Day 240: Calling the Beast by it’s Name – Breast Cancer – Pill Popper USA – Day 25

I read an article today that reminded me that I used to be a pill popper. It was called: Confessions of a middle-class pill popper.

I took pills that provided me with whatever mood or rather energy I was searching for. I learned how to manipulate health care professionals until before long I had my own legal tender for the purchase of uppers and downers.

Throughout my life, I have through popping pills, put quite a strain upon my physical body, and even now, as I’m realizing the extent that drugs have on our pancreas, I question, how do I know that I would do it differently if I had the chance to?

I had a woman tell me recently, (after she heard about the Metabolic Diet),  that if she weren’t able to eat the things she loves – like cake and pie and fried chicken and mashed potatoes – that without those, she wouldn’t want to live. What does it say about us as a humanity when the energetic experience of doing so is so damn important that one implies they would rather die than go without something?

I never spoke it out loud, but in my secret mind, I used to think the same about going without pain pills or the adderall that I used to take daily.  I depended upon and looked forward to my daily buzz.

Every single day for at least 12 years, I took some kind of prescription medication because I was convinced that I needed some sort of high to make it through my day. And after all, my Doctor prescribed them, so what I took was ‘legal’ in my mind, and I was sure they enhanced my ability to function.  Not!

It’s been just over 5 years since I stopped popping pills. I was able to stop through applying the tools suggested by Desteni. Before then, I never considered the accumulated effect that taking pills every day would eventually take on my physical body. I never really considered that over loading my body daily with chemicals would overwork my pancreas which can lead to cancer...I’m not saying that everyone who abuses their body with popping pills will get cancer, however, there is always a physical consequence to be considered when there is abuse allowed.

I also never considered how much profit was made off of me by the Pharmaceutical Industry. They survive off of addictive behaviors, mental illness and diseases such as cancer. Just recently I was talking on the phone to a relative of mine who’s 75 years old with lung disease and on oxygen. He was complaining about how much money he pays the Pharmaceutical Industry every month. How for just over 9 years he’s had to take two prescriptions that his Doctor prescribes for his lung illness and between just those two medications, he spends $900 a month. He spends another $300 or so on other meds as well. His monthly pension check barely covers the price for all of them.

The thing is, millions of people every day take pills.   It’s time we begin to question the chemicals we’re putting in our physical body.  We are long over due to see the common sense to our situation within our world. I mean, at what point do we finally step back and assess our world/money system and finally put a Stop to living in ways and means which are killing us? When will we realize that our behaviors, our endless search of energetic experiences, are leading to our demise? When will we change the very nature of the system that keeps sucking us in? When will we recognize that there IS a Solution?

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Must Read:

Day 140: I Need Adderall: Requirement, Addiction, or Justification? 

 Day 379: This is for all You Pill Poppers

Day 381: Don’t Blame Me! I have a Disease!

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“I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that if One Cannot Exist in the flesh as what is Best for all Life in Limitation, One will also not Be able to Exist as What is Best for Life in any other Reality, and as such will be Making a Decision that One is in Fact NOT Life, as is Demonstrated at Death – if one Could Have Seen Beyond Death, but One Can Only See What One in fact is, and that which is NOT Life, but only Energy, can Only See Energy and Remains as Energy, Cycling Infinitely as Energy, never to Actually Become Life for real.” ~ Bernard Poolman

“I commit myself to SHOW that as Long as Energy is the Dictator, the Result will be a Dictatorship where Life is Not Honored and the Self-interest of Energy will Prevail, as Energy Requires Energy to Continue, and Once Energy Ends, the Image and Likeness Energy Formed, Ends.” ~ Bernard Poolman

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Day 239: Calling the Beast by it’s Name – Breast Cancer – Grounding myself – Day 24

For Context Read: Day 238: Calling the Beast by it’s Name – Breast Cancer – The Four Laws of Cancer – Day 23

Two days of sweating for 35 minutes in a portable sauna and already my physical weakness subsides. I increased my enzyme intake to taking 12 six times today, and usually, this causes me to feel physically heavy, however, sweating out some of the toxins certainly made a difference. This being my 5th day back ‘On’ the enzymes, is also the day that i usually experience a kind of brain fog that usually lasts about 24 hours, but today, it seems that that is also slighter.
One thing I’m realizing is how I’ve always taken for granted the very things I have to have in order for my physical body to sustain itself. Like clean drinking water for instance, that’s an important luxury within our world where millions go without.

I mean I cannot afford to ingest water with chemicals in it because I cannot afford to waste any pancreatic enzymes on dissolving chemicals when I need them to dissolve the cancer.  And yet look at our world/money system.  It simply doesn’t provide adequate water supply to Everybody even though common sense says it should.

Another thing I’m realizing is how much I am dependent upon positive energetic experiences that I get from what seems like the simplest of things. Things that I haven’t completely given up yet, like for instance splurging on a cup of coffee or even a piece of gum – both of which are not allowed on the Metabolic diet regime.

But I mean when it comes down to it, what will I give up so that I may live?  And why is it within our world giving up is the thing we do that we call living?

I must say that I am only beginning to realize the depth of my illusion and the extent that me as my mind will go to keep my illusion intact – which is actually an absense of control within an illusion of being in control.

An important question that keeps me grounded during those times when the desire to partake overwhelms me, is to ask myself: Will the decision I make fit into the Equality Equation and will it stand according to What’s best for All?  That keeps everything in perspective.

Alright it’s time for bed…

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Day 238: Calling the Beast by it’s Name – Breast Cancer – The Four Laws of Cancer – Day 23

The following taken from the Book: One answer to Cancer by William Donald Kelley, D.D.S., M.S.

The Four Laws of Cancer
You cannot have cancer unless three factors are present.

