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate within the energy within this “resonant family mind construct”.  I Stop

So in Stopping, Breathing, applying Self forgiveness and writing this here –  I stop and delete, disengage and release this mind construct as it is no longer who and what I accept and allow myself to become or be as me as who I am as all as one as Equal as Life.

Is this the point I was to look at here? Yes

Is this point clear? No

more to come

Cathy,

The question that I would ask myself here is:

“What is it that I am ‘wanting’ from Holly?”

Consider all dimensions of this question and see what it is that you ‘see’ when asking this question to yourself.

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Self forgiveness for mind construct

—->I became angry today at what Holly wrote on facebook

———–>My ‘physcial body’ experienced ‘energetic resonance charges’

—————>The beats of my heart is faster

—————>palms of my hands are sweaty and ears are warm

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate within energetic resonant mind patterns within which I allow myself to be directed instead of me being my own self honest directive principle within the ‘principle of equality’.

—————–>I want to tell my daughter ‘Fuck Off’!

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist within an energetic manifestation within self manipulation and within this projecting myself unto others instead of facing myself within self honesty and self responsibility for what is here.

—————–>I have thoughts searching for a way to say ‘Fuck Off’ ‘appropriately or motherly’

—————–>I Feel angry because she didn’t hear previous conversations with me

—————–>I Feel like my ‘feelings’ are hurt

—————–>I Feel like I’m not a ‘good mother’

—————–>I Feel a ‘desire’ to be ‘acknowledged’ by her

———–>I Feel ‘guilt’ and ‘helplessness’ because I realize that I taught her the same

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to manipulate my self into rationalizing that it is actually possible to be a ‘bad or inappropriate mother or to be able to have my ‘feelings’ hurt within not be acknowledged by my children and within this accepting and allowing myself to exist within the ‘energetic resonances’ of ‘anger’, ‘guilt’ and/or ‘helplessness’.

———–>I experience emotions and thoughts of how we are slaves labouring

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to experience emotions and thoughts within energetic charges within resonant impulses within the mind ‘ideas’ and ‘manipulations’ and definitions surrounding the words slaves and labouring.  till here no further

Using Muscle Communication to pinpoint the exact meaning of the word, ‘approval’, this is the definition tested as point of refererence.

‘the  act  of  approving’

This is a form of ‘self-manipulation’ using the situation or the event or act itself as the simulation and the aim is for me to gain attention and/or recognition and/or to seek validation and/or pity from the people involved in the situation or event. This particular situation being with Holly, however, I see how I have done this deliberately within similar situations. Where I have accepted and allowed the role of my self within self-victimization in which I manipulate myself and others in order to validate a current ‘state of being’ within which to ‘experience’ myself. Where I become the ‘victim’ by way of manipulating ‘attention’ and ‘approval’ from others in order to saturate an addiction within myself of getting or having something from others that I believe I cannot give to myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel disappointed, hurt and betrayed when my daughter doesn’t recall our conversations and/or because we don’t share the same values.

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to seek approval and validation from my children.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use a form of self

-manipulation using a situation or event to simulate a way for me to gain attention or recognition of approval and to seek validation and/or pity from the people involved within the situation or event.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to play the role of self-victimization wherein I manipulate myself and others in order to validate a particular ‘state of being’ of myself and as a way of manipulating others attention towards myself.

I see where this plays out and occurs through me accepting and allowing mind conversations within thoughts which validate a certain experience of self. I also see where this is a point of ‘logical self-manipulation’ within the mind conversations with thoughts as well because of how I accept and allow an explanation point within self justification that has no relevance.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate within thoughts which validate certain energetic impulse experiences of myself within self manipulative mind construct patterns.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use mind conversation points with thoughts within a point of explanation where I participate within self justification that has no relevance.

Is this the point I was to look at here? Yes

Is this point clear? yes

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I see how I “implemented” Holly as the “cause”of the experience I was having, meaning within my “emotional and feeling charge” I was experiencing within myself as I was reading the words that Holly had written – I was implementing her by “projecting” my own experience (feelings and emotions) of myself onto her within “blame” and “control” and within this wanting to ‘physically ‘with my voice ‘lash’ out at her. I realize that the ‘energetic charge’ as the ‘mind construct resonance’ was seeking to direct and control me within a ‘mind construct’ in seeking to further the experience of it as me.

Self Corrective Statement:

When  I see myself participating within an energetic charge pattern such as “projecting” my own experience (feelings and emotions) of myself onto people within “blame” and “control”, I stop and I breathe and within this I realize that I am the directive force and will not be directed by and as the energy pattern of projecting self blame onto another. When I’m faced with this particular energy signature, I stop, I breathe and I allow that energy to move through me and not take hold of me.

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This shows me how I have been programmed as to what I have accepted and allowed me to be and experience myself as in  that: “when i feel something”,  and i don’t want to feel it directly that I “project” blame as them being the “cause” through implicating them in how I am experiencing me.

Self Corrective Statement:

When I experience myself within this pattern of not facing myself when I feel something and I don’t want to feel it directly so I ‘project’ blame onto another as them being the cause through implicating them according to how I am avoiding an experience of me and within this I realize that this is a pattern of self defeat and self manipulation, thus I stop and I breathe and I become the directive force of me in self honesty within the principle of equaltiy.