These three factors are:
The presence of an ectopic germ cell
The stimulating presence of the female sex hormones
A deficiency of active pancreatic enzymes

First Law: The Body Fails to Produce an Adequate Amount of Active Pancreatic Enzymes for One of Three Reasons:

83% — Overworking the pancreas by the intake of too much protein
10% — Neurological injury to pancreatic enzyme production
7% — Malfunction of body chemistry inactivating the enzymes

Second Law:  Protein Is Gradually Sapped from Muscles

Our research indicates that in 93% of all cancer cases the development of cancer is gradual. The average cancer patient has had cancer 39 months before it is clinically diagnosed. The important factor here is not that it is slow growing, but rather what happens to the body during this growth time — the body must have protein to live, but during this 39 months the body could not get enough protein from its food supply. Therefore, to keep the blood protein at a minimal level to sustain life, the body very gradually saps or destroys the muscles of the body.

Third Law:  Damaged Tissue and Female Hormones at the Site of a Latent, Misplaced Ectopic Germ Cell Set the Scene for Cancer

At this point the conditions are ripe for the symptom cancer to develop. All that is needed is something to stimulate the female sex hormone formation at the site of a misplaced ectopic germ cell. This is most often done by scar formation caused by a blow, a bruise, a drop of tar in the lung, a sun burn, an overdose of X-ray, or anything else that can cause a normal scar formation procedure to take place in the body — at the site of a latent ectopic germ cell. This is normal wear and tear of the body, which happens to each of us every day; it is only when our protein metabolism is deficient that the symptom cancer develops.

Now the ectopic germ cell mistakenly thinks it is time to have a baby and starts growing a placenta (cancer) in preparation for a baby that never develops. The only trouble is, without proper amounts of pancreatic enzymes circulating in our bloodstream to dissolve this abnormal placenta, it keeps growing and does not stop. When the patient finally consults the physician the condition of cancer is announced and surgery, radiation and chemotherapy are recommended.

Fourth Law: For Cancer To Be Cured There Must Be A Positive Change In The Physiology Of The Patient

If nothing changes in the physiology of the patient, the cancer grows until it destroys the body. If something positive changes in the physiology of the patient one of two things can happen:

One person with cancer lasts a long time while another person with the same type of cancer goes rapidly — and, before now, no one knew why.

The right combination of circumstances occurs, and the cancer is dissolved or cured.

Artwork by: Marlen Vargas Del Razo

Metabolic Ignorance

There are many causes for the failure of our pancreatic metabolic function. Often more than one cause exists simultaneously within the cancer patient. Listed below are some of these and all must be considered as possible or ruled out as non-causative in each cancer patient:

• The pancreas fails to produce an adequate quantity of enzymes.
• We take into our bodies such large quantities of foods, which require pancreatic enzymes for their digestion, that there are no enzymes available for cancer digestion.
• Diet: Incorrect type, amount, and timing of nutritional intake.
• Nutritional Components are not available (vitamins, minerals, amino acids, etc.) that are necessary for normal metabolism within the pancreas.
• We may fail to take into our diet enough minerals, which are essential to release the enzymes into activity.
• We may produce enough enzymes but we fail to take into our diet enough coenzymes (vitamins) to make the enzymes work.
• Failure of the Small Intestine to make adequate pancreatic activators.
• Obstruction of pancreatic secretion flow.
• Often we produce enough enzymes, but the blood supply to a cancer area is so poor the enzymes we produce are not carried to the area.
• Proper pH Balance (acid/alkaline balance) within the intestinal tract and/or within the cancer tumor mass.
• Infection: Bacterial or viral.
• Chemical Poisons within the patient’s body from the environment, food chain, drugs, metabolic wastes or medications.
• Man Made Biologicals: Viruses or infectious agents.
• Emotional instability and/or trauma.
• Non-Absorption of pancreatic secretions (pancreatin) from the intestines into the body due to scarring or damage to the small intestine from various diseases.
• Our bodies produce anti-enzyme factors. These factors keep the enzymes from digesting our own bodies. Sometimes we produce an over-abundant supply of these anti-enzyme factors.
• Balance: Instability and weakness of the autonomic nervous system.
• Genetic: Inheriting a very small, or weak or defective (ineffective) pancreas.
• Radiation Damage such as from therapeutic procedures, etc.

“The most essential part of resolving the metabolic malfunction of those with pancreatic failure is to get the enzymes to the affiliated areas of deterioration. We must have enough enzymes there to stop any further deterioration of body tissue.” William Donald Kelley, D.D.S., M.S.

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Alright so, today is my 4th day ‘ON’, meaning that I’m currently taking 10 pancreatic enzymes 6 times a day. This with the combined effort of vitamin B17 therapy is assisting my physical body to dissolve the lump/cancer. This is my third time on the enzymes and the longest time I’ve been able to stay on them before extreme symptoms of toxicity begins,  is 14 days. At that point I go OFF the enzymes and B17 for 5 days to give my body the time to repair itself.

I also just received the results and a baseline number for my HCG Specimen Test.

Dear Cathy,
Your HCG Test Result on 06/05/2013 is:
Index + 4,(53.0 Int. Units)

Please read here about the HCG Specimen Test

Ideally my next test will show an increase in the index before it decreases, which will mean that my treatment thus far is effective. Every day I’m becoming more and more aware of when I experience pain and changes in my physical body. For instance today I experienced pain in my left groin area which coincided with me participating in thoughts where I was doubting myself. It’s also important to note that there is some change that I can physically see to the lump in that it appears to be breaking up and/or reducing some in size, though it’s very subtle.
With the amount of pancreatic enzymes I’m up to now it’s normal that I experience physical weakness, nausea and/or headaches as well as other symptoms. I take care in making sure I don’t over exert myself and recently bought a portable sauna for a cheap price and was able to use it for the first time today. Afterwards I noticed a decrease in pain in my upper back. Sweating is also great for our cardiovascular system.

I’m very fortunate that at the moment we’re able to afford the things I require to continue with the alternative treatment that I’ve chosen. Plenty do not have such an opportunity.

I saw a woman on the news this evening who has been homeless with breast cancer and hasn’t been able to do anything to assist herself. She had just been given a small apartment and will now be given some help to be able to begin orthodox treatment such as radiation and chemo. Those are the only options she has to choose from and I see that as unacceptable. I mean life would be so much simpler with Equal Money and I can’t help but wonder what kind of hell is going to have to break loose on earth before we come together and give as we’d like to receive...

***Please remember:  This is my specific alternative treatment plan and I am in no way claiming this to be some sort of miracle cure.***

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Day 237: Calling the Beast by it’s Name – Breast Cancer – My Death Illusion – Day 22

On April 17 2013, after being diagnosed with Breast Cancer, I began applying the Metabolic Cancer Cure regime – which includes nutrition therapy, enzyme and vitamin therapy. For further clarity please read One Answer to Cancer.

As I’ve shared before, following the diet has been one of the most difficult things I’ve ever done and what I’m realizing is that as I’ve been designing my daily routine I’ve been aware of how I’ve been withdrawing within myself in fear, isolation and paranoia within an illusion that I have about what my death will be like.   The illusion itself has been an effective manipulation tool and one I’ve secretly held within me as I’ve focused on making sure my daily routine resulted in an adequate healing environment for my physical body – all the while secretly participating in my illusion of death which fueled inner backchat / internal conversations and evolved into paranoia.

Artwork by Matti Freeman
There is also a relationship connection where my paranoia conflicts with the daily commitment I made to myself to  investigate who I am as consciousness as my mind –  the committment to write and keep a daily account of my process and to forgive and redesign myself according to what’s best for all.

So, instead of applying myself with writing and self-forgiveness /self-correction  - I’ve been paranoid and experiencing resistance to daily writing and as a result, I’ve not been consistent with documenting my process of walking with breast cancer.   So, what I’m realizing is that not doing so is manifesting more fear / paranoia within me which serves to fuel the very thing as the resistance that I’m having difficulty moving through and thus I haven’t been able to face the reality of who I am within this all.

And, I mean I’ve only recently become aware of how, with regards to death and dying, I’ve had a fairytale about it in how I ‘thought’ my death would be. So now, facing the reality of how much pleasure I’ve taken from my own death illusion, it’s like, it’s quite disturbing…Because, within my secret mind, for years I’ve imagined that I would die in my sleep, kind of graceful like – similar to what’s described in the Eqafe interview: Dying in your Sleep – Death Research, which certainly got my attention. It’s a Must hear!

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“Illusion is the first of all pleasures.” ~ Oscar Wilde

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to place a preference in how I will die because I’ve defined death and dying as having failed at life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe my death will be like the fairy tales I grew up with where the death and dying experience is romanticized as something that can be done gracefully.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create a paranoia from within an energetic reactive relationship to my fear within the idea of what will happen to me now that I have breast cancer and within that for participating in the backchat / thoughts further fueling the illusion within my mind and therefore keeping myself in inner conflict which produces resistance.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become so caught up in fear, paranoia and an illusion of how Not to experience death that I never actually considered what it would mean to live life without suppression, control and domination as how we exist now within and as our current world/money system.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give pleasure and meaning to my illusions of death.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to project the past as a memory / illusion onto myself as the thought of how I would walk my process if I were to become ill/sick/diseased.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the energy within the fear of dying to take me into a state of paranoia.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to avoid investigating the pre-existing memories / relationships and programming in relation to death within my mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that in relation to death I have an entire personality system.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give up on myself and therefore give up on life.

When and as I see myself wanting to react in/ as a negative and/or positive energetic experience specifically related to the idea/ illusions that I have about dying from cancer, I stop, I breathe. I see, realize and understand that me as my mind is using energy to justify my fear of facing the reality of my situation, as that of having cancer and the fear of dying from cancer.

I commit myself to stop justifying and giving myself reasons why it’s ok to avoid facing my fear of dying from cancer which is actually a fear of taking self responsibility for what is actually real within my reality therefore, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear seeing who I am void of my illusions / fairytales in relationship to the reality of life and death.

I commit myself to further investigate who I am in relation to death as a personality system and to one by one stop the illusions of the happily ever after life and death fairytales within my mind.

I commit myself to assist and support myself in my process in realizing the life opportunity that exists within being here with the ability to write myself to freedom with No regrets as I continue here my Journey to Life in calling the beast by it’s name and facing who I am as breast cancer by/through beginning in this moment to document and blog this my Journey to Life.

I commit myself to face reality, to come to terms with how this reality actually exist within our current world/money system so that I can place myself in a position to change it to one that supports life according to what’s best for all.

more to come…

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“The point of Writing is to Prepare oneself to Overcome the Ideology that Consciousness presents as Individuality. It’s not making things pretty, because pretty only exist in Consciousness. Writing separates those that will be able to eventually become equal as Life from those that will Not. Because those that will – do the Physical part of Writing, will demonstrate and be able to empower themselves to structurally co-exist with other living forms and First get the Importance that only as a group, where no Individuality exists that seek self interest – will be able to Bring the Primary Group on Earth, which is Life, to Fruition. So, Consciousness in itself is the greatest limitation, because it limits one to your individual illusion and Consciousness always argues for its right to be limited, because through that: it can claim it’s not responsible for what is actually happening on Earth. Thought in itself is a representation of the acceptance of Limitation to Individual Illusion. When Life is Realised: the Illusion of Individuality disappears and Life Remains. Yet, an Astounding event emerges – REAL Individual Form in Great Unique Magnificence emerge, one that exists as Glory of Life without Fear.” – Bernard Poolman

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Day 236: Calling the Beast by it’s Name – Breast Cancer – Fear of Death – Day 21

For Context Read:
Day 215: The results show

For exactly 63 days now, at least once a day, I’ll have a sudden rush of energy swell up within me – within the center of my body, between my upper back and my upper chest area and depending on what triggers it, it may produce intense momentary pain. And it scares the hell out of me when it happens.