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This “blame” has the starting point of “guilt” – wherein I “blame” myself for the person Holly is.  Blaming myself for not “raising her” within a clearer understanding of our reality. This is ‘obvious blame’ because it’s as if I’m ‘pointing a finger’ at her when actually I am existing in “comparison” within ‘guilt’ towards myself – thus really ‘pointing a finger at myself’ however ‘blaming’ Holly for not being ‘unconditional’  which is existing in ‘self comparison’  “within the point as blame”  as well.

Self Corrective Statement:

When I experience myself within this pattern of guilt wherein i ‘blame’ myself and within this using blame as a way to hide from myself and it is here that I am ‘flagging’ this as an origin point wherein I know this is a point where the pattern is impulsing or showing itself and it is here that I stop, I breathe and I do not participate. Instead with this particular energy signature, I stop, I breathe and I allow the energy to move through me and I do not accept or allow it to take hold of me.

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In asking myself with regards to this event, where within my world am I not unconditional and where within my world am I conditional within my behaviour?  What stands out for me within this is the point of being ‘the mother’ and I see myself ‘behaving like my mother’ from the perspective of – ‘wanting to be right’, or in ‘control of my child’ and within this the point takes me back to guilt.

Self Corrective Statement:

When  I see and experience myself participating within a point of comparison within conversations within my secret mind causing self manipulative projections of guilt and control within an energetic pattern of seeking/wanting to be acknowledged as being ‘right’ or ‘enlightened’ so as to reach some ‘mental state’ of ‘validity within a ‘mindfuck’, I stop, I breathe. Within this I realise that by comparing myself to others I am subjecting myself within a comparison scale which always places me either above or below someone else causing myself to experience anxiety, and I realize there is no value to this participation and there is only consequences and repeat mind construct resonant patterns.  I stop, I breathe and let go of the comparison thoughts and participation of mind conversations. It is here that I am ‘flagging’ this as an origin point wherein I know this is a point where the pattern is impulsing or showing itself and it is here that I stop, I breathe and I do not participate. Instead with this particular energy signature, I stop, I breathe and I allow the energy to move through me and I do not accept or allow it to take hold of me.

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This is a deceptive technique that I have accepted and allowed to exist within me as who I am and how I experience myself is I “project” from this “emotional” and “feeling” charge. In accepting and allowing this of me I am not taking direct responsibility for me and my world.  Because what is really going on within me is seeing me not wanting to see my own “creation” – In that “Holly” is a “direct” manifested “result” of my accepted and allowed self within ‘beliefs/opinions’, ‘thoughts’, ’emotions/feelings’ and ‘actions’ taken of myself in self “dishonesty”. That I am in fact walking and facing my past in every moment – my world is a direct reflection of me.

The ‘relationship point’ here is in it being a ‘big deal’ to me that even though her and I have talked numerous times about an  “Equal Money System” and how ‘children’ should be raised within an ‘equal’ understanding of money for All – It’s as though she didn’t ‘hear’ me or as if she is purposely mocking me.

Self Corrective Statement:

When I see myself experiencing myself within an energy pattern coming from a self deception technique such as an ’emotional and feeling’ charge wherein I experience myself as getting my ‘feelings hurt’ or not being ‘heard’ and ‘acknowledged’ or validated and within this project my experience onto another within ‘blaming’ them to be the ’cause’ for my experience. I Stop, I Breathe and I recognize this as a ‘flag’ point within which I stop the participation in the energetic pattern  as self deception within  thoughts and emotional resonance charges and I do not participate instead I breathe myself here in and as the physical.

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This is a form of ‘self-manipulation’ using the situation or the event or act itself as the simulation and the aim is for me to gain attention and/or recognition and/or to seek validation and/or pity from the people involved in the situation or event. This particular situation being with Holly, however, I see how I have done this deliberately within similar situations. Where I have accepted and allowed the role of my self within self-victimization in which I manipulate myself and others in order to validate a current ‘state of being’ within which to ‘experience’ myself. Where I become the ‘victim’ by way of manipulating ‘attention’ and ‘approval’ from others in order to saturate an addiction within myself of getting or having something from others that I believe I cannot give to myself.

I see where this plays out and occurs through me accepting and allowing mind conversations within thoughts which validate a certain experience of self. I also see where this is a point of ‘logical self-manipulation’ within the mind conversations with thoughts as well because of how I accept and allow an explanation point within self justification that has no relevance.

Self Corrective Statement:

When I see myself experiencing myself within an energy pattern coming from self-manipulation within using a situation or an event or an act of ‘self simulation’ within the mind to distract me within an ”energetic charge’  ‘feeling’ to gain attention and/or seek recognition and/or to seek validation and/or to seek pity from others  within a ‘role’of self-victimization within which I manipulate myself and others in order to ‘gain’ validation as a way of ‘self-manipulation’ in keeping me from taking responsibility for myself here within and as breath as the physical – I Stop, I Breathe, and I do not participate. Instead I direct me here as breath within realizing that I have experienced myself within this pattern playing out from beginning to end and I am placing this is as a flag point of for self to see self in accepting and allowing ‘logical self-manipulation’  of a mind resonant pattern to play out within self justification and has no relevance as life here as me as the ‘directive principle’ of self within and as self honesty. I stop, I breathe, I do not participate

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