Now, this particular point began 63 days ago when I was told that I have breast cancer. Every day since then, the fear of dying comes for me to face, and there is much resistance.

Artwork by Mike Lammers
As I’ve been investigating this and asking myself some questions, I’ve come to discover that what I fear losing are the relationships that I have, like my relationship with my daughter and my partner for instance. But what is it that I fear losing exactly? I fear losing control, or rather I fear losing the perception within my mind of being in control.

And I mean, I have placed value in every relationship I have and that value can be measured in energy within the starting point of fear. Fear of losing control and fear of loss.  But the fear of loss is the fear of losing the value / definition I’ve given to myself through the energy of /as the relationship.

Suggest Read: Day 406: Relationship Paranoia Guidelines

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear dying for completely selfish reasons.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear taking my last breath because I see, realize and understand that how I have perceived that moment to be is in fact Not real and exists only within my mind and therefore I commit myself to when and as I see myself triggered by a memory or a thought within the idea and fear of taking my last breath, I stop. I focus on my breathing.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist in shame and fear within the need to have or be with someone / in a relationship in order to confirm the definition I have of who I am.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed mysefl to hold myself into and with a relationship with my mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist within an unwillingness to look at my fear of death in self honesty, to see for myself who, what and how I am equal and one with / as my fear of death.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear losing control of the need to worry over and protect my children, and for the reactions/energetic experience I create for myself as one of being a hero as a result of my fear of losing control.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to place value in my relationships according to the level of manipulation that I’ve used to control others and/or to fulfill my idea/perception of being in control based upon a positive energy experience/charge.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use relationships to abdicate taking responsibility for how our current world/money system exists.

I commit myself to let go of and stop worrying over and believing in the urge to protect my children because I see, realize and understand that they’re okay and will be okay and I commit myself to move myself to face all of me.

When and as I see myself participating in a negative energy experience within the fear of dying, I stop. I Breathe. Instead I direct myself to see, realize and understand that it is not possible to lose myself therefore, I commit myself to stand for me in and as breath here.

I commit myself to give myself the chance to forgive my fear of leaving or losing myself.

I commit myself to redirect amd redefine who I am within and as my relationships according to what’s best for all.

Alright, more to come.

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Day 235: Calling the Beast by it’s Name – Breast Cancer – The Cancer Paranoia – Day 20

There is a tremendous amount of paranoia within our society about cancer and the fear of getting it. In 1981, when a childhood friend of mine was diagnosed with cancer at 21, I was only slightly moved by the news of it … I was 22, married with two small children, and life, seemed to be passing me by. I was oblivious to the goings on within the world as a whole. I was too busy being consumed with finding a job that paid enough to feed and clothe my kids and hopefully a job I didn’t totally hate to go to.

I didn’t allow myself to take even a moment to realize how every time I heard about her cancer I cringed inside with paranoia, fear of the same thing happening to me. Instead I found comfort in entertainment/photography, things that I used to distract myself and, I believed the secret thoughts in my head that said, ‘naw, that’ll never happen to me’…

Here 32 years later, I have breast cancer…

Now when you’re told you have cancer, you become paranoid, bombarded with thoughts. Your mind can be characterized as a kind of suspiciousness with extremely fearful thought patterns focused on the fear of dying. So it’s easy to see how the traditional orthodox treatments for cancer are accepted and followed through with in fear of dying within a state of paranoia. So, I mean paranoia is a mental disorder where the consequences of existing in such a state-of-mind, can be deadly.

“Paranoia is Just a ‘pretty word,’ Meaningless in a way because Conveniently anything that seems to be ‘Abnormal’ may be classified as Paranoia, so it Needs to have a Word that is More Specific. Paranoia comes from the ‘Para-Noise’, the Paranoise comes from the Paranormal, the Paranormal comes from the Parapsychology and the Parapsychology is the Study of ‘Strange Events’ . But Not really – it is just Studying things that you Cannot Really Physically Touch like Ghosts and Thoughts, because Thoughts are like Ghosts: they are here now and then they’re Gone – in a Few Hours You Will Not be able to Remember the Exact Thought you had, you’ll be able to say “I Thought About” but You will Not Be Able to Recall the Exact Thought and Have it in Exactly the Same Way – also when you are Thinking about Something and Specially during the stage of the Developing Paranoia, the Thought will Repeat itself but In that Process, the Thought will Develop. So the Thought will be Changing and Progressively become More Obsessive and It Will Move You as the One having the ‘Paranoise’ the Paranoid Thought more and more to the Center of the Thought Convincing you that ‘the Thought is Right’ and you will so Change even Your Memory Eventually Claiming that ‘You are Right’.” Bernard Poolman

Investigating further into my past of paranoia,,,

The date was January 18, 1977, I was 17, married, had a newborn baby and paranoid as hell at just becoming a mom. In my paranoia I wouldn’t notice that the very treatment I would some day seek to treat my own cancer, was being fought for in a court of law.

Acting as his own defense attorney, John A. Richardson, M.D., was going to trial, for the 4th time. Here is part of his opening statement:

“Ladies and Gentlemen of the jury: You are sitting in judgment of a case that may be one of the most important in American history. The issue is not smuggling, but literally whether medical science is to be frozen by bureaucratic fiat.

The lives of millions are in the balance. I am charged with conspiracy to smuggle – but the purpose of this prosecution is not to punish a smuggler – but forever to chain the advancement of medical science to political whim…

The logical question now is why everybody would get so excited about a doctor using Vitamin B17 in his practice. This is a simple question, but the answer is very complicated. Let me try to make sense out of it for you.

Every year more than 370,000 Americans are killed by cancer. It is by far the most feared of the deadly diseases. Man has with little success, been looking for a cure to this horrible killer for ages. Much of the research has been sponsored by the American Cancer Society, established long ago by the Rockefeller family and some of its business friends. Since they were in the petroleum and drug businesses they were interested in looking for a solution to this cancer threat that involved the use of synthetic drugs. As it happens, most synthetic drugs have a coal-tar base; that is, they are derivatives of petroleum. Over the past several decades the American Cancer Society has financed and directed the vast majority of the cancer research in this country through grants. There may or may not have been something sinister in all this, but the point is that if you wanted money to do cancer research you were most likely to get it by looking in an area which involves the use of coal-tar-based chemicals and assorted synthetic medicines.

Maybe they have not been looking in the right place. There is another theory on the prevention and control of cancer. This lies in the field of orthomolecular medicine. That is the term coined in 1968 by Linus Pauling, the famous Nobel laureate.” ~John A. Richardson, M.D.,

“Our research shows that the incidence and severity of cancer depends upon diet.” Linus Pauling

“Probably the most difficult thing to understand about all this, is that men of science could be so foolish as to foreclose the avenue suggested by Pauling and others. Cancer is such a horrible disease that it staggers the mind to think that every possibility of finding a means of prevention or remedy is not being exhaustively explored. Cynics have pointed out that with the billions of dollars flowing into cancer research – that is, cancer research of the “right” kind – there is more money to be made looking for a cure than in actually finding it. The trouble is, as I have explained, that scientists are being financed to look for the answer to cancer only within the realm of traditional cancer therapies. They have not been able to get money to investigate the field of nutrition as it relates to cancer.

There is an obvious tendency for the federally regulated big drug companies, the medical politicians of the American Cancer Society, and the Food and Drug Administration to act as one big happy family. We all know that many generals and admirals leave the Pentagon and retire to cushy jobs with defense contractors. Then they proceed to negotiate defense contracts with their old chums. This fact of political life has received a fair amount of publicity. What has received virtually no publicity is the fact that the same kind of musical chairs is played among the drug company giants, the AMA, and the Food and Drug Administration. Much of this, incidentally has been brought out by Senator William Proxmire of Wisconsin. 

What it all means is that, by operating in both the private and public sectors, a powerful clique has a hammerlock on research and treatment in the field of cancer. If you are on their team and play the cancer game their way, you are respectable and you get public recognition with lots of generous grants. If you are not on their team and persist, you will be vilified as a quack preying upon the suffering of others.

The oil companies want to sell petroleum products to the pharmaceutical companies. The drug companies want to sell their products to doctors and hospitals. Doctors are trained to do so, and ignorant of other alternatives in indicated cases, want to perform operations and use radiation and chemotherapy. Scientists want grants. Bureaucrats want to expand their authority by getting the federal government more and more involved in medicine, and they recognize the fear of cancer as an excuse for doing so.” ~John A. Richardson, M.D., Laetrile Case Histories

Alright so it is absolutely vital that we investigate who we are as paranoia so that we can make decisions for ourself and our world according to what’s best for all.  Profiting off the suffering of others is quite the debt to pay, and, one that will accumulate until it touches everyone of us.   Investigate the Solution as part of The Equal Life Foundation.

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“So, with this – we are living in absolute unawareness to the ‘debt as consequence’ we are accumulating in our mind-physical relationship, with the consequence the mind create in the body, our relationship to others, the consequence we’re accumulating for ourselves in our responsibility for what we accept/allow to do in thought, word and deed and how it affect/influence ourselves and others, and the consequence we’re accumulating in this physical existence with doing NOTHING to practically change life one earth that we are continuing to just accept and allow without change. Thus, consequence is DEBT accumulating, we ‘owe Responsibility’ in the sense that – we’re NOT taking responsibility for what we DO and who we are within it, we just ignore/deny/resist/suppress it. Not realising that the DEBT, the Consequence is not going anywhere – it’s busy accumulating internally and externally, this one can hear in the Future of Consciousness Series as well as just investigating/educating yourself with regards to the REALITY of how this World System/Money System currently functions.” Sunette Spies

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LECTURE BY MR. G. EDWARD GRIFFIN
Author of “World Without Cancer: The Story of Vitamin B–17″

Day 234: Calling the Beast by it’s Name – Breast Cancer – may we not be found wanting/desiring – Day 19

For Context Read: Day 233: Calling the Beast by it’s Name – Breast Cancer – Surviving Normal & Desteni – Day 18

“May we not be found wanting/desiring.” Bernard Poolman

I read that quote by Bernard for the first time some 4 years ago or so and today it assisted me to remember to breathe…It’s been raining all day which is great because we need the rain. The problem is the constant sound of the slow rain began to activate a memory of myself sitting in front of the t.v., watching a romantic comedy on the t.v., and eating my favorite comfort food. Before I know it I processed that memory into thinking and imagining myself eating a big bowl of mac and cheese or a big slice of chocolate cake.

(Suggest to Read for Claritly: Being able to Stop Thoughts – proves that both ‘who I am’ and Thought itself is Illusion: DAY 377)

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to become addicted to, and long for a relationship to food to provide an energetic experience for my mind defined as comfort.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to abuse my physical body by ingesting certain foods that create a chemical feeling experience of happiness.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to depend upon the positive energy experience from eating sugar and chocolate and coffee to stimulate and motivate me to move myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to turn to food for a relationship as a replacement to having a relationship / self-intimacy with who I am as my physical body.

It’s crazy how strong the desire within me is to just give in and allow myself to eat anything and everything that I want. But I mean, then what? What I know is that I’ve done that a million times in my life so I already know that nothing is ever as great as the idea of it within our mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in the memory of myself sitting at home on a rainy day watching feel good movies and eating as a way of comforting myself to avoid facing who I am within the fear and hollowness of longing.

So, how come I keep taking the bait so to speak? How come I keep giving in to the temptation to participate in the thoughts about eating dead food when I know full well that I will Not give in and eat that which will harm my physical body/ process of healing?

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to ingest foods according to my own personal interests/opinions and fears as a brainwashed consumer.

Following the Metabolic Diet and eating absolutely no cooked / processed foods is part of the alternative treatment plan that I have chosen to assist my body to dissolve the cancer safely and successfully, so following it to a T is imperative. In my case, it may mean the difference in life or death.

Recently I’ve been investigating who I am with regards to my experience with ‘longing’. The longing to be loved is usually what one might think of when looking at their experience with longing, but for me in this moment my lack of the ability to carry on my relationship to the foods I’ve used for comfort is in immediate need for attention.

It seems like I’ve always longed for something or someone. And the thing about it, even when I got what or who I was longing for, it was never as wonderful as I imagined it would be. Mostly my experience with longing has been one where it’s as if I’m supposed to hold onto something or someone and never let go.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear for my future without something to look forward to.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to reach for something to put into my mouth as a way to pacify and manipulate myself to the point where I settle into my own little world within my mind and the hell with everybody else.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to avoid taking self-responsibility for the horrors that occur daily within our world/money system because to acknowledge them would mean admitting that I to am responsible for accepting and allowing them.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define something and/or someone as that which I have a relationship with as being important, valuable and precious because I see, realize and understand that within that exist fear of loss, fear of losing my relationships and definitions which has been the very structure of my existence and that which I fear giving up.

When and as I see myself ignoring and/or distracting myself with a memory of my past behaviors on a rainy day I Stop. I Breathe. I see, realize and understand that this is a point that I’ve always avoided which is actually just a point of being ok here with myself, breathing.

When and as I see myself defining something and/or someone that I have a relationship with as  important, valuable and precious, I stop. I Breathe.

I commit myself to stop giving myself excuses, reasons and justifications such as: I still want to do that, I still want to have that, I must still experience this, I must still have that, etc.

Alright, I will continue to investigate this point.

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“I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that Consumerism and the Way of Influence is Based on the Right of the Consumer to Refuse the Product, yet with the Will Power of the Consumer Influenced, the Profiteer happily transfers Responsibility to the Consumers, always Not with all the Information, but with Enough to Influence the Will of the Consumer. This subtle Brainwash Makes all Humans thusly Influenced without Morals and Not Worthy of Trust – as the Consumers, as Product of Consumerism, will Never Act in the Interest of Life and will in fact see Life as a Threat to their Happiness and Happily Sell their SOULD for just a bit of Happiness.” Bernard Poolman

“I commit myself to show that all Abuse on Earth is a Matter of Deliberate Will and that this Deliberateness Accumulates through small allowances to Eventually Look Like Circumstances, while the Outcome was Always Measurable from the beginning. Advertising that molds Will to Brand Loyalty for Instance, uses the Small Measures to Get the Eventual Controlled outcome for Profit and in Part of the Design of individual Will utilized to Shape the will of Man in Consumerism.” Bernard Poolman

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Day 233: Calling the Beast by it’s Name – Breast Cancer – Surviving Normal & Desteni – Day 18

For a few days now I’ve wrestled with a thought / backchat within my head saying: ‘I just want to feel normal’. I stopped it when I became aware of it in the beginning. When it came back, I mocked it within myself, so basically, I was mocking myself… Making fun of the thought, making fun of myself. This is how me as my mind as consciousness has become as I’ve continued to give the thought ‘I just want to feel normal’ the key to my peace of mind by participating in and as automated actions/patterns of myself,  even as I became aware of them.

I mean, that’s pretty much how I’ve always existed.  In fear,  surviving normal. Within that always longing for that feeling/experience like falling in love or falling into another addictive behavior, but either way, normal becomes comfortable and routine.  Basically, we get up in the morning, take a shower, eat, go to work, go to lunch, go back to work, blah, blah, blah, go home, watch tv, go to bed, get up the next day and repeat…You get the picture. Just tow the line and follow the rules of our current world/money system so we can stop fearing for our very survival and get to  ’feeling normal’.

The problem is, that which has been normal, has been a LIE.  Our idea of normal is motivated by fear and self-interest.  And when that moment comes, when you must investigate who you are because you realize you are brainwashed and automated and then you realize you feel strangely comfortable about being so.

It seems odd to find comfort hidden within that which we fear and yet we do.  So, we just keep doing the same thing day in and day out because we believe we have to to survive, and within my mind, I’ve imagined so much more for myself, but I could never move myself to a point of actual real self change.

So, what I’ve realized is with my diagnosis of cancer, I’ve had to become very strict with my eating and now I’m realizing just how much I’ve used food to give myself comfort and a feeling of normal.  So in a way it’s as if I’m longing / searching for some sort of way to feel better as a way to replace the relationship and socializing I once had with food.    Once in awhile the desire/urge/energetic longing to taste a warm cooked meal becomes so overwhelming until I realize that all I have to do is to Stop and to Breathe.   Participating in my past as memories seems to diminish the desire/longing and gives me the illusion of feeling normal and comforted even if it is a lie…

Then yesterday, I heard: Awakening to Purpose by Bernard Poolman.

Hearing it reminded me of when my normal began to change, which was when I discovered Desteni. I use the word ‘discovered’ on purpose because the ‘Desteni Material’, is like a Treasure trove of Rare ArtiFACTS.

Reading the Desteni Material, I immediately became aware of how the Principle of Equality would forever rock the hell out of my idea of ‘normal’.

For the first time in my life, I began to realize just how ‘brainwashed’ I really am. In that moment, I didn’t know what all I would uncover about myself within those rare artiFacts, but as I began to apply the tools of self-forgiveness and self-honesty, I noticed something unexpected in the releasing of fears.

I was able to prove to/for myself that I Can change and redesign myself and within that become aware of how and what I’ve accepted and allowed to exist within this world.  And once I’ve begun to see that for myself, then I’ve been able to take self-responsibility to learn how to Give as I’d like to receive.  This means supporting a system that will guarantee the support of Life according to what’s Best for All,  and, will bring an end to suffering on a Global scale.  How can any one of us accept our idea’s and comforts of ‘normal’ when ‘normal’ has never brought an end to suffering?

So, there’s normal, as how normal has always beed defined according to how we’ve existed, where we’re constantly trying to survive our accepted and allowed version of normal within our abusive world/money system, and then, there’s Desteni.

Desteni is the Rock, the Place where Practicality meets Solutions and Creates a World according to what’s best for All.

Alright so what I’ve realized is, the thought:  ’I just want to feel normal’, is an amazing tool for me to gauge/see what I am currently choosing to accept and allow. And, what I see, realize and understand is that this thought/backchat is merely a trigger from my past and a reminder that I don’t have to run away in fear of the Beast as Cancer.  That in order to bring myself full circle to a point where I understand how I manifested Cancer within and as my physical body in the first place, is going to require an awakening to purpose beginning with a re-committment to myself to Breathe and remain consistent and stable.

I mean, it was just over a year ago that I made a committment to walk this my Journey to Life, to blog/write, and to within that, Face All of me. To understand and assist myself to Forgive and Release who I am as a Slave to/as my mind.   To redesign myself, and to forever Stand in Full Support of Life, through supporting an Equal Money System.

I can no longer deny the truth. That Life, within our current Money System, is Cruel, and Deadly. And, I am no longer willing to accept this as the kind of world we offer to the children who continue to be born here.

I re-commit myself to my process of walking/daily blogging my Journey to Life,  to take Self-responsibility for who I am as my thoughts, feelings and emotions/reactions and to forgive, release and redesign myself according to and as all as one as equal.

Because, what’s considered ‘normal’ within our world, is Starvation, Poverty, Profit over loss of life, and that, is unacceptable.

I commit myself to redefine who I am as ‘normal’ through becoming a living example of supporting Life according to what’s Best for All.

Alright then, much for me to investigate.  I will continue in my next blog…

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“There cannot be a greater life after this one because this one is creating the next – you cannot be that stupid to believe that from here will flow something better. You move from here to face consequence, so from here at death things gets worse, much worse, because you have to face what you have allowed. We suggest you do it, face it right here. You die in fact alive in the physical through self-forgiveness taking yourself to nothingness where you stop what you’ve allowed. Where you then emerge like you did as a child from the womb, from this darkness, this nothingness, and it’s not to fear because you did come from it.” Bernard Poolman

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Recommed Watching: Awakening to Purpose

Day 232: Calling the Beast by it’s Name – Breast Cancer – Angelina Jolie’s double mastectomy – Day 17

Angelina Jolie’s double mastectomy is the buzz on the internet today. Some say she’s heroic, other’s are asking how heroic is it when one has the money to buy a network of the finest surgeons. Personally, I see her decision as a common one amongst those who, like her, have the Money to afford such an option.

The truth is, having both breasts, or any member of one’s physical body removed, would have to be a completely horrifying experience. In my case, removal of both my breasts was suggested, but, having read years of research and cancer statistics, I was surprised to learn that there have been reports of an actual 4% increase in survival rate among those with cancer who went untreated.

We refer to the miracle of preventative medicine instead of pointing out the obvious truth about preventative medicine which is that there is No preventative medicine unless one has Alot of Money to purchase it.

And, actually, that’s all that preventative medicine is. It’s a Money-making machine that most of us only get to nibble on. So, what is so Heroic about being able to afford such an opportunity?

Dr. Hardin B. Jones, Ph.D., professor of medical physics and physiology at the University of California at Berkeley, and a recognized authority on cancer demography summarized the point this way:

“It is utter nonsense to claim that catching cancer symptoms early enough will increase the patient’s chances of survival. Not one medical scientist or study has proven that in any way. My studies have proved conclusively that untreated cancer victims actually live up to four times longer than treated individuals.”

So, from my perspective, I don’t see Angelina’s decision as heroic, but I do agree that there’s much from her story that we can learn from. We can take this opportunity to ask some important questions. Like how come only those who are able to afford the luxury of a $3000 cancer gene test get the chance to do so while the majority of us never will? And, how come we not only support these rich people to continue to afford such luxuries, but, how come we also refer to them as being a hero for being able to do so?

The fact still remains that there is more to cancer than the ‘cancer establishment’ and our ‘healthcare system’ would like us to acknowledge. One only have to educate themselves a little to be able to grasp the level of deception that exists therein.

Still, lung, stomach, liver, colon and breast cancer cause the most cancer deaths each year – which makes for a money-making business that cannot be denied..  We must ask ourselves how it is that we’ve been so completely brainwashed by the Healthcare Industry and the Pharmaceutical Industries, that we’ve willingly accepted traditional orthodox treatment – for many different reasons, but the biggest reason being that of Money, Profit and Greed.

We only have to follow the money trail to see who’s in charge and actually making our decisions for us. The insurance company will pay for our treatment with the approval of our healthcare provider.  I mean, what the hell!  We don’t really have a choice except the choice we’re given.   And more than not, we make our decisions to accept orthodox treatment because we scared as hell and we find comfort in following the patterns/choices of those who’ve gone before us, even if that choice, in the end, failed them.

I suggest we stop and reconsider the research and the findings about cancer and stop being so willing to walk the line because as history is proving, orthodox treatments are causing our physical body more harm than good.

And, let’s stop referring to people as being our hero, simply because they happen to have the money to afford that which very few can.

Let’s agree on a Solution that will be life-supportive for Everybody. Then, we won’t need to seek for hero’s,  because Life itself will be honored through our Giving as we would like to Receive.

Books to Read and Video’s to see about Cancer:

A World Without Cancer

One Answer to Cancer

Laetrile Case Histories

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Suggested blogs to follow:
Creation Journey to Life
Heaven Journey to Life
Earth Journey to Life
Economist Journey to Life

Day 231: Calling the Beast by it’s Name – Breast Cancer – First do No harm – Day 16

It is suggested that every fourth day the Cancer Patient rub oil from head to toe, sit in a hot tub of water for 15 minutes, and then crawl in bed, cover yourself up with tons of covers and sweat for an hour to release toxins. When I first did it, God I hated it. Mostly because I didn’t like laying in bed sweating for the hour. I felt the same about my two daily baths in the beginning. I take a really hot bath in the morning with a cup of apple cider vinegar added to the water, which aids in leveling one’s PH balance… In late afternoon, I take another really hot bath this time with Epsom salt. It seems odd to think that my mind as consciousness didn’t enjoy soaking in a hot tub of water a couple of times a day but every day the first 2 weeks bath time came with much resistance. Now, I absolutely enjoy them.

Since the biggest part of my treatment is about detoxing, it’s important to remain consistent and keep it simple through remaining within the guidelines of the metabolic diet. The results are that I’m slowly dissolving the lump/cancer from my physical body. (Please remember that this is my treatment plan and in no way is meant to be considered as a cure and/or a miracle of some kind.)

Some people may not realize that when a person has Chemotherapy and Radiation, the reason they become sick is because their body becomes toxic. Which is why detoxing for them is also very important but the Cancer Patient on Chemo or Radiation may not be aware of what is happening to their physical body during the process they’ve embarked upon.

Chemo and Radiation is Not and will Not ever be a solution for me partly because of the particular type of cancer that I have and also, because having investigated and researched the traditional orthodox treatments, I’ve definitely concluded that it doesn’t make sense for something to be considered a Solution when that something kills everything it comes into contact with – chemo poisons and radiation burns the Physical body as well as destroys all types of healthy cells in an attempt to kill the cancer cells.

Artwork by: Damian Ledesma
It makes sense to me that the treatment plan must ‘first do no harm’ to the physical body in anyway whatsoever .. The treatment plan for the Cancer Patient must provide the utmost care that one can give to self and respect must be given in protecting the physical body from any further damage no matter what. That is not so easy because to remove one’s favorite foods and the removal of their place in society as the food requires a dedication to self that one cannot typically prepare for.

I mean, what I’m realizing is that it’s the simplest physical actions of my treatment plan that’s assisting me with stability with a glimpse of self-intimacy, where I’m actually beginning to have a relationship with who I am as my physical body – instead of judging my body through mind/thought participation… It’s a difficult thing to admit about myself. Seeing myself beneath the shame of realizing that I’ve never had that – never had an intimate relationship with me as my physical body. The kind of relationship where I take responsibility for everything going in and coming out both within my mind/physical body/reality.

Another interesting thing is that keeping it simple means keeping to foods that are raw and fresh according to what grows here naturally on Earth, like nuts, seeds, fruits and vegetables. And, did you know a simple warm cup of water with fresh squeezed lemon juice is the very thing to assist the kidneys to flush toxins?

It’s interesting that Nature’s defense against cancer is not only the pancreatic enzyme’s and vitamin B-17 therapy but there’s also a group of Doctor’s in Europe that have reported that hyperthermy – which is a deliberate raising of the patient’s body temperature – that hyperthermy has increased the effectiveness of the vitamin therapy so greatly that when the body temperature is raised from it’s normal 37 degrees to 41 degrees Celsius or 98.6 to 105.8 degrees Fahrenheit, that there is a gain in effect from 3 to 10 fold.

So in other words, at the higher temperature it takes only 1/3 to 1/10 as much B-17 to achieve a given anti-cancer effect. So, it’s possible that the formative function of the cancer cell is impaired by the increase oxygenation and circulation that’s associated with having a fever. So the Solution to Disease/Cancer is definitely in keeping it simple through a means of appropriate nutrition rather than drugs.

I mean just over 5 years ago, I didn’t worry about the strain I caused within my physical body every time I popped a pill. Today that memory came forth as I was soaking in my last bath. I became aware of how my secret mind was looking for/to the memory of me popping a pain pill for comfort. Instead I breathed, and I realize that I’ve never ever felt so comfortable within and as my physical body.  It’s like I’m beginning to understand the meaning of taking responsibility for oneself.  I’m beginning to enjoy who I am as my Physical body and the fact is, Everyone should have the same opportunity that I have.

I’m able to get up every morning and do what I have to do to prepare my daily nutrition schedule – which is not cheap by the way.  I’m also able to take walks to slowly strengthen my physical body and I am amazed at how when you’re making decisions based on whether or not you’ll be here a year from now – and you know your life depends upon nutritional success – you know you have to remain aware to forgive and stop automated behaviors.

The Cancer Patient cannot afford any added waste of any kind. And, I mean who of us can  afford to waste one more minute in our delusions of grandeur? How come we won’t see how we’ve placed ourselves within our current money system - that is constantly supported through the use of orthodox medicine?   We can all dance around the subject but most of us get that something isn’t right with how our current world/money systems are established and exist as.  We see how corrupt things are and how they move within our world. How the rich are only rich because the poor are poor.

Because Money after all, makes the world go round.. But, why should the establishment/system/government/pharmaceutical industries/the AMA, etc, why should they be able to profit from illness and death? Why? Because we allow them to. Why do we continue to accept these destroyer of life treatment plans to continue to receive our support for their control over our society/world/reality?

The System is abusive and ineffective. How do we know that? Because what we’re offering in the way of treatment for the ill – because of profit – are radiation and chemotherapy, deadly drugs, killers of life.

Nutrition is the Solution rather than drugs within the Principle of ‘First do no harm’.. To realize that we require an organization like the Equal Life Foundation to see to it that these things are taken care of according to what’s best for all – where we don’t continue down a road where people are being burned and poisoned just so the fat cats can continue their extravagant lifestyles.

What kind of system is that? An Abusive one that is for sure.   Please, Investigate The Equal Life Foundation

Please Read: Day 362: Human Rights and the Equal Life Foundation

Alright so here a bit more clarity with regards to the process I’m walking.  More soon

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Suggested blogs to follow:
Creation Journey to Life
Heaven Journey to Life
Earth Journey to Life
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